Heart

2012-01-30T11:00:00.000+08:00

无聊的我

又开始变得敏感

想哭却又不能哭

2012-01-25T15:24:00.002+08:00

看回以前的文章

感觉真的不一样

最近真的情绪比较敏感

也不知到为什么

就特别特别容易低落

好无奈噢！

原想开开心心的过

可是自己又违了自己的愿

常常觉得自己很傻

常常觉得自己很笨

一二再再而三提醒自己的事情都做不到

又有一点怀疑自己引以为傲的意志力

为什么自己的脑袋瓜就是那么不听话

搞到自己心很乱

自己笨啦！

2012-01-25T08:31:00.002+08:00

陈慧慈

什么事情

都要自己去担

担心害怕又怎样

不可以再失误

不用告诉别人家

因为

只有自己才能解决

一定要铭心

不可以有一点点的依赖

因为别人

也有自己的日子要过

不要给人添麻烦

2012-01-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

最近真的太多无标题的一章啊！

第一次新年一个人在kl过

真的很无聊

去到商场

都不知道要干吗

买东西又不舍得花钱

一个人吃饭都觉得无聊

超可怜

也不敢和朋友说

本是说不在意别人怎么想我

可是心中还是在意

不像破坏别人心中的那个我

什么事情都自己来

什么事情都自己吞

因为不像让别人觉得自己

弱

不像让别人看见我的眼泪

不像让别人看见我不开心

自尊太强

是笨蛋吧

是啊

是个大笨蛋

傻瓜

有够蠢的

2012-01-19T09:21:00.001+08:00

I start to hate myself for that

What a real crazy thought that I had

Let go

LET IT GO

but I can't

I can't

I can't afford to lose that

I can't

LET IT GO

2012-01-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

我真的是笨蛋

又再想为什么对他们那么坦白

他们常常对我说

要尝试被人疼

不要那么独立

要享受被人疼的感觉

不要常常约束自己的感情

事实就是

他们确实就是我人生张那么大

第一次有朋友那么关心与疼爱我

可是

我害怕了

害怕一些

还没有发生的事情

不是我故意去想的

也不是我自愿的

因为有些东西不是说我不想我就会自动不去想的

自己最清楚自己

在每一次的离别都是最痛苦的

所以常常会提醒自己不要太投入

不要那么快一头就栽下去

如果陷得越深

就出不来了

那时侯是很危险的

我自我保护的意识非常高

真的是对不起

我是时候退一步了

现在的我

要常常

提醒自己

不可以太过依赖他们

因为

依赖就会期望

期望就会失望

我现在处于非常矛盾的情况

因为

我害怕伤到自己

可是

退一步对他们来说一点都不公平

那只是我自己的自私

呵呵呵呵呵呵呵

笨蛋的我

傻傻的我（Penang后記）

2012-01-13T00:08:00.001+08:00

在寫這篇的時候

眼淚真的停不下來

想勸自己不要寫

可是這一刻的感覺

最真實

也最珍貴

不寫下來

我也害怕自己會後悔

人生有史以來第一次有那麽大的感觸

再從認識他們的那一瞬間

應該都是注定的吧！

讓我感受到

原來他們都是真心的

關心我

愛護我

疼愛我

保護我

在這次旅途中我生病了

第一次有人那麽緊張

處處照顧我

雖然他們都不是醫生

都醫不好我的病

可是他們每一時刻每一個動作

可能對他們來説什麽都不是

可是對我來説

卻是那麽大的一件事

一個小小的舉動

對我來説可是代表著非常大的意義

幫我買喉糖

幫我蓋被子

幫我煮熱水燙傷了自己

爲了我叫些清淡的

爲了讓我睡好，想了辦法

看見我沒睡，又開始擔心

怕我冷，給我帶了外套

看見什麽對我好的，都會無條件買回來

為我好，逼我喝苦茶

他們真的對我太好了

我長這麽大

從來都沒有朋友那麽對我

讓我的心暖暖的

讓我的心感動的

在他們面前

我就是個小孩子

一個好像長不大的小孩子

我很開心可以遇見他們

我也很幸運、榮幸

可是傻傻的我

一想到天下沒有不散的宴席

就哭了

到那麽一天

我會很不捨得

所以現在的我會害怕哪一天得到來

因爲在我身邊離開的人實在太多

也因爲我失去的也太多

受傷的太多

傷心得也太多

傻傻苯苯蠢蠢的我

又在胡思亂想

又在杞人憂天了嗎？

可是

那些畫面，我一輩子都不會忘記的。

那麽刻骨銘心

那些笑著的臉孔，我也一輩子都不會忘記

那麽的燦爛

被骂后记

2011-12-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

那么一次

就那么一次

竟然被人那么大声对我骂

是因为担心我

是因为害怕我会出事

才那么大声

虽然很委屈

可是

长那么大

也是第一次有朋友那么关心我

和他们认识的第一天

就不断的有了很多的第一次

让我自己

有一点的不习惯

有一点不自在

可是

却给我带来了

一丝丝的温暖

一丝丝的感动

谢谢哦......

莫名的失落

2011-12-23T17:29:00.006+08:00

突然间

感觉到了莫名的失落

常常会在热闹过后

那股冷清

是最可怕的

不是因为害怕孤独与寂寞

而是

热闹后的清静与前一秒的热闹

落差成了超大的对比

才会可怕

才会恐怖

这也可能是为什么

我害怕

那落差

才会想要常常

自己做独行侠

因为习惯了一个人

就不会也不用面对

那股落差

习惯原来是个可怕的东西呀

我在一个人的房里会开始害怕

害怕那空气冷冷滑过身边的声音

害怕自己心跳的声音

我慌了

像个小孩

有在一次自己摸索着答案

一个让自己满意的答案

加油吧

=）

欣慰

2011-12-22T11:22:00.003+08:00

这个学期
非常開心
遇見了一班
無憂無慮
開開心心
鬧哄哄
的一班朋友

可以放肆的做自己
可以亂七八糟的大笑一通
可以非常開心和專心地念書

雖然他們都對我的過去
非常感興趣
可是
每當
一次又一次的說出來
感覺一絲絲隱隱約約的痛
可是
他們在身邊的真實感
讓我平復不少

一而再再而三
的向我肯定
他們不會傷害我
可是
雖然有些害怕
有些畏縮
有些擔憂
可是
這一次
應該不會了吧

開朗又傻傻的我
再一次
慢慢會相信了吧?
我自己也不知道也

那些年

2011-11-14T08:30:00.002+08:00

终于看了这部我一直非常期待的电影

我羡慕沈佳宜！
有那么一个柯腾在她的身边
那么用心的在爱她

可是沈佳宜的那么一句话让我听着听者却落泪了
“我瞧不起的不是那些成绩不好的人
而是那些
自己明明不用功念书却瞧不起那些
用功念书的人”

这一句话
深入心坎
因为就曾因为用功念书这句话

我受到无聊的攻击！

听到这句话
我哭了！
无声的看着画面哭了！

凭什么..?

那些不用功念书的人

凭什么瞧不起用功念书的人..?

至少我们比你有勇气去学习

这段话是在一个朋友的部落看见的

至少给了我一点点的安慰

可是还是有一大堆的人不明白

算了吧！

“ 我只会念书

从国中到高中

我就只会念书

但我还是念不好 ”

沈佳宜的这一句

又再一次的把我带进回忆

那年的成绩出来

真的是每个人意料之外的

除了流泪还是只能流泪

我只能和沈佳宜一起哭

一起哭

这个绞心的感觉

这个无奈的画面

这个痛苦的时刻

我可能一辈子都不会忘记的

一辈子

都深深的烙印在我的心里

没话了

2011-11-09T20:07:00.002+08:00

无语得很
最近事情多得很
心无比的乱

很难静下来
但是很多事情需要沉得住气啊
也非常需要冷静

救救我吧 =）

虽然最近不怎么样
可是
还是常常微笑吧！

正因为笑是最美的

累了

2011-11-05T04:34:00.002+08:00

最近真的很烦躁，心也真的非常无比的乱
真的控制不了了。
那股愤怒和怨恨一直在不断的增加
那不是我想要的
可是那股强烈的感觉就是挥之不去

真的很想对自己说
快醒醒吧！
重要的事情都在面前了
怎么还后时间想那些
有的没的
可是
还是跨越不了

好像没有一个稳稳当当的避风港了
唯有把自己抱着
自己加油吧！

一切应该会更好的
真的但愿如此

有时候
口中说放下真的比实际行动来的容易

不要一昧劝说自己放下
因为
有些东西
那道累了
就会自然而然的放下的
就如手中拿着重物，到某个时候，手酸了，就会放下的
顺其自然吧!

有些东西就是不能勉强的

把今天活的好好的吧
因为我自己也不知道
明天会不会到来

瞬间

2011-10-19T06:22:00.002+08:00

看了一片文章

觉得还蛮不可思议的

一直以来不断努力的朋友在怀疑自己

是有些震撼

也有些意外

可是努力那么久是不是更应该坚持下去

因为现在放弃那么以往的努力与心血不就白费了吗？

我也有时候处于矛盾的状态

不明白努力是为了什么

可是

只要想到

未来

我想要改变家里的经济状况

我想要让曾经看不起我们家的人后悔

我想要让我的父母可以享清福

这一些的我想要

让我没有办法不比之前更加努力

只因为我知道

现在所作的一切将会影响未来

我完完全全不会允许任何一丝可能破坏我未来的事情发生

所以我一直不断又不断的努力

不敢让自己松懈下来

因为

我没有信心保证松懈下来后又有没有哪股那么大的劲再次向前

加油吧！

朋友啊！

Girls' Generation 소녀시대_THE BOYS_Music Video (KOR ver.)

2011-10-19T06:20:00.001+08:00

At last....

This is out

AWESOME!!

no more words can actually represent my feelings.

Although there is the Korean version and the English version

but I do like both as both the language really gives out different feel

Do enjoy watching this

*smile*

SNSD (소녀시대) - The Boys [MV Teaser 30s KOR Ver.]

2011-10-18T05:02:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for this..

It is totally a wow...

I really like both the version though

complicated

2011-10-18T04:56:00.002+08:00

these few days, the feeling is real complicated but i did manage to let go of it during different times and at different occasion. I really do enjoy being there just doing what I like and get the lifestyle healthy and everyone seems to be unexpectedly nice. Smiling all the way and chit chatting seems to be none stop as most of them really did not see me for such a long long time. The feeling was exceptionally great there. I will never forget but it was really different in the 2 other places. Weird things. It might maybe be that a lot of things did happened there and thats why.. The remainder of the bad feeling is still there as there is something that can refresh the memories of mine.

Anyways...

Life still has to go on

good luck then

*smile*

what

2011-10-16T21:32:00.001+08:00

i can't believe it. I am really lazy to do stuff these days. OMG~ i hope i do something soon!!

2011-10-11T19:40:00.003+08:00

I really do not know what title to be written down here. Heard the most shocking news of the week and a bad one. I lost a friend, a very good one indeed. He is a nice guy towards everyone in the class. We have plenty of memories studying together in the same class, discussing difficult questions and enjoy laughter together. He was sitting in front of me last Friday and he is gone from now on.

Dear my friend, may you rest in peace. We will definitely miss you here and pray hard for you. Although you are physically not with us but I do trust that you are always in our heart and be happy when we are happy and go through hard times with all of us. It is bad to not have you here around us but wherever you are, you will be better than now.

Worried

2011-10-08T07:35:00.002+08:00

I can't really stop myself from worrying. In such condition, can I survived throughout the whole journey. Sometimes things do happened when you do not wanted it to happened. That is how life has always been behaving but i do really hope that things will certainly goes well today and as well as tomorrow so that I will feel safe as wherever I will be.

Cheers

Today is really going to be a great day =)

*smile*

totally

2011-10-08T04:29:00.001+08:00

Surely this is not exactly such a great week so it is considerably fine for me. Spending the last day of the week wisely i guess away from everything troublesome at the moment and let the heart, mind and soul rest for 2 days and start to work even harder again. Take care my friend.

will see ya a lot more later

*smile*

Believe

2011-10-06T16:46:00.002+08:00

I am old enough to actually believe what I believed. Although you are my parents but I am 20 years old and not a baby girl anymore that need you to actually decide for me what is good for me and what is not. I do know that you are more experienced than me in life but I am responsible for my own life. In this particular moment i do choose what is right for me and what is suitable for me. If my decision at this point of time is wrong, will be verified by time and not you will be actually feeling the guiltiness. I am. I will be the one responsible for my choice and my own decision because this is my own life.

What you believed now is your own decision and your own perception but the whole main point is that THATS NOT MINE!

I WANNA REALLY BELIEVE FOR ONCE WHAT I BELIEVE!

let me be

faster

2011-10-06T05:28:00.002+08:00

I wonder why my heart beats a little faster today. Is there anything great that is going to happen? I truly hope so. What a real fresh morning that I am having now and gonna get even much more energetic later. Let my body relax to really prepared for the time in the day..

I do think that now

My heart is singing

*smile*

Shock

2011-10-05T19:25:00.002+08:00

I am quite shocked when I heard that kind of news!

I am gifted? I do not pay effort in my work because I am gifted?

OMG! if I am really gifted then I will not really be here, I would be in Oxford or even Cambridge. Something like this is really out of the ordinary. I do know what I am doing and be my ownself.

*smile*

feeling warm

2011-10-04T19:27:00.002+08:00

Today is the day that I feel best so far throughout the 1st 5 weeks

I do realise that this semester is rather tough than the others than I had endure but I am glad that the lecturers do what they can to let us understand what we are supposed to.

The kind of feeling is totally different. Although its so hard trying to cope but I do feel so warm that not only me that is working hard but the lecturers as well

Write

2011-10-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

It really feels weird to want to write something here and here I am writing pointlessly about everything and anything. Today is a day where everything seems to be good. Nothing really bad that did happened. All 3 of us laughed and talked together during and lunch. We seems to be out of our mind more often lately due the anonymous amount of stress that the subject that were pressing on us but I really do enjoy this semester with both of them by my side and we shall do everything together =)

No worries

Work hard and tomorrow is a long day ahead as well

*smile*

Something

2011-10-02T09:02:00.002+08:00

Haha...

it has really been some time since I write my post with English

I am so surprised myself though

since a few incidents that happened throughout these few weeks, I do realise that health is actually important in my life. Not to say that I do think it is not important at all but I just do not prioritised it on my list. but now I do. I really do.

Seems to be out of control of some of the things but I do think it is really getting lot more better... When you really pay the effort to do something and the results are coming out, the feeling out it..some sort of accomplishment..well not to say a huge one but there is some sort of achievement to that.

Well done, girl!

Keep the good job up =)

Keep the faith and believe in the things that make your heart sings

Go Go Go !!!

Welcome to the 2nd year of degree =)

*smile*

初次

2011-09-30T20:31:00.001+08:00

应该说有史以来第一次

就算我对身边的人说他们也不会相信

我竟然对自己的课业完完全全失去信心

完完全全的

我自己竟然有些堂皇

真的不知道应该怎么办

万般的担心涌上心头

自己最清楚也明白

如果现在不加把劲赶上

以后的可会上的更加艰难

是不是

努力不够了？

真是一团

无奈

2011-09-21T07:59:00.003+08:00

太久没写了

感觉有点生疏

最近的我真的不太像我自己

很多事情需要顾虑

读书的心情真的受影响

陈慧慈

你要努力啊！

火去了哪里？

快点啊！去找回来

不理了

不理了不理了

快点逼自己吧！

*smile*

无奈

2011-09-21T07:59:00.002+08:00

太久没写了

感觉有点生疏

最近的我真的不太像我自己

很多事情需要顾虑

读书的心情真的受影响

陈慧慈

你要努力啊！

火去了哪里？

快点啊！去找回来

不理了

不理了不理了

快点逼自己吧！

*smile*

Realise

2011-07-17T08:53:00.002+08:00

I realised after I talked with one of my best friend I can get yesterday

that something is really missing from me

the determination of being there at my own ultimate goal is not strong enough

The motivation force pushing me behind is not strong enough as well

Although I have the motivation there to really strive for excellence but it still not there yet

I am actually curious about what is the force that pushes me before that gone down

The fire that is still there but not as hot and wild as like time

I know that when people grow older, mature

they saw different perspective or view at different life point.

I had mine. Truthfully saying it was utterly painful but useful

I agree with the phrase we found yesterday

"Everyone has to be stupid first in order to become smart later"

Whenever we flash back to the past, I will really think: oh my, how can i be that stupid?

That is perfectly fine for me

Yes, I do agree that I am stupid and not as smart as a lot of human out there.

I can try

I have the passion

I have the determination

I have the motivation

I have the urge

I have the knowledge

I have the skills

I have the experience

I have the idea

I have the goal

I have what I need

I should really make it perfect

I should master what I learn

Be myself

If it is not okay with the others

then let it be

It is my life that matters now

Think about myself 1st now

Do now see how people view me

but do only see how I view myself

The advise I get is

"Pamper yourself when you need it!"

Thanks for the long chat

Thanks for letting me know how are you

Thanks for leading me back to myself

Thanks for wipe tears off my face

Thanks for caring about me

Thanks for all the advise

I should never forget about it

Thanks for everything

I shall stand strong and up for myself

*smile*

感觉

2011-07-17T08:48:00.002+08:00

最近常常有想恋爱的感觉

只因为身边的每一位都非常的甜蜜与幸福

开始羡慕了

哈哈

傻傻的我

真的好苯噢

哈哈

只能以微笑来说服自己

不要胡思乱想

是你的就会是你的

不是你的再怎么样都不会是你的

是你的终究会出现

不要想那么多

现在工作比较重要吧

把自己缺的那一块补回了在想其他的东西吧

加油噢.......

*smile*

I know

2011-07-07T07:23:00.002+08:00

I know the blog is superb dead due to the owner is just to busy with her working life and really have no time to update this dying land....

What to do
I am not rich as most of them so that's why I am so hard to earn my own money.

Thanks to him
I am here, learning new things
enjoying new environment, new treatment
experiencing working life, meeting new friends

Everything seems to be great at the moment
although doing jobs that I do not plan to do but I do really learn a lot

The process is always the most important.
sometimes the end result is also important but
what makes you learn
what makes you grow
what makes you become mature
what brings you up
what you get

those are kind of important as well

Cheers
I will continue and not to let go so easily

*smile*

感性

2011-06-19T20:01:00.002+08:00

突然之间自己变得非常感性

也不知道为什么

可能很多的事情没有办法对别人随便说出口

也有一些不敢说出口的

全部都压在心里

还有又有遇上不顺心的事情

所以也可能因为这样变得非常敏感吧！

陈慧慈

不要再垂头丧气了

抬起头来

坦坦荡荡的面对迎面而来的挑战

就算身边不像以前一样有人陪你承担

可是你自己一定可以！

望向前方

加油啊！

把微笑在挂上嘴边把！

*smile*

Excited

2011-05-20T19:23:00.001+08:00

I AM TOTALLY EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for tomorrow 2am's showcase~~~

at last

can see them

although maybe from far

but still nevermind

hahaha =)

*smile*

太多

2011-05-14T08:05:00.002+08:00

太多太多

我也不知道是什麽

就是一直想哭

完完全全不受控制

眼淚一直滑下來

抹來抹去怎麽就是沒完沒了

加油~！！！

YER~~~~

2011-04-27T07:44:00.003+08:00

This is the very time

I act like cat~~~

just like Theng!!!!!

OMG~~~

what to do

continuing to become a cat lah....

saw something while shopping with my sister that day

at first i was attracted by the vest on the mannequin

therefore i went around to search for that piece

and haha

i found that

but they hang it with the dress together

i quite lazy to take out

so i took the whole set to the fitting home

and

za zang!!!

I just fell in love with it

it was so expensive that I do not even have the urge to buy that

the whole set almost 300

sure this gonna kill me dy!!

nevermind

relax~~

I WANT THE WHOLE OUTFIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*smile*

Insanity

2011-04-22T04:44:00.002+08:00

I am really going insane

Business law assignment is really really tough

OMG~~~~

huh!!!

but what can I do

except try my very best to finish it

This really sucks

when you really have some ideas and not

all the ideas on how to write that report

whatever it is

I will try

feel like crying dy

the whole morning is just full of LAW

take a rest for half an hour

then

hopefully to feel good

*smile*

convince

2011-04-20T08:29:00.002+08:00

they really trying hard to convince me

but

really

frankly speaking......

the subject really did not inflict me like totally

but it was something that i never consider about

and at the moment will not consider

money is one of the issue

the other is that i kind of a perfectionist

i can't get over myself

URGH~~~

so at the moment

just leave me like tat ok??

hope they understand

*smile*

1st HR assignment

2011-04-19T05:59:00.002+08:00

I really wonder whether my answer is correct or else?

The curiosity is building up inside and killing me

maybe it is because this particular assignment carries quite a lot of of the mark

worry~~~

at last

lecturer re-set the date and able to turn it in

I was so so so so worried about that

phew~~

It came out

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT A RELIEF~~~~~~~~~~

haha

1 down

2 more to go..

shall end all these torturing days very soon

*smile*

precious

2011-04-18T02:28:00.002+08:00

waking up at this kind of weird hours

I am getting used to it slowly

although it is very tiring

but I shall bear with it till the max

what to do

I have to sacrifice my precious sleeping time

to do what I can

lifeless like hell

but nevermind

it is just a part of life

in me that I appreciate

a lot.....

at least

it seems that

I made my own effort to really

improve~~~

*smile*

Emotional

2011-04-13T13:17:00.001+08:00

I just HATE myself!!!!!

URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what had just happened???
mood swings???

I guess YEAH!!!!

FYI

"Next mood swing in 8 minutes time"

saw this badge on my pencil case.....

a smile just crawl up on my face~~

by the way..just cant understand my own self anymore

getting more and more emotional these 2 days

getting mad easily

what to do

thats me~~~

weee~~~~~

*smile*

A quick one

2011-04-12T12:34:00.003+08:00

WHAT???? OMG!!!!!!! I can't believe it 3 assignments already up and the due date is like 1 after another sleepless night again I guess for everyone Law's question is kind of hard... although the question is short... what to do.. have to put more effort in lectures and tutorials and self study OMP is like crap man~~ actually very useless but it is a core so have to do it and pass with great results Oh my Oh my Oh my~~~ busy busy busy busy and busy great one girl~~ do not ever procrastinate kay? give some effort and finish it way before the dateline as the report will need to be turnitin and it takes time good luck =) *smile*

想起

2011-04-07T20:06:00.002+08:00

与往日的朋友无意间相遇

想起了很多

原来

曾经的熟络

也不在了

微笑的回想

啊~~

原来我们都不再是从前那个小伙子了

很好啊！！

可是还是有点失落

不要紧的

加油噢......

每个人前面都有很长的路要走

不要放弃每一是小小甚至微小的希望

要永远相信明天会更好的

*smile*

Wants

2011-04-03T20:02:00.002+08:00

What I want is plenty

What I need is also plenty

but there are both different things and totally in the different categories

haiz~~~

what to do

have to bear with the whole current situation and make myself feel better

that should works right?

NO~

It must work

work is getting harder and harder now!

*smile*

上了大學才知道

2011-03-29T16:45:00.000+08:00

上了大學才知道

01.上了大學才知道，兩個天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什麼都不是。

02.上了大學才知道，從來不要和別人爭論什麼，因為那是沒有結果的，無論誰對誰錯。

03.上了大學才知道，手機是有事的時候用的，並不是為了交流感情。

04.上了大學才知道，真心對一個人好不一定有回報，而你忽略的人，往往有可能是最重視你的。

05.上了大學才知道，很多東西是可遇而不可求的，很多東西你只能擁有一次。

06.上了大學才知道，戀愛不一定是真心的，有可能是利益關係，有可能是攀比心理。

07.上了大學才知道，原來中學老師教的是那麼好，那麼負責任。

08.上了大學才知道，很多時候自己遇到不開心事，千萬不要渴望別人同情，大多數人會採取冷漠回敬的。那樣會更讓人家看不起。

09.上了大學才知道，有很多東西是不屬於你的，你使勁強求會遭天遣的。

10.上了大學才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正視，相信實力和群眾的眼睛。

11.上了大學才知道，人的性格可以差異到如此之大。

12.上了大學才知道，一個人要自己對自己好，因為真正關心你的人很少，有了事他們也不一定會在你身邊。所以要自己照顧自己。

13.上了大學才知道，課程會在你不經意間，拉下很多，期末考試前不一定能補回來。

14.上了大學才知道，錢用的是那麼快，用錢的地方是那麼多。

15.上了大學才知道，從現在開始應該把握每一個你能把握的人，放棄你留不住的人，不要因為想留住個別人而失去一群人。

16.上了大學才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因為你的自尊在別人眼裡根本不算什麼。

17.上了大學才知道，不要心情不好的時候對周圍人發脾氣，渴望他們諒解你，人家不是你的父母，現在你可以明白父母對自己多麼重要。

18.上了大學才知道。即便有人對情感看的無所謂，你一定要堅信，人之間的感情，有可能會令所有東西無法超越的，但記住，只是有可能。

19.上了大學才知道，會遇到許多自己看不慣的人或事，但那與你無關，別人愛咋整隨他便，別生不該生的氣，不值。

20.上了大學才知道，許多曾經的人會變的讓你認不出，但請留住回憶。

21.上了大學才知道，會遇到很多誘惑，無論別人怎麼樣，你是你，你有你的原則和底限。

22.上了大學才知道，會有人很討厭你或者和你過不去，但是他愛怎麼樣就怎麼樣，我們要大度，不和小人計較，但前提是你正確。

23.上了大學才知道，很多人無法理解男女之間的朋友關係，在一起就一定是戀人，不是戀人就一定不能在一起。

24.上了大學才知道，學習要刻苦，因為憑聰明就能應付大學科目的人是風毛翎角。

25.上了大學才知道，原來時間一空閒下來是那麼無聊，絲毫沒有中學的充實的感覺。

26.上了大學才知道，太在乎別人了往往會傷害自己。

27.上了大學才知道，對自己好的人會隨著時間的流逝越來越少。

28.上了大學才知道，可以不把所有人當朋友，但千萬不能把一個人當敵人，至少可以當同學。

29.上了大學才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千萬別玩，不然會輸的什麼都沒有的。

30.上了大學才知道，快樂常常來自回憶，而痛苦常常來自于回憶與現實的差距。

31.上了大學才知道，原來上課，吃飯，上自習常常得自己一個人。

32.上了大學才知道，有很多人的想法與做法你無法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什麼，千萬別在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那樣會讓自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就讓人家保持去啊，自己又不是占星師。

33.上了大學才知道，每個人都是帶有“地方特色”的。

34.上了大學才知道，別人請客吃飯或著自己請別人吃飯都是很平常的，甚至請一個不怎麼熟的人都是有可能的

35.上了大學才知道，每個人都是認為自己的家鄉最好，無論他的家鄉貧窮或富裕。

Quick

2011-03-29T16:37:00.001+08:00

I just wanna write something here

to update the whole semi-dead blog

and actually i saw something interesting and will definitely post it here

as always

"Sharing is caring~~~"

*smile*

Harder

2011-03-18T21:26:00.002+08:00

I do not know which lecturer to trust now

every subjects seems to pull me down

i should have just push myself even harder from now on!

The confidence is really dropping

I am starting to fed up

literally having chest pain while i breathe

should not just let it bother me again...

harder, more work to be done

since they are not willing to help

i am really gonna do it on my own

although i have the knowledge

it really does not mean that i can slack off

NO WAY it is gonna happen to me

keep all the tears and

NO MORE CRYING!!!!!!!

ALL OUT

2011-03-13T04:29:00.002+08:00

just too overwhelmed to even speak

after the whole events

i do not even know what i did up there

embarrassing to hear people scream at their top of their voice

It really shall be a once in a lifetime experience for me

truly enjoy the day =)

i will never forget it forever.......

*smile*

怀念

2011-03-10T05:03:00.002+08:00

昨天遇回了很多的朋友

真的很开心

可是

但他们一个个像我道别的时候

实在是很失落

感觉好难过

真的快哭了

可是他们那一声声的加油

真的给我带来很多的鼓励

真的好神奇噢

现在我们都走在了不同的路上

真的各有各的忙碌

各有各的生活圈子

不再像以往一样

可是人总是要向前走的

在我的生命中

由他们的出现真的生色不少

加油吧！

陈慧慈！！！！！

*smile*

ADDICTED~~~

2011-03-08T18:25:00.002+08:00

I am like totally addicted to this song

like really really crazy about this song

I am so so so so happy that I watched this drama in the first place

Prosecutor Princess ROCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!

This song just brings different meaning to me

It has different feelings inside this song!!!

keep replaying now

again and again

*smile*

Disappear

2011-03-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

Muahahaha~~~~

I feel like disappearing for awhile

just just jus for some timessssssssssssssssss

haha

bye people

*smile =)*

Blood

2011-03-03T05:41:00.002+08:00

Had my first and ever blood donation

what an exciting event to participate in...

yesterday morning...

i was like damn early for classes

then

ta da~~~

saw a blood donation poster sticking on the board

and the date was like

exactly yesterday's date

heart pounding faster

i wanna join

it sounds a lot of fun there

then i went

tee hee hee hee

kind of pain when the huge needle was poke into my hand

OUCH

then nothing~~

no feeling at all

WOW

amazing

the blood just flowing into the packets

so fast

oh god!!!!!

I just love blood donation

well

now its time to say

Bye old blood

and

WELCOME NEW BLOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*smile*

疲惫了也要笑

2011-03-01T18:48:00.003+08:00

每一天

都在疲惫不堪的情况下生活

感觉真的好累，好累

可是

不应该埋怨

因为人生本该如此

所以

做任何事情都不应该埋怨

埋怨对事情一点帮助都没有

那么，为什么还埋怨呢？

我呢

想明白后

就对自己说

无论如何

都要笑着过每一天

不是微笑

是发自内心灿烂的笑

让身边的人也能被感染，变得开心

笑着过也是一天，

不开心也是一天

为何不选择开开心心地过呢？

笑可以为他人带来心情愉快一刻

哪怕只是一瞬间

现在，笑也是我的推动力

*smile*

Chinese New Year

2011-02-25T19:50:00.002+08:00

the long lost chinese new year post

and i am just too lazy to upload all the pictures and explaining one by one

below is the brief explanation of what had happened during the chinese new year

visiting to dong zen temple

it was really amazing trip there

the place was decorated totally with flowers and lights

the feel of chinese new year is so thick there

it is just like around the air

highly recommended place to go during chinese new year

haha

the next place is in Ipoh

i do not quite remember what it was called

but the place has been transformed into a very beautiful and nice place

i miss the very Hong Kong style of making a wish

this new year

is rather different but lots of the things is the same

it is just that my mom loves to take pictures now more

so lots of pictures is available for me

*smile*

2011-02-24T04:33:00.003+08:00

It is weird when people start to do not recognize you on the road

but never mind

i will get used to it 1 day

by the way

they say i am glowing

truly saying

yes and really thanks to HIM that pushes me over the edge and look into things

that makes me grow more mature in thinking

I do appreciate the mini workforce there

and the opportunities to learn and be a better person there

The heart of being there has not changed much

but the mind did has a full operation

and now it is fresh and new

the pain and tears that they gave

I tasted it with both my heart and soul

I know that 1 day it will happen but everything just goes out of hand

I savour all the feelings and emotions that i needed to

life is still long ahead of me

therefore i started to walk forward

perception is what changes all the things

I am fine now and moving on with my life

and the heartfelt appreciation will always be there

as a saying said

we must do something with our heart

and we must treat people with our heart also

no matter what had he/she done to us

Life is a box of chocolate

you will never know

what will you be getting the next moment

*smile*

Long lost

2011-02-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

shall really update my blog with all the pictures about chinese new year celebration !!!

CHINESE NEW YEAR

2011-02-08T17:54:00.003+08:00

Tada~~

It is chinese new year again~~~~

what i can do???

be superb exited and

hehe

go back to my mum's hometown

and win lots n lots of MONAY~~~ $$$$$$

btw....

wishes can't be simplify

so....

I am here to wish everyone

学业猛进，身体健康，事事顺利，平平安安，吉祥如意，万事顺利

*smile*

How can I

2011-01-14T11:21:00.004+08:00

I really have no ideas

what is going on with my own self

sometimes I really wonder

how can I do this

how can I do that

but the truth is I really did all of that

and it is kind of amazing to really seeing myself

doing all that

I am really not myself these few days

I do not know why

I keep pushing myself

keep on pushing and pushing none stop

I do not know where is the limit that I can take anymore

I cannot feel myself exist anymore now

maybe when everything has cleared out then I think

I might be better

until yesterday that i over stretched my muscle

the pain that goes into my brain

only then that I know

Thats the limit already girl

go ahead

get some rest

Actually I know why I refuse to take a rest

just that I do not want to think about all that

everything that had happened this few days

have really throwing me out of the norm

Get some rest

for yourself

either it is the physical one

or even the mentally one

it is the time to take some rest

*smile*

Tough

2011-01-11T16:58:00.003+08:00

It has been a really tough new year for me though

A lot of things had been happening

that changed lots of things

I am really confused now

and I am literally jobless as I so-called resigned due to some reasons

Everything seems to still be an unknown for me

Stay on strong

girl,

that is the only thing that I can tell myself now

do not let people worry about it

stay strong is the only thing that I can do now

hopefully everything will be fine

I reached the bottom...

now is the time to climb and reach the top again.....

there is always light at the end of the tunnel

I shall stay till the end

*smile*

Year End

2010-12-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

Its almost the end of the year

the last day of all

it seems to be a trend to write a post for this last day of the year.

this year is a year that kind of consist of almost everything

I tested almost everything feeling in this year

The feeling of happiness :)

The feeling of sadness :(

The feeling of angriness :@

The feeling of nothing

The feeling of being .......

something that i can't just explain....

I do realise a lot of things

I learnt plenty of things

Although it can't say to be a very smooth and a nice one

but i throughly appreciate what i had gone through the whole year

it really let me grow and be more mature and be more prepare for next year.

This is a real great year to grow in.

I do meet great people.

I do meet bad people

but thanks to them

that make my life even more interesting and challenging.

Thats the prove for the saying : Life is definitely not a bed of roses.

Be grateful and 2011 will be a great year....

Tomorrow will always be better than today!!

Heard

2010-12-21T18:30:00.002+08:00

Heard something interesting today that re-ignites the fire in me

"Although what had happened in life, we must continue to fight and be strong"

Yeah

we have to continue to fight on

although how hard the time be

everything will be over

so do not give up and just clench your fist and fight your way through

the hard time will be over

just hang on and hang on

and the better will only stay that for the people who hang on and do not give up

so I am not giving up

I am really not giving up

my dream

my passion

my goal

everything that I cares

*smile*

Book Review - 8

2010-12-18T18:56:00.002+08:00

Eat Pray Love

Elizabeth Gilbert

Synopsis & Opinions :

It is a wonderful book about a woman's journey to recover or re-discover herself. This is her own real story. This woman that has a good marriage, a successful career and everything people will dream of having in the United States. But she was not satisfied, her real inner soul is becoming more and more empty. She decided to get a divorce, break off from her career and go on a journey to 3 countries - Italy, India and Indonesia.

In this 3 countries, she will slowly to regain her appetite, her own self and the confidence to be in love again.

I really do not regret to even put my land my hand on this book. This is so fascinating to go on a virtual journey with her and reading how she discover her own self, I somehow discover my own self as well. She has the courage to dump everything behind her and start on a new journey on her own and that is what I envied about. Maybe one day I shall do that as well....

On Mind

2010-12-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

I was kind of regret that I went Chillax

and ter-listen to what he had to said

TOTAL DISTRACTION~~~~~~~~

OMG~~~~

I actually can't believe my ears

I was totally blurred that I stunned for a while

"It must be a joke, a total joke that he was making by himself" said my mind

I.....

I....

It was unbelievable

He won't tell who is HE

URGH~~

DISTRACTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now

I hate him

true

a crush will be gone sooner or later

because it will only stay for a while

but I just wanna know

I do deserve to know right?

I guess so.....

*smile*

laugh

2010-12-12T13:02:00.001+08:00

sometimes I look back at my older post

I can't even understand what i am trying to say

or I can't actually even recall what had happened??

Oh my~~~~

short -term memory lost

shuts

*smile*

看见

2010-12-08T16:34:00.003+08:00

我真的看见自己真的在成长

好事

真的是件好事

看见现在的自己

看见现在的自己有了非一般的想法

让我觉得非常不可思议

人会改变

赞成！

变成一个

我自己也没有想到的一个人

太不可思议

应该是算好吧

开始不会计较

开始有不去理会

开始盲目自己

开始慢慢自己没有他们的活起来

开始把痛苦的感觉忘记

开始新的生活了

最近真的太多东西要去思考

加油吧

不要忘记

自己原来的那个目标

快点找回那时候的热诚

再迈进

到最后都不能说放弃

*smile*

Touched

2010-12-08T16:20:00.002+08:00

I was getting more and more touchy

not the literally meaning but

it is just that simple that i think everyone goes through the same stage as I do.

we will be touched just by listening to some song

we will be touched by just watching particular parts of the drama

we will be touched just by seeing the scenery outside the window

simplicity just seems to get us touched

no wonder people always says do not be greedy

just get something enough will do

it is kind of true that we somehow have to know how to appreciate what we have now

life is complicated - this is true

life is simple - this is also true

there is no absolute answer anywhere

both statements or sayings about life is still correct

just by how you are seeing it

Therefore perspective plays a role

a major one though

*smile*

Lazy

2010-12-07T18:57:00.001+08:00

I really have been lazy these few days

Haiz....

What to do~~~~

go go go !!!

*smile*

Haiz

2010-12-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since my last update

it has been crazily busy for sometime

just craving for some rest

and yeah

going to have it soon

*smile*

true

2010-11-27T10:31:00.000+08:00

学会沉默　　
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。
　　
至少平静　　
在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐。
　　　
不要想如果当初　　
人生是一条有无限多岔口的长路，永远在不停地做选择。如果只是选择吃炒面或炒饭，影响似乎不大，但选择读什么科系、做什么工作、结婚或不结婚、要不要有孩子，每一个选择都影响深远，而不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生。生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样。。。这种充满怅然的喃喃自语，还是别再多说了吧。每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己。独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。
　　
保持单纯　　
因为思虑过多，所以常会把自己的人生复杂化了。明明是活在现在，却总是念念不忘着过去，又忧心忡忡着未来；坚持携带着过去、未来与现在同行，你的人生当然只有一片拖泥带水。而单纯是一种恩宠状态。单纯地以皮肤感受天气的变化，单纯地以鼻腔品尝雨后的青草香，单纯地以眼睛统摄远山近景如一幅画。单纯地活在当下。而当下其实无所谓是非真假。既然没有是非，就不必思虑；没有真假，就无须念念不忘又忧心忡忡。无是非真假，不就像在做梦一样了吗?是呀，就单纯地把你的人生当成梦境去执行吧。
　　
控制情绪别浪费了
今天的你，是不开心的你，因为有人在言语间刺伤了你。你不喜欢吵架，所以你离开；可是你只是离开了那，却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情，许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。因为，你只是一心一意地在生气。在情绪上做文章，这是对自己的浪费，而且是很坏的浪费。毕竟，生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明如你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。”
　　
悄悄悄悄地回归平静　　
曾经有一段时间，你心情低落，甚至懒得拉开窗帘，看着窗外的阳光。因此你当然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的百合花。如此不知过了多久，总算有一天，你度过了心情的低潮，同时也想起了你的百合。天啊，可怜的花，它还活着吗？你战战兢兢地拉开窗帘，却见它迎风招摇，花颜可掬。原来在过去的这段日子里，你虽然忘了喂它喝水，老天却没忘了以雨露眷顾它呢。许多事物悄悄地在你的视线之外进行，而且悄悄地安排好了它们自己。天生万物，天养万物，一切其实无须担心。。。

你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遗憾。。。足矣！！！

Keng Mun & Li Ting's Registration Day

2010-11-17T23:38:00.007+08:00

Another good and happy event that I attended

Congrats to the couple again for their registration...

Yeah

2 happy and big events in a month

WOW!!

The card that we pick specially for them

hahaha

tang tang tang tang~~~

haha

we make them do all kind of pose

juz for us to take pictures

you just can't imagine

how many paparazzi did they invite

Awwwww.....

haha

suppose to be serious

can still pose for the camera

not bad

The traditional way

as always

exchange of rings

The parents, the couple and the who

which I do not know what he is suppose to called

Friends

The big pictures of the two families

The threes

Lunch at some club house

yeah

if I am not mistaken

This is a full whole picture

looks a bit far
haha

the girls just love the mirror

don't they?

Li Ting

posing at a very nice spot in the washroom

and ahem its near a jacuzzi

will just fall into the water

just for fun :)
gone crazy d

Wendy

that is what took us so so so so long in the washroom

that kept everyone waiting

opps..sorry peepz..

he just can't stop laughing

The end

of the whole story

congrats to the couple again and again

just hope that they are also happily ever after

good for them and yup yup yup

*smile*

Kia Yee's Wedding Dinner

2010-11-17T23:06:00.007+08:00

A big smile on the face when I was thinking back of this particular event!

Really a great event and I am glad that I attended it

Particularly seeing my ex-colleague and friend getting married

and I am truly happy for her :)

They are truly meant to be with each other....

The gift that they give to all the guess.....

so sweet....The gift that we gave her...

I really hope she loves that (nervous)

Spot the difference people

Really nice decoration of the hall and the table and also the stage

Oh oh oh oh

Red wine

that we each had one

Saw the other bottle in the so-call cooler???

hahaha..brought by ahem...Mr. Lee

The card

The lovely couple that was married not long ago

Close up

Me and Li Ting (Mrs. Lee)
Whose hand is that??

Love this one particularly

lalalala...

Me and Wendy

Following pictures are the girls moment:

The threes...

Some crazy picture

This one is not bad.....

Love this one the most....

truly and will forever love this one...

AWWWWWW~~~~~ fireworks when they finished "yam seng"

really love this

wondering will I have this when I get married

haha...

thinking too much now...

Cute

They have this to tell the crowd to be silence

when the someone is speaking

The mc

quite far..

the newly wed couple

End the post and the day

with a cling of glass

haha

congrats to the couple

and hope that they are happily ever after

*smile*

GOSH~~

2010-11-15T04:18:00.002+08:00

opps

time flies and i realised that i have plenty of un -updated post

to be update

haha

lets just do a little check list here k?

Taiwan trip (will be a long one)
Kia Yee's wedding dinner
Li Ting & Keng Mun's Registration day
Coffee Ritual
Steamboat + The curve (so called pub nitez)

erm.....

i guess more or less this is it lah

shall see how can i manage with time

and one more thing

ELLY WONG~~~~

i wanna do shopping leh

ahem~~~

envy envy when i saw your blog........

abit beh tahan lah

笑笑

2010-11-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

開始

了解

人真的很難改變

可是我相信時間就是我需要的

加油啊！

很多事情

笑笑就好

笑著也是一天

不笑也是一天

爲何不選擇笑著過一天

是嗎？

加油吧~

沒有事情是做不到的

有志者事竟成

只要有耐心及有信心

一定可以的

加油加油加油！！！！！！

*smile*

seconds

2010-11-03T13:41:00.003+08:00

a quickie here

among the longest break that i had ever had

since i started my college life.....

it is sometimes great to just spend time alone and do something

not to be said that it is interesting but

useful

yup

that will be the wise choice of words

useful~~

tick tock tick tock

every seconds is just ticking away so fast that

we did not even realise that as well

There is always another hour in life

but days will be gone when we say that

haha

tell myself about it

procrastination!!!!

a habit that kind of going away d

I will not miss u buddy!!

go and find someone else

I guess they will welcome you for once...

hahahaha.....

been more sarcastic nowadays...

*smile*

不一样

2010-11-03T05:11:00.002+08:00

很多事情

不一样了

就是那么的不一样

看似很简单

其实道理上也应该很简单

只是人们的执著

让一切变得很难

哈哈

可是当人长大了

尤其是你身边常常围绕着比你年纪大的人

很多事情就好像很简单的

被解开了

其实应该那么说吧~

因为围绕在你身边的人

年纪比你大

思想就会比你成熟

很自然的你就会被感染

把自己的思想upgrade

几乎接近他们的思想

原因只有一个

方便沟通

可是不知不觉的

这些所谓方便沟通的思想

却一步一步的敞开你的心

把你整个人推倒另一层的思想，另一层的境界

成熟了

想的东西

真的很不一样

有些人，事，物

不再那么重要

不再那么执著

不再那么不重要

不能勉强的就不要勉强

让他走吧~

可能对你对他也是一件好事

对啊

应该要学会

不要随便听信别人口中的自己

应该要学会

努力做更好的自己

应该要学会

让别人批评自己也不动声色

可真的有太多的东西要学

加油啊~

*smile*

Coffee

2010-10-31T18:39:00.002+08:00

Oh god....

great to have a day

just chill out with some friends

and drinking a cup of

coffee that smells great

in the sense that

the smells just stay in your mouth and you can still taste it after the liquid is into your stomach

what a great pleasure to have that

It just lightens up

the whole thing

and the whole of the person who drinks it

can't actually stop

smiling and grinding

*smile*

LOL

2010-10-31T01:22:00.001+08:00

I just feel like typing

I feel weird

The urge to type is here back

OMG

so random~~

The feeling are mixing so well that

I really can't differentiate them out from each other

after talking to them

it is totally different

maybe it is just that

they are far older than me and far more mature than me

who knows

what going through their head

is totally different from mine

crazily say

I just wanna get away from everything now

and get to be alone and

yeah

basically just flee

but what now?

people always have their own responsibility to bear

stick to that girl

*smile*

Erm

2010-10-31T01:06:00.002+08:00

I really have to allocate time for that taiwan post that was like

errrrrr 3 months

i guess if i am not mistaken

yeah

it was good

hanging out with them

haha~~

although abit kinda weird but

hehe^^

acceptable for me

great time spend

and yup

laugh like mad

and

get home late

LOL

sounds like me

2010-10-28T23:09:00.001+08:00

有一种女孩子在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，

在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，

并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑，

不要认为她很粗鲁，

她只是很单纯的认为，

大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，

表示更亲切，更不分你我。

这一种女孩子不谈恋爱，

只在姐妹间游荡即使有不错的朋友，

她还是无奈的笑笑

其实她只是在不能确定自己付出的前提下不会接受，

因为不想伤害。

这一种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，

也会幻想，也会羡慕，

幻想着将来自己的恋爱该是多么的帅气，

多么的温柔，多么的甜蜜！

这一种女孩子，喜欢和自己的姐妹在一起打闹，大呼小叫。

即使没有男朋友，在她的世界里，也有她的骄傲！

这种女孩子也会偶尔的忧郁，朋友问她怎么了

她也只会说没事其实她只是感觉累了，

她只是需要一个拥抱。

这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，

恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。

她会骄傲的拉着他的手大街小逛，

不要认为她放肆，

她只是答应过姐妹们幸福要大家一块分享。

这样的女孩子恋爱的时候

喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。

不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，

其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

这样的女孩子不允许男孩子的背叛，

如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，

她一定会狠心的离开你。

不要怪她太绝情，她其实很爱你，

但是卑微的爱情她不要，

她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

这样的女孩子失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，

大声的笑，放声的闹。

当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”

她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。

哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

若你遇到了这样的女孩，

如果你们是朋友，请原谅她平日的不理不睬，

其实她只是不会社交，不敢打扰，

你想想你的每一次邀约，她拒绝过你。

如果你喜欢上她，请你不要说出来，

因为她很幼稚，你会吓跑她。

原谅她的冷漠，她只是怕伤害你！

若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。

她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。

她只是想静静的看着你，当你的观众，仅此而已。

如果你们已经在一起了，请你好好珍惜她。

这样的女孩子、太傻，请你别让她受伤。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，

她有她的梦想，她的希望。

一个如花儿般的女孩子，

她时而快乐，时而忧伤；时而郁闷，时而疯狂；

时而邪恶，时而善良；时而脆弱，时而坚强！

你可以说她傻，也可以骂她笨，也可以说她冷，

但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，

希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子。

勉励

2010-10-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

加油！加油！加油！

无论事情发生到什么地步

我依然是我啊~

为何又为不该伤心的事伤心

人的生活是不一定顺顺利利

所以这样我们才会成长，思想才会成熟

为何去介意别人想什么，说什么

管他的

嘴巴张在别人的脸上，手也长在别人的身上

他想讲什么，type什么，你都无法控制

那又为何耿耿于怀？

你的生活是活给自己看的，不需要别人的认同与肯定

只要自己问心无愧，那就好了

相对之下，你会是那一个看起来比较有修养，教养的那一个

什么事都好，把自己的目标再次列起来

找回自己的方向，再次迈进，一步一步走向成功

不必因为途中出现的绊脚石而乱了自己的方寸

应该勇敢的一步一步走

一定可以的！

只要铭记于心：

“不是尽力，是一定要做到最好！”

让自己的世界再次见到阳光

Life

2010-10-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

Life is always as all the others said

it is not a bed of roses

true true

obviously i understand that

now even now

i understand this even better

i guess i can still control myself and live better right?

everyone can

who can't

*smile*

Congrats

2010-10-21T23:30:00.001+08:00

Haha..it is rather an emotional day

Now is happy the other minute will be sad

and then change back to happy

what lah

but its ok

i really enjoyed the day

and yeah

back to the main topic

someone is no longer miss tan ad.....

she had just became mrs lee

haha

congrats to

Lee Keng Mun & Tan Li Ting

this will be the big day ever

obviously its the best day ever

hope tat the dreams come true

*smile*

confusion

2010-10-20T11:29:00.002+08:00

I am actually quite confused

Am i really not suitable for all these college style of learning?

there is more and more doubt in my mind than usual

maybe it is really my problem that

a lot of things are running through my mind

plenty of them

that i cannot get them out of my mind

emotions running through me

whacking me hard on the face

people

let me just cry and sob and cry and sob and cry till i drop

*smile*

Frustrated

2010-10-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

I really feel like crying today

I really have no idea what was I thinking when I react that way

Its been very emotional this week

It is also been very chaotic and frustrating

NOw only I realise that today is only tuesday

how many more days to actually end this week?

4 more days to go

good luck to me

I am not saying anything to blame him

just that how can ........

Its okay

it is all my fault

It is all my bad

It is my problem

he won't have any problems

I do not want all the compliments from all of you

I just want to be myself

Do you guys think I wanna be ahead of time?

NO! obviously a big no no

NOt that I wanna do everything ahead

It is just that I am working there

You employed me

Therefore I shall do everything I need to do

There is a responsibility there

There is my reputation there

I do not want anything bad to happen

We can't always calculate all the time just nice

There will certainly be emergencies sometime

just to allocate some time for all those emergencies to happen

so that we have enough time to handle

How can you not know they way I work?

How many years have we been working together?

I really have no idea what to say

I do not want to say anything

I know that once all these words are out of my mouth

It will certainly sound bad and hurting

NOt that I am mad at you

sometime I am

NOPE
most of the time

YESH

but just for a few minutes

and then I am mad at myself

I am always mad at myself

Always

This really sound so bad!!!!!!!

today there will be no smile

just cause there is no energy and the enthusiasm to smile

Time

2010-10-17T22:52:00.003+08:00

Just feel different nowadays

I really missed the old me.... :(

It is true that people changed over time

and they lost some of the ability that they had with them

Once someone told me that

when you grow older,

things changed

even you changed

and all those things that you missed

just let it go and move on

maybe those are stuffs that will not benefit you in the future

Life goes on and

there will be lots and lots of things that you missed

just be yourself and enjoy the moment now

Tomorrow will always be better than today...

*smile*

String

2010-10-13T22:47:00.002+08:00

I shall just explain myself as a string nowadays

I really think this explanation works at this particular moment

I am now a string that is pulled by 2 ends.

They both pulled the 2 ends hard

The tension of the string is so high

The string herself is trying hard to maintain herself and not to explode or break-down

She realise that something small can just trigger the string to be tensed up and break-down

just anything

It is not that hard to loosen up

it is just that this is not the good time to loosen up

this is the time to be more tense just that everything is getting to be more and more

the tense is there to push you forward

I shall just increase the tense and hopefully push me toward the destination that I wanted to go

Everything is just in the matter on our own mind

Prove it right

Prove that someone can do it

Why cant I?

*smile*

sometimes

2010-10-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

its getting more and more hectic here...

time to breathe??

yes i do have that

yes i really appreciate i have the time to breathe

yes i changed a lot

yes

things is always so so so different from what i think

yes yes

i shall be the others

*smile*

Things

2010-10-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

Somethings keep flashing back in my mind lately

I really missed all the moments

Unknown mixed feeling

but I love it

The fun

The memories and

all the stuffs

I shall remembered them forever

*smile*

Great

2010-10-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

It has been great for me today

I never really thought that i actually can handle that

The emotion is not there anymore

I am actually so glad that I really can do it.

This really shows that

I can achieve what I wanted

at last~~~~

The feeling is so good

that I am wondering am I in the sky now?

I know it is always hard for people to change

but when you have the will, you will have the way

I really like this phrase

Totally in love with this

nothing is impossible sounds so so so near

I know what that sentence meant to me now

in that book....

Thanks to that book that make me think about myself and everything

the world suddenly looks different....

much more beautiful

*smile*

放開

2010-10-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

其實說起來

還真得不那麽簡單

什麽東西都是事在人爲

你看得開，想得開

就自然放得開

不是偶然

是時機到了

人長大了

思想改變了

看東西的方向與角度都不同了

很多人

口中說著放開了

可是只有自己的内心開始最清楚

其實什麽都沒放開

我們每一個人

都是不願意去面對現實

因爲現實永遠是殘酷的

可是這一些對現在的我來説

放開與否都已經不重要了

如果放不開爲何要強逼自己放開

那不是更痛苦，更放不開嗎？

所以這一切都不重要

最重要的就是未來

對我來説什麽都不重要

自己開心與否，以及未來才是最重要的

原來一切都是可以自己說服自己

很多想法都可以在一念之間就可以轉變

讓自己過得快樂一點

讓自己的生油多一些色彩

不要總是在灰暗中

什麽事情

傷心也好

灰心也好

絕望也好

憤怒也罷

給自己一個期限

把應該感覺的都感覺掉

就把自己調整過來

日子還是一樣要過

因爲世界不會因爲你的心情好壞而不再轉動

笑一笑

什麽事情都可以的

加油吧！

*smile*

KEEP QUIET

2010-10-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

WARNING:

please do not read this if you are not in the mood

please do not read this if you are currently angry

please do not read this if you feel like saying the "F" word

I am totally boiling now

I never shall tell anyone about it

I am so so so so so damn mad at the stupid

feel like scolding the "F" word in front of the stupid

idiot

just eat back your words

and i shall never trust you again

you bloody idiot shit

I shall just be angry for this particular moment and just for tonight!

and let go~~

the stupid shall remain there

Fuck you idiot~

Anger

2010-10-05T23:17:00.003+08:00

I really wonders where the anger came from?

Everything seems to flow as it is these days

Today I know it by just how hard my fist is punching

and by looking in the mirror only I saw how focus and dangerous

that LOOK can be

If I can kill someone by just looking

I think at that time plenty of people could have just died under my eyes

Time is flying

like no one's business

but I care madly

how fast it passes

I want my time back

Can I have it back

to use it again

again and again

use it wisely this time

What to do .....

Its gone and will never come back

so from now on...

I shall use all the time I have

for both work and study only

Leisure??

who cares about leisure?

*Smile*

saturday

2010-10-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

there is always nothing much about saturdays

i do not like saturday

it does not seems to be the weekends for me

things are always there to be completed

worries

2010-09-30T13:45:00.002+08:00

I just can't help myself to worry

about everything that are coming up

I do not know whether they can help me

or they will just destroy me all together

I guess I will be the same me again

I will get what I want

no matter what happens

I must do it well

to get what I want

Thats the main aim that brings me there

the ultimate stepping stone to the dream

work

2010-09-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

work work work

this few days had been truly hectic

sleep is not enough

eat is not according to the right timing

things seems to be piling up higher and higher

although how much I have done per day

everything seems to get out of control

working very late these days

wondering whether i can go through all these time nicely

work and study

is not actually a problem

but now it seems like

there is some obstacle to move forward with both

those have become a challenge to me

find a balance

and live with them

going to be the second panda in the house soon....

sunday

2010-09-26T20:40:00.001+08:00

it is a rather boring day

sitting down in front of the table

facing the textbooks

make my eye lids feel like dropping

and walk myself back to the comfy bed

DEAD

2010-09-25T20:11:00.001+08:00

blog is currently dead

due to some personal reasons

LOL
no reasons at all

just that there is NO TIME

to write

just to say sorry to my blog

and there is plenty that i did not update yet

especially the super duper "taiwan trip"

2010-09-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

"真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。真的只是有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。真的只是有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。真的只是有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。真的只是有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。真的只是有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。真的只是有时候，希望时间为自己停下，就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒。真的只是有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。真的只是有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。真的只是有时候，夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。真的只是有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。真的只是有时候，觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。真的只是有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次。真的只是有时候，自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。真的只是有时候，常常找不到事情，无聊的无所适从。真的只是有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢了。真的只是有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。真的只是有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。真的只是有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。真的只是有时候，听到一首老歌，就突然想起一个人。真的只是有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。真的只是有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。真的只是有时候，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。真的只是有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力.............." quoted from facebook

当我读完这篇文章，心跳的感觉强烈了很多。感觉眼眶中的泪水好像有股冲动要掉下来。

真的很像我！

太像了

太像这几天的感觉

让我有莫名的感动

想哭

可是

好像也不太好

就非常谢谢这文章把我的心情写下来

New Semester

2010-09-10T21:35:00.003+08:00

new program

new semester

new life

for me

currently

i am still coping with all the busy-ness

and craziness

I have 2 cute lecturers whom speaks like bullet train

I have really lots to cope up

Looks like panda look will soon be the most trendy look for me

we shall wait to see that

It is really amazing to see my lecturer talking

and for the very 1st time

I do not know what she is really talking about

Oh My God~~~

thats accounting woman

how can I do not understand

but I really cant

God please let me have more time in a day

I am currently in the second week of the semester and

I have 3 chapters to read

Phew~~

SOUNDS LIKE

the beloved textbooks will be my best mate starting from now on

and the study room shall become my bedroom again......

Go go go ~~

I will be busy starting now on

sadly all the post that are on the waiting list

will still be on waiting list

breathe people

breathe ~~

I will run after the time from now on

By the way....

any plans for outing or anything

please make appointment with me

most probably 2 weeks before the plan

thx

pen and paper.....

here I come