Saw

Saw Something today

need to be explain

not to anyone

but to myself

Friendship is something that is very important in my whole life

I can leave anything for all my friends

I can even die for my own friends

I am a person that is very simple in the way that

I just hope that they are happy then I will be happy too

that is the easiest thing ever

I did everything for my own reason

whether is it a bad or a good reason

There will always be a reason behind everything that I did

thats me

Maybe leaving a group of friends seems

unreasonable to some people

but for me

if there is a need to leave

then it will be the best to leave

yeah

i agree that that group of friends did bring me lots of laughters

but does laughters really the same as hapiness??

Really

think about this question carefully

for me

it is a no

laughters does not really means hapiness

In life

the main aim is to find hapiness

but not laughters alone

without hapiness

in small conclusion

i laugh alot with them

doe not mean

i am really having fun and hapiness

with all of them

since there is no hapiness involve

then why should i be forced to laugh

at the right time with the wrong mood

and spoil the whole feeling at all

i am really glad that i leave

and found that there is really friends out there

that wanted me to laugh when i am really happy

and made me appreaciate them more

now

i seldom laugh

because i now know that laughter is actually very precious

and cant waste it for something that are not worth laughing for

but

i am happy in the sense that

i found myself again

the me with all the good spirit that never dies

that old me that came to HELP college at the very beginning

and be really open to everyone

glad about that

and i learned something too

if i did not went through something

i will not learn something important and

cant buy without money

that is

pick and choose your friend wisely

and do not lost yourself for your friends

just be the same old you

爱

爱真的来得那么简单吗？

在一起就了就是爱吗？

当他对你好时

你曾经看不到

可是现在看到的时候是什么感觉

真的是爱吗？

还是自己渴望爱情也渴望被爱

就在这个时候他那么的刚巧他就在身边呢？

真的是爱吗？

还是看着他那么默默的付出

觉得对他非常的不公平

觉得对他很愧疚呢？

真的是爱吗？

他真的是你想要的那个人吗？

还是你想有一个可以依靠的肩膀？

爱情真的好复杂

女人心海底针

不要说男人有时候女人也不会明白女人

你说可悲吗？

感想

今天回到了

我们大家第一次的地方

怀念吗？

是有一点吧！

可是只是感叹人去楼空

眼前情景不一样了

缅怀是对的事情吗？

好像不是

走过了这一切

人长大了吗？

是吧！

有一点

可是人总是回想东西还是以前的好啊

是那样的吗？

不知道

应该要等到以后才知道吧

身边的欢笑回来了

真的知道原来笑是那么的容易

一切不再困难了

世界再也不难了

我回来了

一点一点的回来了

信心方面还是有点欠缺

可是真的原来不认识的也会帮你加油打气

在你认真的踏出第一部的时候

那种认真别人是看得到的

那们也会为你鼓掌

慢慢我应该就会真正的回来了

Headache

Having bad headache now

do not know really what happened

really that bad

that i want to knock my head on the wall

After having calculus class

i am really having bad headache

i am so tired of everything now

just feel like sleeping and silence totally

without any sound that can made the headache go worse

feeling even tired of all the classes at the moment

but need to go on as usual

i will move when the headache is gone so that

i can study better

in the sense that

i can concentrate and maek that information

go into my head and stay there

not just pass by

but stay for a long time

all subjects are still very new to me

and need more work and time to understand and major it

had a bad timetable

thats the thing that everyone admit

it is really bad

and i think the worst timetable that i had ever had

since i started studying

what can i do now?

just bare with it

for say it is only around 3 months time

Hard Work

I think i really need some help and more hard work in this semester

all the subjects are really new to me

and guidance is a must and thats what cross my mind now

I do not think pleasure now for me is a big deal anymore

I really want to do this semester with all my best

oh no

not all my best

is that i need to do even more than the best of mine

i need to increase the hardwork and the ability of the best in this semester

i really do not care what price i need to pay after this semester

but i need all the energy and focus now

sickness is totally a no now

for the whole semester

no way i am gonna be sick

i will force myself towards the excellent stage

lots of people can do it

why cant i??

without any reasons and excuses this time

i will never let myself to be out of track now

i think i shall have someone to remind me if i am out of track

relax seems impossible now

all the subjects now need full and total concentration

and i really need to start everything fast and need

before i even have the time to regret if anything goes wrong

i need more reading time than sleeping time now

reading and doing notes now will be the first priority

understanding and full concentration with the help of preparation will really help right?

Yes!

I must have high self-esteem

I shall never let it low even

Now

Everything is starting

be prepared

and fight for pride and results

For Future

Keep that in mind

For the whole semester

do everything with more than best

thats the new short term motto

体会

今天有了新的一种体会

看着这一切原本那么熟悉

可是现在却又非常的陌生

一切原本是我可以拥有的

可是现在却与我擦肩而过

看着曾经熟悉的陌生

心中真得很感叹时间的洗礼

看着非常热闹的走廊

却这样扬长而去

心应该会有些不甘吧？

可是只是惋惜

眼前的情景

已经改变了

人也不是当初的那一个

心也不是当初的那一颗

可是

没有了当初的快乐

没有了当初的欢乐

没有了当初的欢笑

没有了当初的纯真

没有了当初的真诚

没有了当初的那份理解

没有了这些看似小小的东西可是

积少成多

却变成了一个无底的大坑

让我们慢慢的沦陷

可是

梦醒了

我笑着回头看这些

本来是属于我拥有的这一切

却觉得

有时候周公对我蛮好的

因为他

在对的时间把我叫醒了

把我从对的地方带回来

让迷路的我

回到真正的道路

回到真正我该走的道路

第一次

不再感觉可惜

不再因为他们的存在而难以呼吸

不再因为他们而伤心流泪

不再为了他们的事而烦恼

不再为了他们的对白和眼神中感到无奈

不再为了他们而感到我真的不该存在

不再为了他们而感到孤独

不再为了他们我无言以对

不再为了他们迷失了自己

不再为了他们的一切放弃自己的感受

我做到了！

包袱放开了！

笑了

真的会笑了

真的会会心一笑了！

真的会开开心心的笑了！

真的会无忧无虑的笑了！

真的会让自己也讶异的灿烂的笑了！

我真的回来了！

从新再次的找到目标

从新再次的找到奋斗的精神和力量

不会当作他们从来没有出现过

反而只会当作历史在身边

时时刻刻地提醒

什么是应该

什么是不应该

那就够了

无关紧要的人、事、物

都还是一样的恢复原状

醒来真好

天空依然美好

世界还是那么的阔、大

人生真的还有很常的路要走

要加油！！

Decision

"Sometimes some decision made you popular

sometimes some decision made you unpopular

think about it"

i will remember these words

i do not need popularity

i do not need to be famous

i really need proper friends

i now look up to myself who stood by my own decision

i need pretty well excellent results

not populairty

i do not need to know everyone in the corridor

i do not need to know everyone and say hi to everyone who pass by me

friends are person who pass by my life and draw something in the book of life

some friends just draw something and its the time to say bye

some friends are meant to be there by your side and know everything about your book of life

and i need the second

not the 1st

the one which the most friends

is the one which have plenty of friends that know you the most and understand you the most

and even be by your side whenever things happen. They know the right thing to say, they support the decision you made and do not question why. They appreciate every time we have every single second

Something To Say

Haha..

after all the celebration

here is the time to express my gratitude to everyone

Where should i start??

ok...

cincai lah

Yi Theng:

LOL....dun noe wat to say now...thx for the trip with me although u are so sick. and the gift..is the memories all of us together and erm.....i appreciate it very much... your short but sweet post is so touching....LOL....the first drop of tears is for u ad lah.....haha...thx really

Audrey:

LOL.....u r late...but nvm.....haha..u did the present on that day also...LOL...nvm lah...i shall keep it in heart bcz i cant carry it everywhere but i will keep it in heart and it shall follow me everywhere i went.Thx....

Yen Yee:

Hahaha...how??long time din shoot u ad wor....whats the feeling again??Thx...the gift really mean a lot...Thx and yeah....the message u sent...LOL...so many yoyoyo...

Wai Yen:

Erm....haha..thx for the message....will always happy and cheerful de...dun worry

Yee Teng:

A Tang, haha...i know u wanna wish me happy birthday...i know...thx really for the mms...really love ya

Sarah :

Love you loads also......Thx for the message girl. I really miss you...so long din meet u ad....

Li Min:

LOL....getting older??yeah....haha...thx for the message girl

Chen Li:

haha.....thx for the message. I will be happy as always de...Erm boyfriend ah...dun noe wor....not now gua....study 1st lah....hahaha

Zi Kang:

LOL...quite surprise.....but thanks...really much......for the wishes

Kah Jun:

Thx for the planning and everything...u really gave me a pretty memorable birthday that i will never forget....Thx....

Terence:

LOL.....Thx for your message 1st and yeah sorry lah for not replying...and thx though to be the driver........haha...i think u have ur memorable birthday as me also rite??

Esther:

Gosh, I really miss u......thx for being there...celebrate my 18th birthday.....glad that u r there.The speech is really something i wanted to say that day at that time....thats the exact feeling i wanted to express and feel like crying also

Ming Hui:

Ahaha...miss you really...thx for everything..love ur present.....

Sue Anne:

Haha...thx for the surprises......really love ur gift.....

Philip:

Long lost and lost contact i guess..so surprised to see u there.....thx....

Rui Yan:

Haha

LOL

thx

Kenny:

Erm...nothing much juz that

nice to meet you LOL

sound so formal

nvm lah

thx

Aimee and Charlotte:

Thx for the pictures......really nice to know u both and thx for being there and celebrate for me...Do not mind of not having a present.....thx....for everything...

Kien Chuen:

Long lost but nvm the 1st time seeing you again and there you are celebrating with me

haha.....contact later ba

Yin Xuan:

haha juz noe you like everyone else.....thx and yeah...thx

and everyone who wishes me in facebook

i replied everyone of you as i am really grateful to have all the wishes

and i will keep everything nice

and be happy always as usual as i am....

I really enjoyed my 18th birthday till the end of every moment

i shall treasured the whole event in my long term memory

and i know that i am still me who is always happy and laughing and smiling

Fun

Having all fun by myself

Nowadays

I really have different perspective about fun

Fun not necessary to be laughing and spending good time with friends

but now calmness is fun

chit chatting with others is also fun

walking with friends is also fun

understanding is fun

alone is the most fun

everything is fun

haha

nice nice

even eating an ice-cream can also be very fun.....

邂逅

从一开始就是错误
在每一段路都有遗憾
在每一段路都有成长
如果可以选择就不要走回以前的路

在电视上的对白
这几句给我带来了很多
不只很多是非常多

我已走了这样的路
了解了其中的感觉
了解了每一个人都要了解的意境
满足了
应该满足了

我比一般人了解得快
我比一般人了解得多
我比一般人了解得透彻
这样就已足够

明白
了解
相信
牢记
缅怀

这一切
都是一场的经验

谢谢这些经验
我真的成长了
我也真地走上了人生的另一个里程碑

Sentimental

Suddenly

I feel like writing something sentimental

Rainbow in heart

glowing in the dark

trying to shine

to overcome the dark

evil darkness overwhelmed

control the bright blue clouds

rainbow stares

without anything

rainbow tries and tries

fail to the mission

fade away

as darkness became

more and more controlled

People laugh

People cry

People gossips

rainbow just

have something to say but nothing came out

just because

rainbow knows that this is the right decision

for herself

to pick up her colours again

else where

where darkness doesn't bother her anymore

rainbow smiles

rainbow laughs

rainbow matured

rainbow slowly have her colours on

although is not that strong anymore as the past

but she still shines and glows

at least she can now manage to shine her own self out of darkness

and by the time she really stands up

she wil shine other people with her colours and bring them out of their darkness too

rainbow knows something

that will change

and

something that will not change

It is her

that will not change

she will still be shining

just that the timing change

that she should not be shining at all

the timing is right again

she will shine maybe more beautiful than before

she also learn that

if old things did not past

when will the new experience comes

so

she shall shine for her own lives

Her live should be full of colours and

rainbow can assure herself that

she will shine

she will

shine

better than ever

she shall shine

till the last breathe of hers

and rainbow can do it

without caring what people says

rainbow will always be rainbow

with 7 beautiful and magnificent colours

that can brings happiness to people

that she love

Extraordinary

I am feeling extraordinary good today

maybe its the time to let off anything and everything that

keep bothering my mind

sometimes i really think that much

and feel some kind of idiot to think so much

and now

yeah

i am happy as i review

after the decision

at least i can laugh more like my own self

and be happy

although it is not the same as the last last time

but at least i can laugh now

like mad people

maybe the real time of letting everything off is now

i am feeling so good

A owe a thanks to the whole bunch of people

who gave me lots and lots of experience that i never had before

and now i think i have grown from there

and thanks for all the memories and lessons

I will remember it

At last

i can be myself again

as sin yi say

"do not even bother what people say

just be yourself and live your life"

i really treasure this whole phrase

and move on with my life and achieve my own goal

and laugh along with the journey

and be myself

Past

Past is always the past
and nothing can actually and really turn back

I am been very defensive nowadays
as i know that being hurt once is more than enough

I am quite surpise that my heart told me this

I think u all should support my decision
Don't u?

Maybe all of us will be happy with this ending
so that all of us will go on without having something bothering their mind

I know that we all had a really good memories together
although it is very short
but I am glad at least we still have that to keep
and move on in our life

I dun really think things can change back into the original state
as all of us din think of what will happen
and made the decisions that lead us this way
we really cant blame anyone
as we are still very young
and its right to did something wrong
and take it as a lesson
and do not do it the next time

Thats all i can say
if i really treat u badly
I am so so so sorry
I din mean to do that
its juz the reflect action from the heart

Goodbye people

PC Exam

I really think nothing went into my brain yesterday night
I get everything all mix up
and yeah
i dun quite have the confident to do this exam
oh god
so stressful
went in ad
took that exam ad
come out ad
before the time even end
haiz
juz bcz i know
i sit inside also no use
cant even think properly
how can do properly
if i know then i long tim ago also fill up the blanks ad lah
if i dun know then really dun know
nothing much to say ad
wat for sitting inside the exam hall and keep staring at the wall
and the clock
and seeing people finish up and leaving
while i myself know that i screwed up my test
and have a blank mind
so i decided to come out of the exam hall
so tat i can prepare more for the next paper
and let myself breathe for awhile
so oh god
please let me do better in the next paper lah

i begged u for mercy lah
hope u really help me lah
i really need ur help

ok now
take a deep breathe
and
go study ur study skill
and excel the paper well
and prove that u r worth it

常常

好无奈无人能明白
心中的无奈
让我好无奈

无论说了多少次
心中还是一样的痛

笑吧
笑吧
让自己苦苦的笑吧
至少自己是笑着的

无论是美的笑
无论是丑的笑
还是笑
让自己笑着吧

笑笑吧
灿烂的笑
让别人羡慕
羡慕我的自信
羡慕我笑得灿烂

让小陪我继续走下去

笑吧
勇敢的继续笑吧

nervous

i am so nervous at the moment
tmr will be the big day for me
the 1st ever formal presentation
and it is going to be recorded by our lecturer

god
........
nervous-ness struck me like lightning

i shall do tis as my own way
its my show time
i will do it
i will sure do it

sir's student
murugan's student
i will sure not let all my teachers down
i will make them proud of me
i will make them proud to have me as their students and can use it in my daily life wat they have taught me
i can do it

i will prove tat i am capable of it
to speak in public
despite the fear and all the butterflies in the stomach

GO!

一起

不是说了要永远在一起吗？
不是说了遇到什么困难都要以起面对吗？
不是吗？
难道忘了吗？
那些承诺算什么？
甜蜜的日子忘了吗？
辛酸的日子忘了吗？
辛苦的日子忘了吗？
疲累的日子忘了吗？

那不是一辈子最美好的回忆吗？
为什么有了要离开的念头？
那我算什么？
在身旁默默的支持算什么？

虽然我相信
一切都会没事
可是心中的波浪还是那么得不能平服
会好的吧？
答应过的不是吗？

不要忘了好吗？
要一起走下去好吗？
再多的明天
再多的明年
都要一起走下去好吗？

能在一起不是心愿吗？
能在一起不是每个人生日的愿望吗？
能一起努力不是很好吗？
能一起度过不是应该珍惜吗？

不要忘记那些承诺好吗？
不要忘了我好吗？

一切都会好的
会有一个完美的解释吧！
对不对？

会的
一定会的
我有完全的信心
这一切都不是问题
毕竟已经经历了很多很多
都可以熬过去
一定可以的
我相信
我信任

我永远爱你！

问号？

幸福的人为什么不知道自己是幸福的呢？
是因为人总是贪心的
有了很多别人不能拥有的
可是还是会想要的更多
非常得不可思议
没有拥有的是否是最好的呢?

常常这两个字
我真的常常用它们
脑海好像一直不间断地重复着好多东西
为什么不能忘记 - 忘了那些不开心的
为什么那么执著
为什么手还是抓得那么紧

看来我还有很多东西需要学习
放下第一
笑着离开是第二
努力向前是第三

大脑真是一种不可思议的东西
突然想笑
笑自己笨
笑自己傻
我真的是大笨蛋

未来好遥远
心中的门一个一个的关上
关了一个，又再把另一个门关上
能进来的人越来越少
保护自己的成分居多

想想那可能没有那么坏吧！
如果事情没有发生，自己会是什么样子的呢？
可能大家还是在一起
可是知道的人只有一两个
被伤害的人就会少一点
也可能更坏吧！

笑口常开
这四个字好像需要很多努力和很多的经验才会领悟到吧！

真的
我几时没有哈哈大笑了
我几时忘了笑
我几时忘了开心的笑

大家在一起真的是老天爷给的缘分还是考验呢？
大家可以回到从前吗？
好笨的一个问题
不可能了！
再也不可能了

世间真的一点面子也不给
就这样溜走了
让我们站在这里选择要怎么走下去
没有人走下下一步
就有我来吧 !
让我走
不需要任何一个人带我走
我想一个人走
让我们自己面对自己的难题吧！
我不想在插手一些与我无关的事情

心中的话怎么写也写不完
真得有那么多吗？
可是写出来也好
让自己放空然后写吧！
拿着纸和笔就写吧！

坚强的自己去了哪里？
几时能回来呢？
几时从床上起来的时候能发现彩虹已在等我呢？

写完了心中一点一点慢慢觉得轻松吗？
人人都能完完全全的开心吗？

算了 算了 不管了

回顾

常常我都会回想
想着想着也会觉得自己真得很笨
明明有很多的教训
为什么还是那么笨
对每一个朋友都那么信任
对每一个朋友都那么全心全意
对每一个朋友都是付出一百分
可是到最后受伤的还是自己

眼泪真的好多
多得自己也有点讨厌了
可是它就是一滴一滴替自己的主人表现了它主人的心情
它的工作从来就没有间断过

短短的几个月
就让我觉得好像
看到了夏天的落叶带有春天的雪

为什么自己那么的放不开
为什么发生了那么多的事情自己还是那么的放不开
明明早就应该放开
可是。。。。
可能是因为自己心中觉得
朋友比什么都重要
自己怎么想也不会想到有这样的事情会发生
不能接受吧
为什么还要在乎？

我真的觉得这班朋友让我有了很多的第一次
第一次不会忘记一个人所说的一番话
第一次忍到瓶子满满了还在忍
第一次被这么多人误会
第一次听到一个人的声音会哭
第一次长这么大后悔自己的决定
第一次一个人为了一些人做了很多东西
第一次尝试笑着面对
第一次心中很伤心可是却笑了
第一次尝试到眼泪是那么苦涩与温热
第一吃尝试到想要消失的冲动
第一次不想面对每一个人
第一次不想说话
第一次怕为了让别人再次误会把一切都忍了下来
第一次想把手机丢向大海
第一次不想被人发现自己的所在处
第一次发现风吹乱了发丝却也可以把我的心吹乱
第一次发现自己可以听着自己的心跳哭
第一次发现自己迷路了
第一次发现自己的没用
第一次发现有时候世界是不公平的
第一次发现自己离快乐和开心好遥远
第一次发现自己竟然不会笑了

太多的第一次
让我觉得
好无奈

对啊
我是在逃避
可是除了逃避我还能做什么？
难道是面对吗？
难道真的是面对吗？
如果让我选择面对或逃避
我还是会选择逃避
我怕我自己控制不了自己
伤害了别人

好笨啊！
还在为别人想
那么自己呢？
理智的头脑一直不断地在提醒
可是为什么我还是为了这个原因放弃面对
你可是说这是借口吧

可是我自己很了解自己
我说的每一句话
我做的每一决定
我做的每一个举动
都有自己的理由
我现在真的不管你赞同或否
因为我不想再把自己变得那么伟大
为了别人不为自己想想
是很笨的举动

现在的我
真得很脆弱
好像真的需要时间慢慢的疗伤

我真的不会在原谅那些伤害我然后第二天摸摸我的头说对不起的人
因为那样自我不但不会觉得好过
而且我只会觉得更加难过罢了
那个举动只会把伤口插得更深而已

可能离开你们每一个人
会对大家都好一些吧
让我一个人离开
可能天空会比较蓝呢
可能海水会比较清澈

可能决定离开就没有必要再回来
可能离开后大家都好过那又何必回来呢？
曾经拥有的时间真的好短暂
可是曾经拥有比没有来得更好

是吧？
我就来尝试一下吧
虽然心里很矛盾
可是应该有了一定的决定了
就准备慢慢的放开吧
让大家都自由

可以的
没有我的存在会好一点吧？
我真的是那样希望的

为什么坏人不继续走下去呢
这应该是坏人做了最后的坏事

不要再说没有人对或错
因为大家都没有想到在自己把那句话讲出来的时候
心中已经有了谁对谁错
只是没有发现而已
这可是自然现象
也不能怪谁

算了吧
再多的泪
再多的血
再多的对不起
再多的谢谢
再多的问候
再多的劝解
再多的游说
也已经没有用了

当有些东西在那一刻做错了
就算以后再怎么补救也已经太迟了
就像感情在过了有效期限后
再多的挽回也是于事无补

人生如戏
戏如人生
反反复复
毫无意义
刻骨铭心
心力交瘁
呕心沥血
唉声叹气
值得回忆
只是过去

Confuse

My mind is full of things and stuff
and i cant get rid of it
thanks people for giving me tat
i dun quite sure wat to even say to all of u
i juz mean to be alone for all the moment
i will or will not comeback
i think most probably no
wif tis protective self of mine
i think u all can function well juz without
the presence of me
and there will be people that r capable to
replace me
and care about the hapiness of u all
and solve problems for u guyz
treasure who the people is /are
he will stay longer than me
thats for sure
mayb he/she will stay forever