How can I

I really have no ideas

what is going on with my own self

sometimes I really wonder

how can I do this

how can I do that

but the truth is I really did all of that

and it is kind of amazing to really seeing myself

doing all that

I am really not myself these few days

I do not know why

I keep pushing myself

keep on pushing and pushing none stop

I do not know where is the limit that I can take anymore

I cannot feel myself exist anymore now

maybe when everything has cleared out then I think

I might be better

until yesterday that i over stretched my muscle

the pain that goes into my brain

only then that I know

Thats the limit already girl

go ahead

get some rest

Actually I know why I refuse to take a rest

just that I do not want to think about all that

everything that had happened this few days

have really throwing me out of the norm

Get some rest

for yourself

either it is the physical one

or even the mentally one

it is the time to take some rest

*smile*

Tough

It has been a really tough new year for me though

A lot of things had been happening

that changed lots of things

I am really confused now

and I am literally jobless as I so-called resigned due to some reasons

Everything seems to still be an unknown for me

Stay on strong

girl,

that is the only thing that I can tell myself now

do not let people worry about it

stay strong is the only thing that I can do now

hopefully everything will be fine

I reached the bottom...

now is the time to climb and reach the top again.....

there is always light at the end of the tunnel

I shall stay till the end

*smile*