坐在车上
风处乱了我的发丝
风更吹乱了我非常乱的心情
让已经在眼眶打转的眼泪
再也忍不住流了下来

第一次为你哭
也曾第一次为你笑

说有的一切就在今天真正的在
无情的时间先生敲上了十二下后者今天真的结束了
心情跌落谷底中的谷底

回想此我们第一次见面
我那绚热的眼光
应该把你看得很不自然吧
转眼间
从我们见面、认识、变成朋友
都变得好快

第一次对我微笑
第一次对我他招呼
第一次和我同桌
第一次为我庆生
第一次对我冷漠
第一次和我大笑
第一次和我聊天
第一次我们一起搭电梯
第一次我们一次走在回程的路上
第一次凝望着我
第一次和我说悄悄话
第一次生气地看我
第一次失望的看我
第一次为你写信
第一次看着你的背影
第一次和你说再见

那么多的第一次真的变了最后的一次

今天
你恢复了我认识的那个你
最后的悄悄话
最后的让我脸红心跳
最后的让我开怀大笑
最后的听你招牌的冷笑话
最后的图画
最后的对望
最后的看我的眼神
最后看你的影子
最后看你傻笑
最后的微笑
最后的一起乘搭电梯
最后的傻傻看着你的背影
最后的和你并肩走在路上
最后的和你聊天
最后的对你苦笑
最后的祝福
最后的陪伴
最后的关心
最后的解释
最后的好奇心
最后的夜晚
最后的再见
最后的眼泪
最后的遗憾

就是不能亲口告诉你
我真的喜欢你

再见了
珍重再见

今天真得非常多的第一次
回想起第一次看见你
回想起你说的第一句话
回想起很多很多东西

今天
我第一次握着了你的手
感觉很温暖
粗粗的大手

第一次握着你的手
第一次和你深情地对望
第一次和你合照
第一次帮你搽黑板
第一次再班上承认我很荣幸又你这个老师
第一次你真真地对我会心的一笑
第一次你真真的大从心底关心我
第一次办过很多的事情
第一次我感觉我们那么的靠近
第一次你真正的体会我的心情
第一次你察觉到我的不安
第一次我们真的聊了很多
第一次让我没有脸红的回答你任何一个问题

这些所有的第一次也将会是最后的一次
真正的最后一次

珍重再见我的老师
真的再见了
心中的感激还是没能亲口告诉你
可是你还会使我一辈子的老师

愿意一切安好
要照顾身体
要有自信

Dear Mr Tan :

Teacher, although I know that you love physics very much but you also know that almost all girl do not like physics right?I am just one of them.

Actually, I think you must thanks Mr Zaidi. This is because his teaching made me almost fail my physic paper and I do not even understand a single chapter in F4 physics. That's why I took up your class and found out that your physic class is totally different from Mr Zaidi's and it is very interesting for students to study physics.

Now I really found out that actually physic is not a subject that is very tough but most of the concept we must understand it and everything will be fine.

Most of the physic concept is not hard after you thoroughly understand it. But at first, everything was hard but with all the demonstration you have done with all the guys made me understand the concept more and I can remember it more easily cause it sticks to my mind. I can assure that this is the best way to study physic.

Teacher, thanks for teaching me physic with patience and you are such a great physic teacher. I salute you!

Thanks

Additional :
All of ur teaching I will remember and use it during my SPM and well thanks a lot

Dear Mr How :

Teacher, it has been 2 years I did my add math with you. In these 2 years, you really help me a lot in my add math. You try to improve your notes, you try to improve your formula, you try to improve your teaching just to teach us what you know and want us to be the best in add math.

You are such a good teacher that I never even once think of switching my add math class to another teacher. I attended your classes all the time, I did not care whether it is raining or sunny or even thunderstorm but i will be attending your class but sometime i din go for your class due to some emergency and good reasons. Hope that you will forgive me.

Actually what you have said I remembered it by heart till now and sometime I forget due to my memory power quite low.

Teacher, do you know that you are the best add math teacher for me in this whole wide world and stop saying that you do not deserve to be the best or something like you are not the best. SInce when Mr How Chee Weng that I knew that is always proud of himself become so pessimist and loss his confidence in himself? This is a very painful sight for me to see it and hear it myself?

I really look up to you and salute you to have that much of confidence in you but it has decreased during this year. You must not care too much of the grading that other students give you and you must always remember that there will always be a bunch of students supporting you and believing in you 100%. The minority voted you with no "A" but you must not forget the majority of the students still voted a "A" for you right? Try to trust all your students that they love you in their heart too. Its just that they do not know how to express it out to you only.

Thanks for teaching me for the best and making the class more interesting for us. You really deserve to called as the best add math teacher in the whole universe. You are always lending a helpful hand to all the students in need of help and this will be appreciated.

Teacher, I will try my level best to score A1 for add math in my SPM to repay all you teaching and this will be the best present for both of us and made you proud of me.

I really appreciaite you and your teaching that I will never forget it. Thank you teacher.


Additional :
Teacher, take care your body as I am very worried about you. Take care of yourself. I dun even care if you come to seminar or not if with your body aching, but the main point is i care about your health. We can't go and visit you it is because you want us to use this time well and study than wasting our time to visit you. You are really the best teacher and really caring for the students..... Thanks you teacher...... Thank you

Above are the post that I specially dedicated for the teachers
This contain the content of the letter that I had given them
and additional things that I want to say in the form of
ADDITIONAL : .........

Today is totally moody...
Its just not today but this week...
I juz cant control myself to being sad
I juz cant control my tears from dropping every time I think about this.
I juz cant imagine that tiem flies so fast
I juz cant imagine that the day came juz like that.
I .........
I really do not want to leave my home
Kasturi is my home
The home that I had my fun and laughter
The home that I had my tears
The home that I had my swim
The home that I had almost everything

Its juz very hard for me to do it
When the time has come
Its juz very hard for me to leave it in my memory forever
I spent almost everyday there
I spent almost all my time there
I...........

Outing 13/10/2008

Outing again with Yi Theng
she actually wan to buy prsent from mini toons
but unfortunately........
We went to Lot 10
juz 4 a while only
we planned to have lunch at wong kok wan but
luck is on our side leh
saw kopitiam's poster
ei, very cheap cheap cheap cheap cheap
then both of us rushed there to have our lunch.

Haha, its the shop name on top of our chair

Inside view

Outside view

Out Outside view

Its quite technological
but very yeng

nothing to do
camwhore loh

Emo

same with me
camwhoring tooooo

My chicken chop that cost ony RM5.90

Highly recommended
Cold Citron Tea
OMG
very refreshing
trust me

Theng's sizzling black pepper chicken chop

Side dish

Then we straight went to pavilion
Hoho, my shopping spree started
the best place to shop

Good photographic skill
Taking pedestrian's photo also must choose wan
although both of them ad married but still very young

Main entrance for me

Camwhore while waiting Theng

Padini concept store
Saw this sunglasses
OMG
OMG
OMG
So damn evil beautiful man

Only cost RM29.00
Camwhore with it

A closer look

This looks nicer
nice angle

Zoom Zoom Zoom

White frame sunglasses
but
not in my top list

Closer look

Next stop
can guess ad gua
Yup, chocolate lounge

Interior view

Like that photo or poster

watever

Our bill
cause both of us pk ad
so thats all

Menu

Menu

Menu
Omg

Paradise of chocolate
come with partners
trust me

Chocolate affair
Belgium chocolate with 4 different kinds of fruits as....

I LOve Kiwi

Orange

And
STRAWBERRIES!!!!!!!!!

Marshmallow

Theng say take her photo
so i take loh

Guava
although theng say
it dun quite match with chocolate
but i think is really ok
both of it doesn't fight to stand out in taste

Strawberry is great....

Superb
Don't drop your saliva on your keyboard

Orange

Kiwi is very nice to infinity........

Eh, all finish ad,

so fast?

Even the chocolate
We dun even waste it

Look carefully
can read ah?

Went to klcc
straight
quite a long distance
under this
torrid sun

Just for you

Jing ah, how come like that de?
How can you just dont believe me wan leh heh?

quite elegant
quite diligence
quite 1234567
quite bt
quite a loud laugher
quite big miss sometimes
quite ahem

but i agree that some of the qualities i have it too lah

Ahhaha but not as much as her lah

I know you not very long
but it seems that i ad know u for a long time
Quite know me
understand me well in some sense that

although time flies and the earth continue turning
like no ones business
but u will forever be my friend
ever
there is no dateline or even expire date for this friendship

As long as devil is here,
The angel is be here.

regret

Regretting from my head to the toe.......
Blaming myself to make the wrong decision
that made my own self quite unhappy
since i cant control it
juz because..........

Erm..

Having lots of things happen today
Just do not know why?
gan also can sense it
he just sense it
just that simply and easy
is it that strong until
he just come to me and ask
what happen
Quite strong izit?
juz unknown
infinity
down to hell
thats all

Friends

Do you even think that means a lot to me?
I really do not know
I really have no idea
Speechless
Motionless

Truth

Do you?
Are you?
Can you?

Brave to recognised
the truth in you?
HUh?

Sometimes it really depends....

But i agree that reality really hurts

very

Appreciation

Teachers
do you all mind that
i write everything here
no rite?
i knew it!
Wohoo
new project
lah
after i finish
the draft
i will post it
as a reference
and to check whether
my english is improving or just
so so only

Raining

raining
today
drip
drop
haiz
quite boring
luckily
got
some good Samaritans
helped me
today
not like him
superb
membencikan
hatred grew in me
or just jealousy?
Aiya
nevermind
I will have the day
I trust that
that day will come
better than anyone else

You just wait and see lah.

Unknown

Totally unknown
why am i start blaming myself for?
I did revise during this holiday
but still why?
why i blame myself for not working hard
is it that i am really that lazy?
Why i just cant be more harworking?
seems like quite a heartrending situation
so how?
can someone teach me

depressed again
no
i never stop depressing
is
more depressed
my depressed level increase
to almost maximum

SPM is so near
it is so near
that i cant imagine it
coming so fast
that almost can slapped my face

Eating lesser and lesser
Apetite lose
insomnia
tension
superb worry

even u let me have some tart wine
i will not have any taste
and comments about it

everything seems tasteless to me now.
tasteless

Feel like throwing myself in to the sea
Feel like going insane
feel like slapping myself
Feel like beating myself

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!>.................

Totally......

Myself also do not really know that what should i post today
under the scorching sun
Is it a Deo Volante?
after a totally humid day...
after a totally torrid day
Wearing this cobalt t-shirt
feel like laying down on the verdant green grass
sipping a burgundy wine
watching the sky turn amber
imagining him wearing the ebony suit
watching his face turns florid...
made my pallid life turns colourful.
the surrounding smell of redolent of roses..
when he come near me
the ambrosial smell of him
hug me.....
i really admire him
as he is a joie de vivre
Au revoir
my dream
now i am facing the cul de sac
of my study
and suddenly i realise that
its just c'est la vie.

Audrey

The Only Firaun in my heart:

Ahem...
Happy belated birthday
and very sorry that
cant attend
the belated birthday celebration loh.
but still must wish you wan
hope that you dun mind mah

I know that time is very limited now.
juz remember that you have this fren
is more than enough for me
i hope that
you will remember me
whenever natural phenomenon
happens
me too will remember that



Aiya
must tell IndoCafe
that i found them 2 model 4 them
lupa ad


Oh
this is the only creature
that she owned
that scare me up till
my spinal cord


One of the photo together....

Memoirs always will be in my heart