Sunday, October 31, 2010

Coffee

Oh god....
great to have a day
just chill out with some friends
and drinking a cup of
coffee that smells great
in the sense that
the smells just stay in your mouth and you can still taste it after the liquid is into your stomach
what a great pleasure to have that

It just lightens up
the whole thing
and the whole of the person who drinks it

can't actually stop
smiling and grinding

*smile*

LOL

I just feel like typing
I feel weird
The urge to type is here back
OMG
so random~~

The feeling are mixing so well that
I really can't differentiate them out from each other

after talking to them
it is totally different
maybe it is just that
they are far older than me and far more mature than me

who knows
what going through their head
is totally different from mine
crazily say
I just wanna get away from everything now
and get to be alone and
yeah
basically just flee

but what now?
people always have their own responsibility to bear

stick to that girl

*smile*

Erm

I really have to allocate time for that taiwan post that was like
errrrrr 3 months
i guess if i am not mistaken

yeah
it was good
hanging out with them
haha~~
although abit kinda weird but
hehe^^
acceptable for me

great time spend
and yup
laugh like mad
and
get home late

LOL

Thursday, October 28, 2010

sounds like me

有一种女孩子在陌生人面前会很安静,很冷漠,

在熟人面前却很放肆,很霸道,

并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑,

不要认为她很粗鲁,

她只是很单纯的认为,

大家打打闹闹,骂骂笑笑,

表示更亲切,更不分你我。

这一种女孩子不谈恋爱,

只在姐妹间游荡即使有不错的朋友,

她还是无奈的笑笑

其实她只是在不能确定自己付出的前提下不会接受,

因为不想伤害。

这一种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时,

也会幻想,也会羡慕,

幻想着将来自己的恋爱该是多么的帅气,

多么的温柔,多么的甜蜜!

这一种女孩子,喜欢和自己的姐妹在一起打闹,大呼小叫。

即使没有男朋友, 在她的世界里,也有她的骄傲!

这种女孩子也会偶尔的忧郁,朋友问她怎么了

她也只会说没事其实她只是感觉累了,

她只是需要一个拥抱。

这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱,

恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。

她会骄傲的拉着他的手大街小逛,

不要认为她放肆,

她只是答应过姐妹们幸福要大家一块分享。

这样的女孩子恋爱的时候

喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮,耍赖。

不要认为她太小气,蛮不讲理,

其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少!

这样的女孩子不允许男孩子的背叛,

如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事,

她一定会狠心的离开你。

不要怪她太绝情,她其实很爱你,

但是卑微的爱情她不要,

她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水!

这样的女孩子失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好,

大声的笑,放声的闹。

当姐妹心疼的说:“你没事吧?”

她会放下她所有的骄傲,趴到姐妹怀里哭。

哭完了,苦笑一声:没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

若你遇到了这样的女孩,

如果你们是朋友,请原谅她平日的不理不睬,

其实她只是不会社交,不敢打扰,

你想想你的每一次邀约,她拒绝过你。

如果你喜欢上她,请你不要说出来,

因为她很幼稚,你会吓跑她。

原谅她的冷漠,她只是怕伤害你!

若她喜欢上你,请你不要在她的世界里消失。

她没有更多的要求,不会打扰你的生活。

她只是想静静的看着你,当你的观众,仅此而已。

如果你们已经在一起了,请你好好珍惜她。

这样的女孩子、太傻,请你别让她受伤。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着,

她有她的梦想,她的希望。

一个如花儿般的女孩子,

她时而快乐,时而忧伤;时而郁闷,时而疯狂;

时而邪恶,时而善良;时而脆弱,时而坚强!

你可以说她傻,也可以骂她笨,也可以说她冷,

但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里,

希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子。

勉励

加油!加油!加油!
无论事情发生到什么地步
我依然是我啊~
为何又为不该伤心的事伤心
人的生活是不一定顺顺利利
所以这样我们才会成长,思想才会成熟
为何去介意别人想什么,说什么
管他的
嘴巴张在别人的脸上,手也长在别人的身上
他想讲什么,type什么,你都无法控制
那又为何耿耿于怀?

你的生活是活给自己看的,不需要别人的认同与肯定
只要自己问心无愧,那就好了
相对之下,你会是那一个看起来比较有修养,教养的那一个

什么事都好,把自己的目标再次列起来
找回自己的方向,再次迈进,一步一步走向成功
不必因为途中出现的绊脚石而乱了自己的方寸
应该勇敢的一步一步走

一定可以的!
只要铭记于心:
“不是尽力,是一定要做到最好!”
让自己的世界再次见到阳光

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Life

Life is always as all the others said
it is not a bed of roses

true true

obviously i understand that

now even now

i understand this even better

i guess i can still control myself and live better right?

everyone can
who can't


*smile*

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Congrats

Haha..it is rather an emotional day
Now is happy the other minute will be sad
and then change back to happy
what lah

but its ok
i really enjoyed the day

and yeah
back to the main topic

someone is no longer miss tan ad.....
she had just became mrs lee

haha
congrats to
Lee Keng Mun & Tan Li Ting

this will be the big day ever
obviously its the best day ever
hope tat the dreams come true


*smile*

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

confusion

I am actually quite confused
Am i really not suitable for all these college style of learning?

there is more and more doubt in my mind than usual
maybe it is really my problem that

a lot of things are running through my mind

plenty of them
that i cannot get them out of my mind

emotions running through me
whacking me hard on the face

people
people
people

let me just cry and sob and cry and sob and cry till i drop


*smile*

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Frustrated

I really feel like crying today
I really have no idea what was I thinking when I react that way

Its been very emotional this week
It is also been very chaotic and frustrating

NOw only I realise that today is only tuesday
how many more days to actually end this week?
4 more days to go
good luck to me


I am not saying anything to blame him
just that how can ........

Its okay
it is all my fault
It is all my bad
It is my problem
he won't have any problems

I do not want all the compliments from all of you
I just want to be myself
Do you guys think I wanna be ahead of time?
NO! obviously a big no no

NOt that I wanna do everything ahead
It is just that I am working there
You employed me
Therefore I shall do everything I need to do
There is a responsibility there
There is my reputation there
I do not want anything bad to happen
We can't always calculate all the time just nice
There will certainly be emergencies sometime
just to allocate some time for all those emergencies to happen
so that we have enough time to handle

How can you not know they way I work?
How many years have we been working together?
I really have no idea what to say
I do not want to say anything

I know that once all these words are out of my mouth
It will certainly sound bad and hurting

NOt that I am mad at you
sometime I am
NOPE
most of the time
YESH
but just for a few minutes
and then I am mad at myself

I am always mad at myself
Always
Always
Always

This really sound so bad!!!!!!!


today there will be no smile
just cause there is no energy and the enthusiasm to smile

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Time

Just feel different nowadays
I really missed the old me.... :(

It is true that people changed over time
and they lost some of the ability that they had with them

Once someone told me that
when you grow older,
things changed
even you changed
and all those things that you missed
just let it go and move on
maybe those are stuffs that will not benefit you in the future
Life goes on and
there will be lots and lots of things that you missed
just be yourself and enjoy the moment now

Tomorrow will always be better than today...

*smile*

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

String

I shall just explain myself as a string nowadays
I really think this explanation works at this particular moment

I am now a string that is pulled by 2 ends.


They both pulled the 2 ends hard
The tension of the string is so high
The string herself is trying hard to maintain herself and not to explode or break-down
She realise that something small can just trigger the string to be tensed up and break-down

just anything
It is not that hard to loosen up
it is just that this is not the good time to loosen up

this is the time to be more tense just that everything is getting to be more and more
the tense is there to push you forward

I shall just increase the tense and hopefully push me toward the destination that I wanted to go
Everything is just in the matter on our own mind

Prove it right
Prove that someone can do it
Why cant I?

*smile*

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

sometimes

its getting more and more hectic here...
time to breathe??
yes i do have that

yes i really appreciate i have the time to breathe

yes i changed a lot

yes

things is always so so so different from what i think

yes yes

i shall be the others

*smile*

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Things

Somethings keep flashing back in my mind lately
I really missed all the moments
Unknown mixed feeling
but I love it
The fun
The memories and
all the stuffs

I shall remembered them forever


*smile*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Great

It has been great for me today
I never really thought that i actually can handle that
The emotion is not there anymore

I am actually so glad that I really can do it.
This really shows that
I can achieve what I wanted
at last~~~~

The feeling is so good
that I am wondering am I in the sky now?

I know it is always hard for people to change
but when you have the will, you will have the way
I really like this phrase
Totally in love with this
nothing is impossible sounds so so so near
I know what that sentence meant to me now
in that book....

Thanks to that book that make me think about myself and everything
the world suddenly looks different....
much more beautiful

*smile*

放開

其實說起來
還真得不那麽簡單
什麽東西都是事在人爲
你看得開,想得開
就自然放得開

不是偶然
是時機到了
人長大了
思想改變了
看東西的方向與角度都不同了

很多人
口中說著放開了
可是只有自己的内心開始最清楚
其實什麽都沒放開
我們每一個人
都是不願意去面對現實
因爲現實永遠是殘酷的

可是這一些對現在的我來説
放開與否都已經不重要了
如果放不開爲何要強逼自己放開
那不是更痛苦,更放不開嗎?

所以這一切都不重要
最重要的就是未來
對我來説什麽都不重要
自己開心與否,以及未來才是最重要的

原來一切都是可以自己說服自己
很多想法都可以在一念之間就可以轉變
讓自己過得快樂一點
讓自己的生油多一些色彩
不要總是在灰暗中

什麽事情
傷心也好
灰心也好
絕望也好
憤怒也罷
給自己一個期限
把應該感覺的都感覺掉
就把自己調整過來
日子還是一樣要過
因爲世界不會因爲你的心情好壞而不再轉動

笑一笑
什麽事情都可以的

加油吧!

*smile*

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

KEEP QUIET

WARNING:
please do not read this if you are not in the mood
please do not read this if you are currently angry
please do not read this if you feel like saying the "F" word











I am totally boiling now
I never shall tell anyone about it
I am so so so so so damn mad at the stupid
feel like scolding the "F" word in front of the stupid

idiot
just eat back your words
and i shall never trust you again
you bloody idiot shit

I shall just be angry for this particular moment and just for tonight!
and let go~~

the stupid shall remain there
Fuck you idiot~

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Anger

I really wonders where the anger came from?
Everything seems to flow as it is these days

Today I know it by just how hard my fist is punching
and by looking in the mirror only I saw how focus and dangerous
that LOOK can be

If I can kill someone by just looking
I think at that time plenty of people could have just died under my eyes

Time is flying
like no one's business
but I care madly
how fast it passes

I want my time back
Can I have it back
to use it again
again and again
use it wisely this time

What to do .....
Its gone and will never come back
so from now on...
I shall use all the time I have
for both work and study only

Leisure??
who cares about leisure?

*Smile*

Saturday, October 2, 2010

saturday

there is always nothing much about saturdays
i do not like saturday
it does not seems to be the weekends for me
things are always there to be completed