Ahem

Wanna forget

Wanna refresh

sounds very contradicting

it will soon be over

focus o something else

know someone new

sounds cute and stupid

but he is just a friend

Completely

When i saw something that is connected to him....

I think of him

Why i just can't stop doing that

Its sometimes unexplainable

looking at everything that we had actually gone through

its ridiculous

totally

why can't everything be much more simpler

My brain is totally and completely into him

RUN

Shouldn’t everything be over

Why can’t I just get over with it and continue to be the one – the normal one

Everything seems so fresh in my mind that I am getting more and more confused

Which one is the real thing and which one actually was my own imagination

Why can’t I have a duster and wipe his face off my mind

Why can’t I have some magical drink and forget about him totally

Why can’t I listen to some songs that will not remind me of him

I sound like a super young girl

Having little crush on guys

Yeah

Talking about crush

He is definitely not my crush

I never had the feeling of wanted to go into a real relationship with my crushes

But he is totally different

But the sayings is true

“Girls do really much like bad guys”

I think I can’t even run off

Can I?

HIM

Why should I even think of him

Why should I even know him

This is actually ridiculous

Who knows what is going to happen next

Maybe everything went so smoothly that it gives you a shock of your life

Maybe everything went totally opposite that made you pissed off

Things do not always go the way that we want it to be

Is this why we need to cherish every moment that we have now and future

Maybe recently I am being a person who is currently immersed totally into the emotions that I feel

Maybe he can even cause this

But what I am sure is that

He does not even notice it and maybe he won’t even realise it

If there is no one mentioning about it to him

He will not even bother as this is just a game to him

A game to him

But means a lot to me

People change, come and go

It does not mean that when you are gone and everything will be gone as well

It does not work that way

The equation is always not balance within the human circle

There is always heavier at the side and lighter on the other

Fair is really a word that define everything

Never fair should be the right choice of words

Who shall say it is fair between sexes

Who shall say it is fair between luck

Who shall say it is fair between appearances

Completely and utterly speechless with all these huge questions

I do not know that something small can actually lead to explosion

I do not even think that he can cause so much of a trouble and questions

No one knew about it

No one knew what is going to happen next

No one can tell me to avoid it at the first

No one can tell me not to sink into it

No one can tell me not to enjoy that

No one

There is really no one

Sound really pathetic and out of the norm

Envy

我很羡慕美男

为什么

傻傻的人真的会有傻福吗？

看这一个个爱她的男人不断在为她付出为她伤心为她流泪

难道想要得到爱真的那么难吗？

眼前看不见心却想得痛

为什么一切那么快就要结束

为什么不让我再看多你几眼

就算不爱我但也让我默默爱你好吗？

也让我站在远处看着你好吗？

可是说那么多有什么用

时间也是溜走了

为什么要让我心动

为什么不能让那一切的一切从来没发生

结束

一切真的结束了

眼看一年的时间看似很长

其实时间的脚步是飞快的

时间从以前就是不等人的

唯有像我们这些年轻人

都是追着时间跑

一年前的我

看起来有了些稚气

对人对事都有自己一般的见解

进了HELP

看到的学到的

足以让我慢慢蜕变成一个比别人稍微成熟一点

在时间的洗礼之下

我看这个世界的眼光已经不一样

人和人之间的感情也不一样了

看看以往的朋友形同陌路

这真是可喜可贺

不适合你的人

早一些放手

早一些远离

是明智的选择

虽然过程是难过与辛酸的

可是那一些痛苦是值得的

朋友的定义

变得更广阔

一些美好的回忆已变成了教诲

被伤害是痛苦的

得到经验与看清那些人的真面目是好事

每一样东西都时可圈可点

想的做的

每一样都会成为脑海中的一部分

舍不得

真的舍不得

结束了

一切结束了

生命中的另一章即将开始

久的那章就要从此盖上

舍不得

很多很多是我会很怀念的

一群老师

和蔼可亲的老师

让我有家的感觉

让我有朋友的感觉

让我有温馨的感觉

我会很怀念

和他们每一天的相见

和他们每一天的欢乐

和他们每一天的讨论

一群爱我的朋友

酸我的

陪我的

一起走在走廊的

让我心动的

都是我会回忆的

心中的不捨逐渐扩大

可是明天非常不留情的到来

压迫我走向明天

渐渐把过去抛在后头

可是

回忆与那种感觉就会像昨天一样

鲜明的不得了

Love

Although i post it 3 times

but i still feel like posting it here again

something written by myself about love

and i really actually love all that

as it is actually the words from deep bottom of my heart

- - - - -

when love is here
you would not know

when love is gone
you would be there
hugging yourself
blaming yourself
crying to yourself

but time
is not going to
rewind for you
but
you have to start to learn
how to move on

sometimes
do hope that
someone is there

waiting for you
smiling at you
ready to hug you
ready to kiss you
ready to comfort you
ready to make you laugh
ready to scold you
ready to fight with you
ready to listen to you
ready to talk to you
ready to share memories with you
ready to go through tough times together
ready to hold you when you fall
ready to cry with you
ready to miss you
ready to be with you
ready to worries about you
ready to know more about you
ready to learn new things with you
ready to dream about you
ready to care about your health
ready to notice your changes
ready to stand by your side
ready to present you with roses
ready to change your life
ready to do everything together

ready to let you and the whole world know that

he/she loves you

love is blind

love is always blind

now i believe
this sayings

the
sweetness
sourness
bitterness
of love

i can assure you that
you cant forget it
forever and ever

its in your heart
carved it
there



This is what i think about love
or you can say
this is what i fantasize about love

被骗的感觉

不知道怎么了

今天应该是听到了一些我不应该听到的谈话

不知是故意还是无意

他是故意的吗？

他真的是故意的吗？

放弃

根本不属于我的

早就应该放弃

贪心的我不想放弃

想眷恋这一切的美好

我好像在一瞬间便成了你生命中的公主

让我不知不觉的沉淀下去

差点到了无法自拔的程度

看来你真的害人不浅啊

这一瞬间发生的事情太多太多

对你对我是好是坏

这一切还真是未知数

我承认我对你心动了

我承认我对你有了那么一点的感情

可是这一切是不可能的吧

你应该是第一个让我觉得心动的人吧

你是我唯一让我想要和你在一起的人

你是唯一一个让我想和你一起拥有续集的人

让我有一点不知所措

我想结束这一切

你可能是我生命中一道美丽的彩虹

虽然美丽夺目但不长久

耀眼却遥不可及

深怕一触碰就会破灭

我应该放弃你这绚丽的彩虹

让配得上你的人在你身边

还没开始

不不

还没弄清楚

就想放弃

你对我所做的一切

我不会忘记

也不会忘了你这个让我有了第一次心动的人

宁静的心中出现了一波波的涟漪

久久也散不去

唯有让时间

让那涟漪

一点一点地扩大

Confusion

Under his gaze

I really feel smaller, tinier and miniature

Under his gaze

my heart really beat a little faster

but I still act as if there is nothing happening

but there is something stirring inside my heart

Under his gaze

I feel hot

With his small little action

and I can really reply that scene for how many thousands time in my mind

With his flying _ _ _ _

I can really feel my cheeks burning

OMG

kind of unbelievable

everything seems to happen out of a sudden

that my brain and heart cannot even cope with that kind of speed

You might be just the sparks of my dull and windy night

there might not even have the possibilities to go on

You might just be some colour just to enlighten my world

there might not even always have all the colours in my world

Although all your little small actions and expression

might enlighten the whole day of mine

but it is time to be back on the original spot

and get going on with our own life

as if this short incident never ever happened

Probability

This is really possible that I am really thinking too much

Too much

Maybe I should not even ask them what had really happened

I know that they are older than me

but can they actually saw the real situation and give the right opinion

I do really think I did something wrong

not that severe but still consider as wrong

I shall not repeat that again next time

if there is next time

I really think too much

Part of me says that he is just playing with you

Part of me will says that maybe he is interested

who knows the actual answer to this question

except he himself

we are here just guessing here and there

It is impossible to come to a final conclusion

What can I do now is actually applying the wait and see tactic and nothing else

We shall see what happen next and react on the spot

Actually in my heart

I really do hope for a real and stable relationship

I really hope that I can give it a try

It is just that I do not even know

which is real and which is not

I really cannot differentiate

Part of me think it is real

Part of me think it is just a dream

Actually 95% of myself think that he is just having fun and it is a dream

The 5% left of myself think that he is interested and it is not a dream

Maybe it is true

I hope to be true

I really want it to be true

Who knows

It might be what I hope

but

It might be the opposite as well

What he actually did was not bad for me

but it was actually quite sweet of him

Flirt

Now i know what is actually flirting

OMG

now i know the feeling

and all these while

what sir taught in class actually can be used practically i mean

I never ever try to look in guy's eyes so near

I never ever try to let a guy lean beside me

I never ever try to let a guy touch my feet with his

I never ever try to let a guy touch my finger for so so so long without shifting away

I never ever try all these

i will never do that

if i was given the chance in the past

but i did it today

in just such a short hours

Both of them are really nice

I never knew they were that flirty lah

but i really feel good

i really feel rather good

Smiling

keep smiling

I think for these few days

I can't actually tear the smile off my face

The Earth Camp

Spend the 3 days there is the best ever

i would really want to spend my time there again if i got the chance

i am so so so so lazy to upload the pic here

nevermind

if you are really interested

please click here

haha...

my day of enjoying is gone now

is time to be back on the track again

finals is really round the corner

time to get moving