worries

I just can't help myself to worry

about everything that are coming up

I do not know whether they can help me

or they will just destroy me all together

I guess I will be the same me again

I will get what I want

no matter what happens

I must do it well

to get what I want

Thats the main aim that brings me there

the ultimate stepping stone to the dream

work

work work work

this few days had been truly hectic

sleep is not enough

eat is not according to the right timing

things seems to be piling up higher and higher

although how much I have done per day

everything seems to get out of control

working very late these days

wondering whether i can go through all these time nicely

work and study

is not actually a problem

but now it seems like

there is some obstacle to move forward with both

those have become a challenge to me

find a balance

and live with them

going to be the second panda in the house soon....

sunday

it is a rather boring day

sitting down in front of the table

facing the textbooks

make my eye lids feel like dropping

and walk myself back to the comfy bed

DEAD

blog is currently dead

due to some personal reasons

LOL
no reasons at all

just that there is NO TIME

to write

just to say sorry to my blog

and there is plenty that i did not update yet

especially the super duper "taiwan trip"

"真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。 真的只是有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。 真的只是有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。 真的只是有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。 真的只是有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。 真的只是有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。 真的只是有时候，希望时间为自己停下，就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒。 真的只是有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。 真的只是有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。 真的只是有时候，夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。 真的只是有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。 真的只是有时候，觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。 真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。 真的只是有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次 。 真的只是有时候，自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。 真的只是有时候，常常找不到事情，无聊的无所适从。 真的只是有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢了。 真的只是有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。 真的只是有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。 真的只是有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。 真的只是有时候，听到一首老歌，就突然想起一个人。 真的只是有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。 真的只是有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。 真的只是有时候，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。 真的只是有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力.............." quoted from facebook

当我读完这篇文章，心跳的感觉强烈了很多。感觉眼眶中的泪水好像有股冲动要掉下来。

真的很像我！

太像了

太像这几天的感觉

让我有莫名的感动

想哭

可是

好像也不太好

就非常谢谢这文章把我的心情写下来

New Semester

new program

new semester

new life

for me

currently

i am still coping with all the busy-ness

and craziness

I have 2 cute lecturers whom speaks like bullet train

I have really lots to cope up

Looks like panda look will soon be the most trendy look for me

we shall wait to see that

It is really amazing to see my lecturer talking

and for the very 1st time

I do not know what she is really talking about

Oh My God~~~

thats accounting woman

how can I do not understand

but I really cant

so

God please let me have more time in a day

I am currently in the second week of the semester and

I have 3 chapters to read

Phew~~

SOUNDS LIKE

the beloved textbooks will be my best mate starting from now on

and the study room shall become my bedroom again......

Go go go ~~

I will be busy starting now on

sadly all the post that are on the waiting list

will still be on waiting list

breathe people

breathe ~~

I will run after the time from now on

By the way....

any plans for outing or anything

please make appointment with me

most probably 2 weeks before the plan

thx

pen and paper.....

here I come

4 hours

I am going crazy~~
break for 4 hours..alone somemore
today is really the 1st time
i found out that 1 minute takes so so so long to pass

time is like a old turtle
killing myself d~~~~

Let me have something to do pls~~

Night

Whenever I lift my head

and look at the sky

during the night

Whenever I saw light in the dark

I do not care whether it is really a star or an airplane

I will straightly think of that uncompleted task of us

I will always wonder now

What if

What if

What if we did go that night

Will everything be different??

I guess I know the answer well

It will be a no as well