Frustrated

I really feel like crying today

I really have no idea what was I thinking when I react that way

Its been very emotional this week

It is also been very chaotic and frustrating

NOw only I realise that today is only tuesday

how many more days to actually end this week?

4 more days to go

good luck to me

I am not saying anything to blame him

just that how can ........

Its okay

it is all my fault

It is all my bad

It is my problem

he won't have any problems

I do not want all the compliments from all of you

I just want to be myself

Do you guys think I wanna be ahead of time?

NO! obviously a big no no

NOt that I wanna do everything ahead

It is just that I am working there

You employed me

Therefore I shall do everything I need to do

There is a responsibility there

There is my reputation there

I do not want anything bad to happen

We can't always calculate all the time just nice

There will certainly be emergencies sometime

just to allocate some time for all those emergencies to happen

so that we have enough time to handle

How can you not know they way I work?

How many years have we been working together?

I really have no idea what to say

I do not want to say anything

I know that once all these words are out of my mouth

It will certainly sound bad and hurting

NOt that I am mad at you

sometime I am

NOPE
most of the time

YESH

but just for a few minutes

and then I am mad at myself

I am always mad at myself

Always

Always

Always

This really sound so bad!!!!!!!

today there will be no smile

just cause there is no energy and the enthusiasm to smile