Exhausted

I am tired of explaining.

What had happened and things get passed around, people will have an impression about it. I am tired of justifying that I am not and it is not true.

I am tired of justifying or explaining.

If that is what you think it is then it is. I am felt so awful to just do things to prove everyone wrong and be unhappy about it.

I am worthless, useless and maybe it will be good that I do not even exist in this world at all.

Recent

After so long of not blogging, I guess now its to document and write down the current feelings rather than keep it just as a noise in the heart.

Over the pass 2 years things haven't been great at work. I guess its me, or to be honest I have no idea whether is it me or not cause rumours said that it is me. Slowly the more I hear the more I start to doubt.

I felt defeated most of the time and I realised that I try to please everyone just to make sure that my effort can keep their mouth shut but the more I do that the more I am unhappy as I am exhausted.

I felt loss and I couldn't stop crying.

Maybe its just me.

Maybe its just me.

or

Maybe it is me.