22/8/2008 (Part 5)

I feel
like
its seems
so likely
i am juz waking up
from my bed
after the dream

so unreal

so unbelievable

so hurting

so sad

so frustrated

so uncomfortable

so helpless

so stupid

so crazy

so shameful

so...

i juz do not how to
react
that
everyone knows

except me

i know that
i should and must
be happy
and
feel graceful to them

but

thats not exactly
how i feel right now

trust
is important
i know its suppose
to be a surprise

u juz let me
alone in the haze
for so long
using my trust
for all of u all

but

so silly huh?

what the fuck
that
i am thinking