Cant I stop thinking about it??

I dun quite like the feeling that
surrounding us now...
that kind of feeling make people
interpret different things..
How do you feel is another thing that
i myself do not know
and why are we that close to each other
and i am not quite ready for everything that
are coming
and that's what i told myself
to get over that feeling that are burdening me
You really do make me misinterpret right??
we both are good at the point now right??
do you really want to change it???
i myself do not know about that
how could you??
and why you really seem so different
to other people and to me
am i that what........
are you really testing on me
as my sis say so
and did i hurt you with my words today
i hope not
i really hope so
please
just tell me ok??
if anything change??
are you really sending some hidden message
that i cannot get it right??
are you that special to me??
i really do not know
and i really do not want to think about it
just let it be until i am ready and
the right time comes
and let just focus ok??