Such an Idiot

I hate heart
I hate that small little organ in my body
I know that it has lots and lots of function but
does it has to do so many jobs here??

I will never let that happen again
I now realise that I am juz not working hard enough
in this situation
not hard enough not even reach till my own expectation
I should work harder than now
I should really break my own records and work like mad
who cares?

I dun really think I am under sufficient pressure to excel
I must put more and more pressure on myself
so that every thing is juz more than fine
As I always wanted it to be juz as what I want

I dun care how it will brings my body towards the worst
but i should do everything as much as i can
as hard as i can
as good as i can
as perfect as i can
as everything i want as i can

I dun care
but for first
who cares
I am the only one cares
bcz its my own body and my own mental
and thats my own bloody results

I DUN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA DO WATEVER I CAN TO EXCEL
THATS THE ONLY CHOICE I HAVE NOW

SLEEP?
GO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

REST?
GO HELLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TIRED??
NEVER COME NEAR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!