People

I wanna be a good one

I wanna reach the sky and touch the stars

I wanna be great

I wanna be someone else that are not me

Am I that greedy??

I guess I am

Light at the end of the tunnel??

DO everything till the end and be truthful to yourself??

Memory

I do read some of the friends' blog

I do read sometimes

and some of it

I read all the time when there is new updates

I do envy people who have something that I don't

I do envy people with what they have and I do too

I found that it is really hard not to compare each other

after all those little tiny events that had happened

I always compare

It really sound ridiculous

but the feeling of winning makes me feel good

I know that I am not as good as other people

but I do also know that I am way better than some of the people

The voice in my heart keep repeating to myself that

why should I compare myself to the worse to make myself look better

and why not compare myself to others who are better and continue improving

I am doing it

I want to start to improve my broken english

I want to start to improve my image

I want to start to improve my social skills

I want to start to improve my attitude

although I can still improve on other stuff

but I do hold back some

I will never try to forgive those who leave their marks on me

Look

I look at him today twice

I thought that the feeling had just gone away after so many days

but who knows that he is just unforgettable

My eyes keep staring at him

I found this action of mine very unusual

but it has become a norm for me to keep staring

not until he knows I am staring

or yeah

another him

is not here today

maybe today is his off day

but i never realise that people do have this kind of good eye-sight

Keep it up boys

looking for something new

and waiting to have a bunch of new friends

Modesty

I find that people nowadays do not actually have this criteria

LOL

I do not meant to start on a new lecture

but I suddenly find this interesting

and this word just pop-out in my head

so the hands just typed it in

Today

Ok

it was suppose to be yesterday

I was really kind of shock that

he suddenly change his kind of attitude

I mean really in shock

But it is kind of fine for me as well

more friends is always better than more enemies

I do not care

but I think its fine

more than fine actually

Smile

Complicated

It is actually boring to be at home

but i am not actually at home all the day

This blog is getting more and more dull

but it is fine

I will start to be more hardworking

since I do not need to attend any classes

I should be most free at the moment

but too bad

it is not that case

I have my own small goal to achieve at the moment

a little small secret within myself

I really want to achieve that as soon as possible

but I know that this goal can't actually be achieved in a split second

I have some improvement

but still not that enough

I am actually still very happy

achieving little by little

I trust that I can

no

I must be must be okay

YESH~

成绩

我真的很讨厌

再次看到我自己的成绩

虽然算不上很糟

可是对我来说那一点都不够

是不是我真的太贪心了

不可能

为什么？？

为什么他们可以我就不能呢？

真的那么难吗？

难过有什么用？

事实已经摆在眼前

我真的不够努力吗？

看来却是这样

不够努力

不够努力

我真的不能原谅我自己

为什么不往自己的目标前进

为什么有了目标却在中途忘了

为什么有了目标却不能达到

真的太失败了

心中有些不甘

可是能怎样

再努力吗？

下次？

如果再有下次

我绝对饶不了自己！

我确定！

爱他们的

今天看回与他们一起成长的回忆

虽然心酸

眼泪在眼眶中

有流下来的冲动

可是

爱五子的我

看着他们那么坚强地走过来

虽然有泪水与汗水

但他们还是一起走过来了

爱他们的我

也要学会坚强

不再流泪

要坚强地走下去

因为爱他们

因为相信他们

因为他们

我有了再次不哭的勇气

加油~