Memory

I do read some of the friends' blog

I do read sometimes

and some of it

I read all the time when there is new updates

I do envy people who have something that I don't

I do envy people with what they have and I do too

I found that it is really hard not to compare each other

after all those little tiny events that had happened

I always compare

It really sound ridiculous

but the feeling of winning makes me feel good

I know that I am not as good as other people

but I do also know that I am way better than some of the people

The voice in my heart keep repeating to myself that

why should I compare myself to the worse to make myself look better

and why not compare myself to others who are better and continue improving

I am doing it

I want to start to improve my broken english

I want to start to improve my image

I want to start to improve my social skills

I want to start to improve my attitude

although I can still improve on other stuff

but I do hold back some

I will never try to forgive those who leave their marks on me