Leaving

I really dun feel like leaving

tomorrow is the day

feel like crying

I

I

I

I am speechless

I will surely miss everything here

Crazy

I am really going insane

I really hope that

insanity really grabs me away

now...

i really mean it

IMMEDIATELY or NOW~~~~~~~~~~~

at least thats what i can hope now

I totally hate the people

who give hope to people when they themselves even know that

they will bring them down down down down to the hell

I can actually never forget that

The blast of anger is still here...

growing and growing

i really hope it does not blow up

and crashed the whole city down

running away

seems to be good

especially from this

not so home's home

down

i really wanna let things go down and have fun

for these coming few days

i really gonna push myself to have fun

b4 going away

i sound like i m going forever

i do not really know why i sound that way all the time

i hope to really have fun

good day people

曾经

每个人曾经都做错过
我也是人
所以我也曾经错过

但是的决定是对的
可是人长大了
事情看得开了

有些东西是时候放下
有些人再见也还是朋友
有些人则不再是敌人

一切随缘吧
明白有些东西是不能强求的
只要看开了
放下了
眼前的东西就真的不再一样了

笑一笑
再见以前的乌云及包袱
对明天的天空说欢迎吧

Accent

what????
i speak with an accent??

i really do not want to believe that
but is that a compliment?
i really hope so

i do know that
i speak English with a special own accent, not fluent and with broken english

mind

too many stuffs in mind lately
wondering how needy am i
luckily
erm
yeah
yes
i guess i am needy
in need of something to fill something
sound very ambiguous
do i?

i really know what i need
but this things cant be desperate

craziness

crazily dancing for almost 2 days
OMG~~~
almost dehydrated

i can even remembered all the steps in my dream
but it was really fun

it takes my mind out of everything
almost everything

i really think everyone really needs something that can distract themselves
from everything

people will become so stressful especially those living in the cities
phew~~
the jam...
the time..
those are really killing
these pushes people to cross towards insanity

the older people also say that
sane and insane
is merely separated by a small line
its just the matter of time that forces people to cross over to the other side

no one wants that to actually happen
i always hope no one beside me will cross that indefinite small little line

Stuff

Having a lots of stuff in mind lately
nothing seems to be fine actually

Feel like running away from everything
just because all these things seems to be unsolve-able

I really do not like to be in this kind of situation all the days
but i really think
why can't everything be smooth and manageable
Hooooo~~~~

what a stressful week and all the following days

a lot of things ahead of me
but i do not have the motivation to move on
everyone keeps pushing me to face the reality
but why can't they just help me to settle the problems

i do not feel like changing environment
i hate the feeling of starting all over again
no
i can't say that
i do not have the courage to start all over again
especially in friendship

i really do not feel like going to a new environment and
start going through all the new process
and know new people and do not see any faces that i knew

i really hate to change
maybe i am just scared of changing anyway
everyone just do not like to walk out of their comfort zone
just as what Sir Sean always told us

what if i really have the money?
does it make any difference?

i guess yes
everything is always different when you have the financial ability

i am confused
i need distraction
i am still me
the one who always want to runaway from problems

i do know that this habit is bad
but it does not means that i will not face the problems for the rest of my life
i just need time

i just need plenty of time
to let myself to walk out of it

i know i can walk out of it but not in a split second
and definitely not in a few weeks time

i walk out of it once
and i really trust i can

it is just the matter of time

old time

i love that

i always do

it is always the best to think of

smile crawl up my face when that was what i am thinking about