Jae Joong

Although i know that its quite late now to wish u

happy birthday

but i still want to wish u

happy belated birthday

and i am wishing u sincerely

although i cant pass the wish directly to u

but i still hope that everything goes well

for u in this beautiful and magnificent year

dont push urself too hard

and i dun really hope for anything

i juz hope that

u are always healthy

and thats more than enough for me

i cant take care of u

as u dun belongs to me

u belongs to DBSK

u belongs to Cassiopeia

ah another thing is that

i really hope that

u will always have smile on ur face

that is sincerely from ur heart

not the smile that is juz simply similing

i really want u to be happy

i want to see the jae joong that

full of happiness

even in ur eyes

that sparkles

tell all the fans that u r really happy.......

sometimes......

i saw pain in ur eyes

i saw tiredness in ur eyes

and i feel my heart aches

and tears streaming

without ending......

still wish u happy birthday

u r always cassiopeia's hero

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


actuallt its quite true lah....
the 1st parts is seems that no that really true for me
mayb is because i never really thought of that
and the middle part till the end part
is perfectly true...
OMG....
this really kind of know me
even more than my own self

After 3 weeks of the incident
at last
something wets my face
i cant even control
the rhythm of me sobbing
the feeling is like
u have a knife on ur own arm
and pull it out
and poke it back to ur own arm
throughout a few times

feel better after crying.....
its still the best medicine for me

Today

yeah the result is out
my leg is ok ad
my i still cant walk properly
how can it be
i dun even think that how can
i forget how to walk??

and 1 more thing
i think the bandage is too tight
and my leg cant have the blood flow quite well
and i think is allergic too
and its now
become purpurlish
omg
and even become worst now
oh god

Anxious

I am totally anxious about tmr
although now its already 11.29pm
and around 30 minutes
it will be tmr
and the result will be there
waiting for me to see
and truthfully hope that
everything is fine
and the feeling hearing this news
will be overwhelming....

Today

I had a really weird dream
I dreamt that i really can take off the bandage ad
that the doc say that i am fine now
and i can start working and
everything
is so fine
and
its so warm
and someone is there
holding my hand
let me lean and their back
let me trust them
let me fall asleep

Craziness

I am totally getting insane
that i am totally losing all the rationality in me
I hate to be locked up in the house...
Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help Me...
S.O.S...........

I beg you....

Home

I hate it....
really......
after so many days...
i rather to be out...

Today

Now only i realise that

if u give ur mind

too many free time

it will use it at the wrong thing

i juz cant stop thinking

since now i am not available at working place

due to some stupid idiotic movement of mine



so the mind that normally u can control became

uncontrollable....

too bad

since my frens are all not available at the moment so

its time for myself

to neutralise my thinking and mind that u named it as cerebrum.

Today

is another boring day that i totally
hope that i can get my allowance
as soon as possible man
i have numerous list of stuff that i need to accomplished
with the money leh

• nike water bottle
• converse handbag(medium size)
• adidas/puma/fila/roxy/nike/esprit handbag (small size) - large enough for a novel
• flip-flop -radioactive....i will think about reef and roxy de.....
• elianto stuffs
• get my nails manicure
• purse
• .......

today

is awfully a slow day
and awfully hard to go through

its juz so hard that i miss the feel of the floor

i miss the feel that when ur leg step on the floor
the concrete floor

i miss the feel of my feet stepping on the floor

i miss the feel of how to walk

i miss everything that no one will ever miss

i nearly forget how to walk...

Sorry

I really have to say sorry to :

puiyan, audrey, yen yee and yi theng......

sorry to the 1st 3 of u
because i lie to u all
that now i m revealing it all out
juz because i m not feeling quite good these days to lie to u all
and it had become a serious stage that
i cant and dont know how to continue tis lie....

The truth is always there and is time for u to believe it or not .......

I did hurt my leg on the 31/12/2008
and yi theng knew about it
that i have broken my 2nd metartarsal
tis is the second time since the 1st accident
its not as serious as the 1st accident
and the 2nd bone juz crack
i knew it that afternoon
i told yi theng
to not tell all of u
not because of anything
but i have my own reason

-its a day for fun and all of u all are going count down and i juz dun wan to spoil it because of me
-i have bring quite a lot of disaster to u all so ........
-i told theng cause she can forget it de......
-i dun wan u all to worry about me since u all have ur plans and things to do

now i cant juz continue to tell u all that
nothing happen to me lah
juz dun worry lah
my leg is ok long time ago
i din go work is juz that i am lazy
so take 1 week leave

but now
the crack is clearer
i am barred to go to work 2 another 2 weeks
and everyday i saw u guyz on9
how should i tell u all
what should i tell u all
how should i tell u all

sorry
juz sorry
pls forgive me

Results

It is more clearer now
and everything does not seems
to work so well
so i guess
its times

Anxious

I am so gan jiong
about tmr
i really so anxious
i hope it will be ok
i really hope so
so that
its ok forever
moral support is what i need
to be more mutated tmr
i guess
what i have learn more about it
that v did not learn in bio
from either
mr leong
or even
mr fong

totally scared...

What Happened?

I really do not know what had juz happened to me???

I really cant identify why tears cant juz stop

It juz start flowing and continues

The heat that slides across my face

Burns my heart

At LAst It DRops

AT LAst
TEars drops

At last
the feeling came back

At LAst
i totally feel like i am a stupid

At LAst
I totally think i did it wrong

At LAst
i hate myself for doing this

AT Last
the pain came back

At last
i lost my hope

At LAst
i really made myself face with the reality

At LAst
i knew that i am still me

At LAst
tears cant stop

At Last
...........

Today

At last i can spend my time with Theng
nicely today

almost all the time
we have been talking

and i no need to say much loh
theng's blog almost written everything ad lah
juz go and view lah

thx ya Theng......

These Days...

These days...
i have been thinking a lot
as i don't know
what the hell
am i thinking

I am such stupid to do it again
and to shut my mouth towards them
i guess they will forgive me de
i really hope so
but maybe
they will think
it is only a small matter
but for me
it is not suppose the action to treat
your own beloved

i am really glad to have u
and i am really glad to have u all
but
i juz don't wan u all to
worry and
miss out the fun that day
so
that's why i did it
and until now
i did not say it
still bcz of the same reason

mayb
1 day u all will find out
but at least
for the time now
u all
are better not to know

i guess......

NEW YEAR

I know that tis post
should be named as
"Happy Belated New Year"
but i think it should be ok de lah

A new year
named as 2009
as everyone hope
that this 2009 will be a better year than 2008
Me too
i really hope that eveyone's wishes will come true

Although i did not have the chance
to count down with all my friends
and wish them happy new year face to face when
Mr. Time reach 12.00 a.m
but i still receive their message
and i really feel happy about it.

Thx ya all
and sorry.....