Love

Is that undefinable??

is that hard

people

love each other??

do people?

hard to say

very very hard to say

i cant even imagine

BAd

Is it a good word

or a bad one?

unknown

thats the answer??

define it then

Blogging

Feel like blogging and blogging and blogging

hell

what had happened

i also dun noe

haiz

just blog lah

i can reach 1000 post by this year

if i keep in this speed and craziness of blogging

hopefully

i wanna be crazy for sometimes

i wanna have memory loss sometimes

mostly all the time

Better

feeling better and better i think so...

hehe^^

juz feel like screaming

out of a sudden cant really adapt to the environment

that is full of stress

juz

came back

from somwhere

Heart Attack

Now...

I am really having super duper heart attack

feeling really not right

at the moment

feel like flying and floating

and everything is on a sponge but with all the pins that hurts

URGH!!!!!

nevermind

i can

Weird

Feeling too weird these days..

juz do not know why

just feel weird

and very weird

haiz

nvm

i can endure it

i shall

many things happened and the flash back is here still

sometimes not everytime

but

maybe something reminded me of HIM again

haiz

LOL

not love but the feeling of dislike

and i understand that feeling deeper this time

Useless

LOL

I do not feel useless

but i haiz

cant do the grouping for calculus

wtf!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz

nvm

shall do

i shall do it and

nvm

i have to go college everyday

thats the plan

to feel the air of study

and study more

Disappointment

I really feel so disappointed with my own results

not even reach my goal

kind of feeling bad for it

it also ruin my mood

but what to do

thats the reason of me not being hardworking enough

to reach my own goal

now

i cant

and

i wont

let that happen again

Relax

Suddenly i feel a sudden relax

from my heart

i reallyhave done my best for all the four subjects and why should

i worry anymore

i am so damned relax now

it is unnecessary to be worried over something that i have work hard for?

Book Review - 6

The Host

Stephenie Meyer

Synopsis & Opinions:

This is the 1st science friction book that I ever laid my hands on.

It is a story about some aliens intruded our earth and they think that earthling are too violent. They inserted some living things into the body of the human they called the host.....

The main character.....

the host - Melanie

the living thing - Wanderer

It is such a different experience to watch to distinct living things feel about each other and what and how they communicate and at last the love that appear....

This books is resolve around love, family and loyalty mostly.

There is such a touching scene where Wanderer wanted to sacrifice herself to give Melanie her body back but she has to leave her lover - Ian. Tears did swelled up but....

I love to watch how they both react when they both living in the same body love the same person at 1st and love 2 people at almost the end. That made me think that we human shall always appreaciate the feelings that we have in our own body naturally.....

Do not think that when feelings overwhelmed yourself and you are not in control, you are useless..

Decision

"Sometimes some decision made you popular

sometimes some decision made you unpopular

think about it"

i will remember these words

i do not need popularity

i do not need to be famous

i really need proper friends

i now look up to myself who stood by my own decision

i need pretty well excellent results

not populairty

i do not need to know everyone in the corridor

i do not need to know everyone and say hi to everyone who pass by me

friends are person who pass by my life and draw something in the book of life

some friends just draw something and its the time to say bye

some friends are meant to be there by your side and know everything about your book of life

and i need the second

not the 1st

the one which the most friends

is the one which have plenty of friends that know you the most and understand you the most

and even be by your side whenever things happen. They know the right thing to say, they support the decision you made and do not question why. They appreciate every time we have every single second

Hehe

Now i am insane again

feel like writing again

people are very lazy to update their blogs

the reasons:

1. nothing to write about
2. do not know what to write
3. no time
4. no one to read
5. ma fan

but i am kind of odd now

just because my fingers like its own exercise on the keyboard

so i just let it type its way towards the end

thats also the way to train my brain

do not keep stuff

just blahh everything out

and haha

mind and fingers work together

thats very nice scene to watch though

try it

let ur mind wonder and

type it as freely as it is

do not tied ur mind and fingers out

by everything

blahhhhh it out.....

thats me

the neutral me

Sing

I so wanna sing in the kbox

since when i did not went there ad

quite sometime

i really wanna scream myself out

wanna sing and sing and sing

just singing will do and

everything is the same as usual

i remember the box

we went to sing after the result were out

crying and singing

was something i tried there

sing and sing and sing

cry and cry and cry

haha

such memories

shall stay in my heart

forever

Think

What am i really thinking??

Am i so unconcious about what am i thinking

really

thinking is not the best to do now at the moment

i really think hard

too hard sometimes

that it hurts

whatever

haha

when can i really do that

whatever

and do not care

haha

lol

sound so not me

anymore

need a better companion?

need someone?

part of me think so

part of me deny this theory

such complicated

Restless

Feeling just that way these days....

the second semester is coming soon

and i have some different feeling about it now

maybe it is the best way to throw everything out by

studying

studying

and whole lot of studying

that will made all my mind occupied for a whole lot a while

that will be better

for me of course

letting myself have some more time to breathe now

and prepare the best for the time where i cant breathe later

i really do not care now even where and when and how and what and why and which

me at the moment is the most important

being me and preparing me to be in the future

thats me

Something To Say

Haha..

after all the celebration

here is the time to express my gratitude to everyone

Where should i start??

ok...

cincai lah

Yi Theng:

LOL....dun noe wat to say now...thx for the trip with me although u are so sick. and the gift..is the memories all of us together and erm.....i appreciate it very much... your short but sweet post is so touching....LOL....the first drop of tears is for u ad lah.....haha...thx really

Audrey:

LOL.....u r late...but nvm.....haha..u did the present on that day also...LOL...nvm lah...i shall keep it in heart bcz i cant carry it everywhere but i will keep it in heart and it shall follow me everywhere i went.Thx....

Yen Yee:

Hahaha...how??long time din shoot u ad wor....whats the feeling again??Thx...the gift really mean a lot...Thx and yeah....the message u sent...LOL...so many yoyoyo...

Wai Yen:

Erm....haha..thx for the message....will always happy and cheerful de...dun worry

Yee Teng:

A Tang, haha...i know u wanna wish me happy birthday...i know...thx really for the mms...really love ya

Sarah :

Love you loads also......Thx for the message girl. I really miss you...so long din meet u ad....

Li Min:

LOL....getting older??yeah....haha...thx for the message girl

Chen Li:

haha.....thx for the message. I will be happy as always de...Erm boyfriend ah...dun noe wor....not now gua....study 1st lah....hahaha

Zi Kang:

LOL...quite surprise.....but thanks...really much......for the wishes

Kah Jun:

Thx for the planning and everything...u really gave me a pretty memorable birthday that i will never forget....Thx....

Terence:

LOL.....Thx for your message 1st and yeah sorry lah for not replying...and thx though to be the driver........haha...i think u have ur memorable birthday as me also rite??

Esther:

Gosh, I really miss u......thx for being there...celebrate my 18th birthday.....glad that u r there.The speech is really something i wanted to say that day at that time....thats the exact feeling i wanted to express and feel like crying also

Ming Hui:

Ahaha...miss you really...thx for everything..love ur present.....

Sue Anne:

Haha...thx for the surprises......really love ur gift.....

Philip:

Long lost and lost contact i guess..so surprised to see u there.....thx....

Rui Yan:

Haha

LOL

thx

Kenny:

Erm...nothing much juz that

nice to meet you LOL

sound so formal

nvm lah

thx

Aimee and Charlotte:

Thx for the pictures......really nice to know u both and thx for being there and celebrate for me...Do not mind of not having a present.....thx....for everything...

Kien Chuen:

Long lost but nvm the 1st time seeing you again and there you are celebrating with me

haha.....contact later ba

Yin Xuan:

haha juz noe you like everyone else.....thx and yeah...thx

and everyone who wishes me in facebook

i replied everyone of you as i am really grateful to have all the wishes

and i will keep everything nice

and be happy always as usual as i am....

I really enjoyed my 18th birthday till the end of every moment

i shall treasured the whole event in my long term memory

and i know that i am still me who is always happy and laughing and smiling

Birthday Celebration (Part 2)

At night

went to look out point at ulu langat

to celebrate terence and my birthday

i cant even believe my own eyes

there are 14 of us

Dearest Look Out Point

Terence wearing....

the present

he certainly is loving this

Charlotte, Sue Anne, Yin Xuan, Me

Sue Anne, Yin Xuan, Me, Aimee

looking very brightly....smiling

Ming Hui, Esther, Me

long lost everyone

Ming Hui, Esther, me

happy together....

randomly....

after eating our own main dish

the 5 girls went to the toilet...

i din think of anything (as usual - the stupid one)

we were kidding about them dropping into the toilet bowl

or like camera fall into the water and nee to take it out

LOL

then suddenly everything went dark

with the disco light on

the song sounds like the one for people who are having anniversary here

then suddenly everyone there sang happy birthday song

the surprise

Sue Anne bringing the cake out

totally blank out

juz cant close my mouth shut

artistic picture by Esther....

shocked.........

Terence also shocked.....

both shocked...

wishing....

3 wishes....

as usual

the cake with the wind shield

sounds like experiment

The face of the cake

quite nice though

juz that we atke too long to blow out the candles

the candles melt ad

Anxious

seeing what Kah Jun is doing

Oh Oo!!!

Die man...

Haha

thanks that they are so kind to me....

see hows terence have to gone through this.

Tsk tsk tsk....

kesian

who call u biasa push ppl so hard lah

here come ur balasan.

see so many hands there

LOL

OUCH!!!!

the cake......

aiyo....

so painful
Hahaha...

cant stop laughing

like kitten like tat

Ewwww

Hahahahaha

I can describe which part is the eyes

which part is the nose

which part is the lips

OMG!!!!

disaster

so touching

thx Esther...

lending her shoulder...

OH God!! thats the cake that we ate...

With Sue Anne's birthday gift.

Sue Anne with her gift....

love ya always

The fight

OMG!!!!

Chilli sauce fight

See

The Chilli Sauce

that kenny hold

Still fighting

Laughing...like mad...

laugh lah...

again

balasan

Taking picture with Aimee

Screaming.... halfway through the photo shoot

almost kena cream by TERENCE LEE!!!!!!!

Again

Aimee, Me, Esther

See that

no??

Thats

Kenny, Kah Jun, Me, and Esther

Me, Charlotte, Sue Anne, Ming HUi, Yin Xuan

erm

do not bother by the guys at the back

Haha

enjoying ourselves and themselves

YEAH!!!!!
Group photo

First line from left to right: Kah Jun, Yin XUan, Sue Anne, Me, Kenny

Second line from left to right: Philip, Ming Hui, Esther, Aimee, Charlortte

Last line from left to right: Terence, Rui Yan and Kien Chuen

LOL

This is real classic

3 of us look at a different place

Me and Charlotte

Me with the twins....

Aimee and Charlotte

So nice to really meet and know them

Terence ...haiz....muka..like.....ada problem

Terence, Sue Anne, Me

Kien Chuen and Me

long lost primary schoolmate

OMG

just like a re-union

Philip and me

long lost also

tuition mate

haha

so many long lost here

gambateh!!

Ming Hui and me

my primary school class mate

long lost too

good luck gurlz

Haha

surprised atttack by Aimee

See....

I love this the most.......

haha

OMG!!!!!!!!
Guys...group picture

kesian kien chuen

The gurlz....

haha

Lastly......

The girls

with the

LAME KING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yeah

some night views too

pretty nice

really