Cry

I am so busy
Life is so so so so busy
I am really lack of motivation now
so what should i do
Continue
as usual??

DO I have a better choice?
I dun think so

Frustrated

I am here very frustrated
Homework is plenty here
I cant even really manage the time for work and study
I really have no time to breathe now
Stress is here
following me so closely

I am waiting
for the tears to drop
waiting for the flame burst into flame

Feel Different

Friday went to class as usual

so tiring

finished class at 12.30pm

stay and discussed the homework given by ms Chris in college till 3.30pm

but going back at 5 something

so i have free time

so thinking of going straight to KLCC

to get some freshness

i am with people who are rushing to work

who are rushing to school

everyone around me is rushing

maybe i should go somewhere where people is not rushing

but walking peacefully

so i decided to go there

i thought that no one will shop there with fast paced right?

yeah

and i am so hungry and thinking of having ramen

actually i dun feel like eating at all

but i haven had anything into the stomach since thursday nite

so it was kind of a disaster for my stomach

i am so sorry for it

went into putra lrt

the lrt went so so so slow

then it was struck at kampung baru

it really cant move at all

the driver was here

to drive the train manually

oh god

thats wat i think

and the train keep moving backwards

god

this is not gonna be good

thats wat my heart says

backwards and backwards

but luckily

haha

i reach there safely

and went straight to

SAKAE!!!!!!!!!!!!

my love store

miss their wasabi so so so much

had my favourite chuka idako

again

my god

this is such a reward for myself

after real hardwork

chicken teriyaki ramen

taste the same

oh god

this is real good

boring

need to went back ad

manage to walk into

Converse, Billabong, Reef, Roxy

i think thats all

how can

i am not really satisfy

Shit

Everything is in a row.....

I wanna breathe

I need to breathe

I need to cry

for real

if not

emo-ness

keep following me

and there will be no more 3 post per day

shall call someone to talk to now

Kena Tagged again!

1.被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2.請老實的回答每一個問題。
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。

＊＊＊＊---- 個 人 題 - 10 題 ----＊＊＊＊
01 你叫什么：Cherry
02 你的綽號：HuiChiTan, Tomato, Chilli, HuiChiChi........
03 你的血型：Dun noe
04 你的星座：Leo
05 你是男還是女?: LOL......go check my birth cerificate lah
06 你幾歲：This is the secret of every female lah..Opps....terbongkar liao
07 你住哪裡：House lah
08 你現在的學校 ：HELP
09 你有沒有手機 ：LOL...erm...who does not have??
10 承上，那是多少：LOL...??dun understand

＊＊＊＊---- 朋 友 題 - １０ 題 ----＊＊＊＊
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）: My Soul Mate lah
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：Erm.....secret lah weih
13 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）: Everyone has their own good and most beautiful part rite??
14 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）: Erm....no gua
15 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：心机重、自以为是、利用别人
16 什麼樣的男生你最討厭：说话不经过头脑，说了过后再道歉，自以为伟大
17 你的好朋友有誰（不限）: Soul Mate, Audrey, Yen Yee, Terence (counted gua) and some college frens
18 你經常和哪位朋友出去：Soul Mate la
19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）: Means??
20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）: Haha..me loh

＊＊＊＊----感 情 題 - １５ 題 -------＊＊＊＊
21 你有沒有喜歡的人: NO!
23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：顺其自然
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過: NO!
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：NO!
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋有: no!
27 你現在有另一半嗎: LoL...single is the best at the moment
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：Biasa liao lah
29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 ：Feelings is the most essential part..see how 1st
30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人: NO loh
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎：No
32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: No
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：Yes, plenty lah
34 是誰，你們什麼關係: Friend...lah
35 現在有人在追你嗎：Dunno..most probably not

＊＊＊＊---- 混 合 題 - １０ 題 ----＊＊＊＊
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：再见还是朋友吧！
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：看什么情况
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：哈哈！他自然有它的自由我也可以交新朋友的啊
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：在对的时候
40 你上課認真嗎 : 非常，可以问问我的朋友啊
41 你功課好不好: 过得去吧不过还不是很满意
42 你开电腦都在幹麻：Blog, Facebook, Reading.....
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: LOL..who got so much time to count
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：Haiz...wu liao meh

＊＊＊＊---- 兇 手 題 - 1 0 題 ----＊＊＊＊
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：Sin Yi and Christina
46 这個人對你好不好：当然很好啊！
47 這個人是你的誰：朋友
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎: 朋友自间当然有爱的啦
49 你們認識多久了：哈哈！半年吧！
50 這個人是怎樣的人：很好的人，很好的朋友
51 這個人正／帥嗎：当然！
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过: 不是常常可是还好
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办: 谁会不喜欢自己的朋友的

＊＊＊＊----- 聯 想 題 - １０ 題---＊＊＊＊
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：不知道
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：沈昌珉！
58 說到憨你會想到誰：mean??
59 說到痴你會想到誰：哈哈！
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：一个人
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：朋友啊！
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：哈哈！很多
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: Terence
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰 : Ron, Edwin, Sin yi.......
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Haha....me lah

＊＊＊＊----- 學 校 題 - 1 1 題 -----＊＊＊＊
66 你的班導是誰: Now college no form tcher wo...
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：Normally 1st row
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：Ms Selinar & Mr Alex
70 你的英文好嗎: Ok la.....
71 你的體育好嗎：NO
72 你的数学好么：Haha..no need to say de la
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：Dunno who...
74 你的學校好看嗎：OK lor...
75 你的班級是：No
76 你的班級在幾樓：Hell....underground

Tagged:

1. Yi Theng

2. Audrey

3. Yen Yee

4. Esther

5. Pui Yan

6.Pei Wen

7.Ming Hui

8.Who wanna do??

Birthday Wishes

To someone that is important

and is 18 today

old ad lah

My Best Friend - Audrey Leow

Give you some picture lah:

The owners who owns Chocolate

that scare me a lot

The 1st cake that she taught me to bake

the 1st cake of all of us ever

Thanks for lending us ur kitchen

And

taking these memorable picture for us

The one

I curi tulang with

during duty

The one

that we became prefect at the same time

The happiest time in PR

The craziest ever....

The most formal one

The memorable and our 1st and only

Prefect's Gathering

The class

that we are both in

The fun and laughters

in the class

being forced by teachers

The only 5 that stick together in school

The 4 prefects that are no longer prefects

The best friend that are by my side when the tough time is here

The style that represent her

Both of us

that rarely see each other

The one that will help me when i need help

The cute side of her as always

The 4 that love to take pictures in the bathroom using the mirror's effect

The one that

made the most precious birthday gift

for me

The forever birthday gift

Something to tell you:

Audrey, I think that is the brief memories that me and you both had. Both of us can be said as close and not close. A lot of things happened in all the years that we knew each other till now. Plenty of things that had happened either there are good or bad but there are all over now. Plenty of words in heart but do not know which and how to write it out and tell you. I really appreciate you as my friend. Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for appearing in my life. Thanks for a lot of things that are too much to be listed down here. Maybe for you I am just a normal friend. As you have many many friends out there that are even closer than me to you. But I really think I am grateful to have you as a Friend in my life. I will never forget every moment that we both had gone through together. Seems that your memories with me are not that much with others but I am glad and happy that I had those memories with me. I hope that we will be the real friend forever. Nothing to say much now. Sorry for the birthday gift that I cant give it to you and also a celebration. Last year's gift is the most memorable one. Maybe you want to take it out and view that again.

Happy Birthday !!!!

Love you always

Sincerely from your friend,

Hui Chi

Comment

Erm......

guys can u like juz leave comments in the cbox

juz to prevent that i ignore ur comment

actually

i do not check the comment as frequently as i check my cbox

and the comment words there is so

not that standing out

so i might just

mislook over it

haha

u know rite

human can be quite careless sometimes

so please

leave it at the cbox k??

thx

for all ur cooperation

i will appreciate it very much

Write

Now

I do realise that writing is something very easy to me

every flow through my head and my fingers so smoothly

that I do not feel the control

the words and the points keep flowing out like water

the speed of typing increases as the stream of words came

so naturally

it seems to me now that

i write like no ones business

and writing does not seems hard now anymore

i shall go do my study on micro and CTS

oh god

so many things to read and understand and memorise

haiz

limited memories

need to be upgraded

Sad

Sitting here alone
at the corridor
thinking of something that i think is totally not important at all
shall start do the whole writing thing soon
before everything spirit has gone
shut up and do ur work now
kind of excited to do the whole research paper thingy
wanted to do the best as usual
for some reason and purpose that i think is selfish
but nevermind
at least i had that fighting spirit burning slowly in my heart
as 1 of the soul fighter's fan
i shall always have the spirit in me always
always
and never end

Saw

Saw Something today

need to be explain

not to anyone

but to myself

Friendship is something that is very important in my whole life

I can leave anything for all my friends

I can even die for my own friends

I am a person that is very simple in the way that

I just hope that they are happy then I will be happy too

that is the easiest thing ever

I did everything for my own reason

whether is it a bad or a good reason

There will always be a reason behind everything that I did

thats me

Maybe leaving a group of friends seems

unreasonable to some people

but for me

if there is a need to leave

then it will be the best to leave

yeah

i agree that that group of friends did bring me lots of laughters

but does laughters really the same as hapiness??

Really

think about this question carefully

for me

it is a no

laughters does not really means hapiness

In life

the main aim is to find hapiness

but not laughters alone

without hapiness

in small conclusion

i laugh alot with them

doe not mean

i am really having fun and hapiness

with all of them

since there is no hapiness involve

then why should i be forced to laugh

at the right time with the wrong mood

and spoil the whole feeling at all

i am really glad that i leave

and found that there is really friends out there

that wanted me to laugh when i am really happy

and made me appreaciate them more

now

i seldom laugh

because i now know that laughter is actually very precious

and cant waste it for something that are not worth laughing for

but

i am happy in the sense that

i found myself again

the me with all the good spirit that never dies

that old me that came to HELP college at the very beginning

and be really open to everyone

glad about that

and i learned something too

if i did not went through something

i will not learn something important and

cant buy without money

that is

pick and choose your friend wisely

and do not lost yourself for your friends

just be the same old you

Procrastinate

I should not be doing that

i know that

then why am i still

doing this

Oh God

really hate myself for this

i think thats the reason

i hate to have holidays

i hate to be at home

i cant really do anything at home

not to say study

this is really not a very suitable place to say

haiz

nevermind

today shall be the last day of fun

and start to press the accelerator

ok

just hope that

it goes well

Lost

Haha

I am back at last

from unknown places

my fren did ask why did not see me update my blog

it really seems that

i did not update is something rare to be seen

hahahaha

Tired

Thinking of everything are on track and
i have not much time left to enjoy and relax
i feel so sad out of a sudden
tired and frustrated as assignments and quizzes are
just around the corner
and i really hope that i can master everything that i learnt
from week 1 till now
can stay in my head and do well for all these quizzes
so that i can aim higher this time

tired
and tired
so went to sleep yesterday night
early sleeping has becoming a habit now
i shall demolished this habit
and stay up at night to study harder
than everyoen else

needs good results?
work hard is the only and one key
nothing else

Morning

Met Kah Jun and Jian Hong at KFC

ok loh since my class start at 8

so i sit down and chit chat with them

LOL

very lazy to write out the whole detail

so skip to conclusion lah

Kah Jun is lamer and lamer

since i think it is bcz of terence's influence

but Jian Hong say

its because Kah Jun sendiri is lame ad de lah

cant blame

ok acceptable also

Yen Yee's name he also pronounced it wrong as "Yin Yee"

He say why Y. E. N is pronounced as yen??

not yin meh??

what ever..

Kah Jun u win lah

monday is ur HOLIDAY!!!

Train Sucks

Today i do not know what had happened to the stupid LRT

went to tasik selatan as usual at 6 something

then waiting there

eh, y so long got no train?

suppose to have train at this time

nevermind

then the train comes

i was so shocked when the train is fulled of people

not packed but seats are all occupied

because normally at that time seats are plenty

Ok ok

i tell myself that nevermind lah

the amount of people in 2 train in 1 train is ok lah..can breathe

then

deng deng deng deng

"Minta Maaf, train ini hanya sampai Chan Sow Lin sahaja, penumpang yang ke laluan Kuala Lumpur sila ke platform 1a dan penumpang ke laluan Ampang sila dapatkan train di platform tengah"

WTF!!!!!!!!

ok i went down at Chan Sow LIn

mouth opened again

WTF!!!!!!!!!!

so many people

now i know wat happen

there are also amount of 2 train punya people from ampang line there waiting

then luckily the train come

and the amount of 4 train punya people squeeze in loh

and the train did not even on the air-conditioner...haiz fine

deng deng deng deng

again??

"Minta Maaf, train in hanya ke station Bandaraya, penumpang yang ingin ke station Sultan Ismail, PWTC and station berikutnya, sila menaiki bas di bawah station Bandaraya"

LOL

what are all these horses doing???

cincai lah

i heard some of the students was saying that

they were all late to school just because of all these stupid things

they waited at Chan Sow Lin from dun noe wat time till 8 something!!!

LOL

if me

i will surely killl them weih~~

for real

lousy system lah..

try lah to improve better

if u do not have such a big head

don't lah wear such a big hat

give lah other people who is more capable to incharge

往事

回顾了这页

让我觉得很无奈吧！

这个让我伤心欲绝的地方

又有了更多让我痛心的事

我始终还是
会离开的

有时离开是件好事
当我离开
的那一刻
就当我从来没有出现吧
没有出现在你们的生活

如果没有我的存在
世界应该会更美好吧

人人都会开心吧
没有人会想我吧

这样也好
我也可以从新开始

新的开始
好的开始

这些是我曾经写过的

现在翻看回来

我还是会这么做

不舍得东西可多着呢

可是让我的心碎了再碎的事

可多着呢

回忆

可以很无奈

也可以很回味

想起往事

可是让我欢乐了不少

至少我知道

我曾经欢乐过

曾经伤心过

曾经哭过

曾经笑过

乱了

心乱了

可是在时间的洗礼下

我开始学会了满满的把它整理好

摇摇头

把泪水挥掉

抬起头

继续走

Past

Reviewed this

i really want to make some assumption here

did my heart qualified to be out of ICU??

did someone catch me??

did my heart not ache anymore

did someone really be by myside and soothe my pain??

look at all these questions??

i myself cant even answer that accurately

everything had changed

my heart

my mind

my soul

everything

time had also changed

The 1st post

Watching the white cabbage (Samuel)

struggle to write his 1st post for his entire life

and also for his human comm's assignment

I really wonder what is his feelings??

and what is mine when i was writing my 1st post on my 1st blog

what is my aim at that time??

what was i thinking at that time??

how and why everything had happened that made me wanted my own blog

i deleted my own first blog and i remembered that it consists of all those

unfavorable memories of mine

that i do not really want to keep track of it

if i did not deleted that blog i would probably have nearly 1000 post by now

the blog was started in form3

i guess

if i am not mistaken

or form2

the past and i threw it away

and now

i have nothing to review back

3 post

wanna post 3 post a day to reach the target

what to do have to do it this way

Book Review - 7

The Time Traveler's Wife

Audrey Niffenegger

Synopsis & Opinions:

The whole story is about two human. One male and one female. The male is named as Henry while the female is named as Clare. This story is mainly about Henry who can time travel to either the past or the future but mostly he went back to the past. They are both married couple and their love story is extraordinary than any other couple. Clare since she was six had knew who she will married and she knows everything about Henry since then. It was something amazing that you can meet your soul mate and know him inside out at the age of six. I can also say that Henry was in Clare's childhood memories and he almost with her and by her side the whole way before they were met in the future. But there is also some disadvantages for the Clare that is at around age 30+ because Henry keep time travel back to her childhood and left her alone in the house worried but she did not actually mind because that was also her best memories ever. Something sad happen in the last part. I hate that ending and it was so hurtful for Clare and their daughter Alba. This is one of the most fascinating stories that I had ever read and maybe you should try reading it also. I kind of envied Clare as she gets to know her other half quite early and have the love story started from small till the point of forever.

Today

Just a normal day as usual

Nothing stir in my heart

everything can be represent as the calmest sea ever in my heart

Maybe i did not pay attention to my heart

and paying more attention to my body health

haiz

do not want to talk about that even

i hate to eat food without taste

or you can say i cant even taste anything at all

plus i can only eat limited food - that is only porridge

haiz

life is miserable with 3 meals for porridge

Can you imagine you walk into mc donalds

but you can only order their chicken porridge and nothing else

LOL

and there is something you cant imagine also

there is no where else that sells porridge except mc donalds

swt!!

nevermind

nevermind

i will recover soon

how soon?

coming soon

finish my critical thinking notes for chapter 2

feel proud of myself

but

our lecturer walks into chapter 3

so

have to start and without any place or time to relax

and take a deep breathe

stressful life made me almost walk into insanity

shall write some equation today

Tension 1 = Orang Gilar

Feel

I now feel the super sickness here

I am totally useless when i encounter the god of sickness

I am dead

When all the people are sick then i am not

When people are no longer sick then i am now sick

what an odd person

thats what jill said to me today

so sad

sick alone here

Hard to even concentrate in class

keep having severe migraine

almost knock my head on the wall

just to get rid of the pain

i cannot even breathe properly

like normal people does

maybe i do breathe normally just that i felt different thats all

Hate to be sick

sick made me feels and actually becoming dumb

how can i forget where did i chuck my calculus text book

LOL

luckily it is safely in the locker

but i cant do my homework today

sadly i came back home

have a cup of nice tea

suddenly

i feel like my whole body craved for starbucks - Green Tea Latte

Oh god

i want it now

now

now

so desperately wanted it

Headache

Again I am here to write down the whole feeling of being sick

Can't do everything well as i usually does

although this is bad enough

but i am still quite impressed that

i can still finished up the whole basket of calculus homework

in this bad condition of mine

take care

is the word that i always said to others

and now i am getting it back again

such impresive

don't u think so?

Health is really something that really matters to me now

more than any other things in the world

I really hate to be sick but what to do

i am only human

not any super heroes

that can be strong all the time

I am made of flesh and blood

and not metals and screws

so i also have some limitations

that my body need to be following

I can't really think clearly at the moment

I can't really speak clearly now

I can't really breathe and taste food well

Oh God

I hate this moment very much

What to do now?

go sleep again??

I spend most of my time sleeping today

I am tired of sleeping now

Being sick is so tiring and this will kill me eventually

Frustration

Reading all the blog post of everyone, I have different thoughts while reading and different emotions stiring in the bottom of my heart. All these thoughts and feelings are kept inside the heart and do not know how to get rid of it. I think it is weird to have feelings and thoughts while reading people's daily life or feelings written in words. All these is normal for me that this phenomena will happen everyday as i view all the blogs and try to learn something from them or either know what are my friends doing.

Now, i think i lost my purpose on blogging again. I really need to dig that out again so that there is an aim to write and not just blindly writing nonsense.

Sick

OMG!!!!

I am now sick

can say so

Having headache

Having body ache

Having flu

Having fever also (i think lah)

so damn sad

having all these symptoms made me insane

i am thinking of studying on the saturday

but the blood is pumping into my head too much

so i give up and just rest for the whole day

after sleeping and self-healing

i really felt better

and now just left coughing

that is the worst

almost cough the whole heart out

Writing

I myself also can't really figure out

why am i writing

lesser and lesser

this is such and disgrace to me

is it that i am lack of vocabulary to write?

is it that i am so lack of confidence to even write a long passage now?

unknown is the perfect answer to all these questions

Nothing

really nothing to talk about now

so boring at home

although a whole tons of homework here waiting for me to settle

but really do not feel like doing it now

URGH!

feel so lazy today

feel like relaxing today

and doing nothing

LOL
why i have nothing to say about??

Sensitive

Maybe i am the one who is sensitive

but nevermind

i shall wait till the two great critical thinker examine 1st

and then tell me their opinions

But i do think sometimes

i am really over sensitive

but nevermind

i can have the chance to say what i want

and that is more than enough

i am glad enough to do that

low cost wat

low cost with high gain

i speak something but i get more pleasure than i ever imagine

爱

爱真的来得那么简单吗？

在一起就了就是爱吗？

当他对你好时

你曾经看不到

可是现在看到的时候是什么感觉

真的是爱吗？

还是自己渴望爱情也渴望被爱

就在这个时候他那么的刚巧他就在身边呢？

真的是爱吗？

还是看着他那么默默的付出

觉得对他非常的不公平

觉得对他很愧疚呢？

真的是爱吗？

他真的是你想要的那个人吗？

还是你想有一个可以依靠的肩膀？

爱情真的好复杂

女人心海底针

不要说男人有时候女人也不会明白女人

你说可悲吗？

at 4.27am

I am here...

writing my blog

LOL

so cham

today woke up at 3am

haha

as if this is new

yeah

this is kind of new

i am so tired

shall go back to sleep

and wake up at 5 again

not much time of sleep

but at least i get some sleep right?

yeah

then i shall sleep again

good night

and yeah

good morning

感想

今天回到了

我们大家第一次的地方

怀念吗？

是有一点吧！

可是只是感叹人去楼空

眼前情景不一样了

缅怀是对的事情吗？

好像不是

走过了这一切

人长大了吗？

是吧！

有一点

可是人总是回想东西还是以前的好啊

是那样的吗？

不知道

应该要等到以后才知道吧

身边的欢笑回来了

真的知道原来笑是那么的容易

一切不再困难了

世界再也不难了

我回来了

一点一点的回来了

信心方面还是有点欠缺

可是真的原来不认识的也会帮你加油打气

在你认真的踏出第一部的时候

那种认真别人是看得到的

那们也会为你鼓掌

慢慢我应该就会真正的回来了

Relationship

Thinking about alot of this today

talk and talk and talk non-stop for 2 hours

seems to be not an serious issues

but all of us do not even know

what had linked us together

and what had just made us face the same problems

maybe

the relationship between human and human is such a tough subject to learn in life

and i also realise that

happiness comes so easy by just talking crap and laughing

all the way without caring the image in public or not

thats is the real happiness

such easy

and i really appreciate that

i can laugh now

at last

really so glad

and i really had a wonderful time

If I did not went out with them today, I would have regretted for the whole day

haha..practicing using conditional

haiz

tommorow pop quiz..

i guess that the right term to use

Colour

Why someone love this colour?

why people link colours with emotions??

was that true and why???

colour is just merely colour isn't it???

just thinking of what the lecturer discussed during the lesson

just interesting huh??

314??

I does not even realise i am here

my target

is it my target??

oh no

my target is to reach 1000 post by end of this year...

that means i have around 3 months plus

good

i do not even know can i reach that figure

but i will try

now is ad 314 post without counting this

nevermind

everything will be the same as i imagine

and will be same as i plan

do not always worry

hehe^^

laugh is the better medicine than.......

unknown

Loss Appetite

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!

how can this happen

but its normal

i guess

happens many times before

i am not that surprised

just that i came so early

not even in the middle of semester

but the starting of the semester

oh god

this is bad

can i consider it that way

good

Cut my hair again

Thanks to Mr Joel

that he cancel the calculus class

so i have the opportunity to go and have my hair cut again after 5 months

just cutting the fringe and have my hair layered

haiz

my hair

seeing all the coloured hair being cut away

so hurt

new image

can study better now

can take care of it better

smile

but still very sad

of the hair

being cut off

sob sob

haha

long time ad

din take pic

syoknya

haha

one more

enough lah

waiting for my dad to pick me up

Headache

Having bad headache now

do not know really what happened

really that bad

that i want to knock my head on the wall

After having calculus class

i am really having bad headache

i am so tired of everything now

just feel like sleeping and silence totally

without any sound that can made the headache go worse

feeling even tired of all the classes at the moment

but need to go on as usual

i will move when the headache is gone so that

i can study better

in the sense that

i can concentrate and maek that information

go into my head and stay there

not just pass by

but stay for a long time

all subjects are still very new to me

and need more work and time to understand and major it

had a bad timetable

thats the thing that everyone admit

it is really bad

and i think the worst timetable that i had ever had

since i started studying

what can i do now?

just bare with it

for say it is only around 3 months time

Tomorrow

Is a brand new day again

but i am going back to the centre of psychology again

to have my treatment

i guess thats the right word for me

yeah

i did not even think that i will need that

but there is sometimes i need people to talk to also

just to get rid of all the feelings that bother me too much

i also never thought that i will need treatment as i call

just because of all that had happened

wow

thats what i think

normally i can cure my own self

but maybe i am too tired to even cure myself

and cant let everything go on as the way it is

so that is the decision i made

i have to stick with that

so that i am normal again

i do feel better after saying everything out

and there is really no one there going to jugde you

as they themselves also do not know me

thats what feeling better is all about

crying and talking

feeling better

that is what i need

at the moment

after semester 2 started

and everything seems to be back to normal

and i have to re-arrange my mood

again

Tension

Tension is back

why am i here agin

shouldn't i be at the desk reading

I dun care now

i just want to release it here and now

why i had become tension again

haiz

when it is tension here

i never sees mr murugan again

he will know the right things to say

that made me feel

well enough to move on

to laugh about everything

and certainly the mood will be enlighten again

miss him so much

miss the time

but its the past again

that i miss

feel so different now

and so difficult

to even be existed in the world

to even accept something

that who knows that will be

principle is what i kept

and will always kept

things change

and i change too

in order to survive

in this world that fulll of competition

and if u fail to adapt

u fail to live in this environment

Tagged again!

1)大名: Cherry
2)生日: 22/08
3)谁传给你的: Jill
4)生日想拿到什么礼:没有那个必要啦！只是祝福就可以了

5)最近压力大的事: 开学了，很多科目很新谈心不可以应付
6)想做的事: 去唱K
7)有没有喜欢的人:暂时没有
8)跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: 朋友
9)如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: 好朋友就会说对不起啦！

10)最想和别人去那里: 书店
11)圣诞节想做什么: 看雪
12)最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: 好朋友
13)最近在做什么: 上课、烦恼
14)有几个兄弟姐妹: 1弟弟，1妹妹
15)最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: 是歌就可以了
16)喜欢什么颜色: 蓝色
17)上厕所会不会冲水: 当然会啦！卫生起见吗

18)喜欢男还是女生: 男生
19)最想大大声说什么: 啊，好烦哪！

20)半夜敢不敢上厕所: 为什么不敢？
21)你现在最恨谁: 没有人
22)现在喜欢做什么: 看书和以前一样
23)睡相好不好看: 应该不好吧！
24)现在的时间: 11.12早上
25)是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: 不会啊!

26)体重多少: 那可是每个女人的秘密！
27)今天天气: 很好
28)如果忙完了你最想做什么: 去喝杯咖啡，看看书
29)失眠后会怎样: 读书咯，不然浪费时间吗?
30)你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: 不会啦！都几岁了
31)你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: 不会
32)你有没有吃过夜宵: 有啊！不是常常
33)近期开心的事: 开学了，没那么无聊
34)自由对你来说重要吗: 当然！无可否认
35)你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: 哈哈！！不知道。
36)你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: 应该是两者都有吧！
37)你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: 都还好
38)你现在最想看到谁: 沈昌珉！
39)你爱看戏吗: 非常
40)你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你吗: 当然敢，为什么不呢？

++附加问题++
你打算几时结婚啊: 不知道吧！顺其自然
你喜欢你的生活吗: 还好啦！
相信塔罗牌吗: 信吧！
睡觉前所做的事情: 上厕所
你的偶像: 东方神起
你喜欢的季节: 春夏秋冬都喜欢
最想去的地方: 英国
最讨厌怎样的性格的人: 虚伪，心机重，不靠自己靠别人，等等
你会抽烟吗: 不会！
你会喝酒吗: 会，佳节时间

你常哭吗: 常常啊！哭可是我的朋友
你常笑吗: 是啊！非常常笑啊!
想睡到几点: 自然醒最好吧！

朋友和情人你会选谁: 不知道因为还没遇到这问题
机会+命运你会选谁: 机会
你很自恋吗: 哈哈！好问题！有吧！
你有穿耳洞吗: 有啊

这问卷多不多: 还好啦！答过更多的
喜欢吃冰吗: 喜欢啊！

现在幸福吗: 还好吧！可能明天会更幸福，谁知道啊？
房间里最重要的东西是什么: 书
没有朋友你会怎么做: 找朋友啊！
如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: 天天幸福快乐，就那么简单

这个问题废吗: 还好

喜欢那个水果: 很多。太多了
最怕人家问你什么: 你现在怎么了
喜欢下雪吗: 当然

下辈子要做什么: 做人
希望再被tag吗: 还好，希望做些比较有意义的
没事做你喜欢等人吗: 还可以

好像还要答一下这些问题哦哦！
1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的:: Jill
2. 你们认识多久呢:: 3个月吧
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗:: 每个人都是重要的
4. 你与他(她)的关系是::朋友
5. 你觉得他(她)的个性如何::很好啊
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是:: 不知道
7. 他(她)在你心目中是几分:: 哈？要给分吗？不要啦

1 。被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
2 。请老实回答每一问题
3 。不能擅自涂改题目
4 。写完请点10 位小朋友，不可以不点
5 。完后请通知那10 位小朋友被点到的小朋友

who wanna do it just feel free to do it

haha

i very cincai de

Complicated

Why suddenly everything become so complicated?

why cant everything be simplify

just like mathematics equation

but life isn't that simply for everyone

is it the test that we should all face

and solve it just to move another step forward?

if not does it mean that we just stand on the ground and

does not improve or moving on?

and the time is just ticking away?

does everything work this way?

how come?

how come?

why there is always so many question behind

everything?

simplify it

thats what i shall do

Useless

feeling so useless today

do not know how

and why

but haiz

nevermind

tats the word again

appear again

nevermind

i

haiz

watever

dun care

duncare

lost the hapiness

but found the other

Water

I feel so dehydrated now

after coming back from college

is really having super migrane

as i really lack of water there

and the classes are all so close

it is really back to back and there is like almost no time for water

i think really need to relocate time to drink water leh

using brain too much without letting it refresh will really made the whole brain lack

so H2O is the most important elements now

i shall drink it

as it is

as it is the low cost wat

Semester 2

I was so exhausted today

although today was there for the one and only class

reach there at the same exact time as usual

but kena say by people that i am crazy or insane

but nevermind

thats me

Feeling quite fed up

during micro class

maybe it is new to me as i am really a pure science students

so i need more time to absorb and understand all of these

i really need more work

i also do not know why i feel that way

just that i do not want to get the disappointment again and again

so

study and study

read and read

this semester is really a killer

no wonder everyone is saying this is the toughest sem ever

but i shall kill him before he kills me

thats the only way to succeed

i really must do that so that it will be worth the money paid

if not it will really be sunk cost ad

People

semester 2 here i comes

hard work and hard work

Hard Work

I think i really need some help and more hard work in this semester

all the subjects are really new to me

and guidance is a must and thats what cross my mind now

I do not think pleasure now for me is a big deal anymore

I really want to do this semester with all my best

oh no

not all my best

is that i need to do even more than the best of mine

i need to increase the hardwork and the ability of the best in this semester

i really do not care what price i need to pay after this semester

but i need all the energy and focus now

sickness is totally a no now

for the whole semester

no way i am gonna be sick

i will force myself towards the excellent stage

lots of people can do it

why cant i??

without any reasons and excuses this time

i will never let myself to be out of track now

i think i shall have someone to remind me if i am out of track

relax seems impossible now

all the subjects now need full and total concentration

and i really need to start everything fast and need

before i even have the time to regret if anything goes wrong

i need more reading time than sleeping time now

reading and doing notes now will be the first priority

understanding and full concentration with the help of preparation will really help right?

Yes!

I must have high self-esteem

I shall never let it low even

Now

Everything is starting

be prepared

and fight for pride and results

For Future

Keep that in mind

For the whole semester

do everything with more than best

thats the new short term motto

Exhausted

Today having 4 classes in a row...such tiring day.......

loss some confident in calculus

haiz

nvm

shall be better gua

econs too

kind of bad i think

thats only my 1st opinion

but nvm

where is me?

i will never give up so fast de

HMPH!!!!!!!!

I shall never give up

except after i concur the subject 1st

I WILL DE!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

体会

今天有了新的一种体会

看着这一切原本那么熟悉

可是现在却又非常的陌生

一切原本是我可以拥有的

可是现在却与我擦肩而过

看着曾经熟悉的陌生

心中真得很感叹时间的洗礼

看着非常热闹的走廊

却这样扬长而去

心应该会有些不甘吧？

可是只是惋惜

眼前的情景

已经改变了

人也不是当初的那一个

心也不是当初的那一颗

可是

没有了当初的快乐

没有了当初的欢乐

没有了当初的欢笑

没有了当初的纯真

没有了当初的真诚

没有了当初的那份理解

没有了这些看似小小的东西可是

积少成多

却变成了一个无底的大坑

让我们慢慢的沦陷

可是

梦醒了

我笑着回头看这些

本来是属于我拥有的这一切

却觉得

有时候周公对我蛮好的

因为他

在对的时间把我叫醒了

把我从对的地方带回来

让迷路的我

回到真正的道路

回到真正我该走的道路

第一次

不再感觉可惜

不再因为他们的存在而难以呼吸

不再因为他们而伤心流泪

不再为了他们的事而烦恼

不再为了他们的对白和眼神中感到无奈

不再为了他们而感到我真的不该存在

不再为了他们而感到孤独

不再为了他们我无言以对

不再为了他们迷失了自己

不再为了他们的一切放弃自己的感受

我做到了！

包袱放开了！

笑了

真的会笑了

真的会会心一笑了！

真的会开开心心的笑了！

真的会无忧无虑的笑了！

真的会让自己也讶异的灿烂的笑了！

我真的回来了！

从新再次的找到目标

从新再次的找到奋斗的精神和力量

不会当作他们从来没有出现过

反而只会当作历史在身边

时时刻刻地提醒

什么是应该

什么是不应该

那就够了

无关紧要的人、事、物

都还是一样的恢复原状

醒来真好

天空依然美好

世界还是那么的阔、大

人生真的还有很常的路要走

要加油！！

Ahhhh

Why am i lack of words these days

my post is getting shorter and shorter

is that a good thing

or is it that i am totally lack of vocab again

haiz

so how

i am so scared that

i will have a post with one word

or better still one line

haiz

that i will never fogive myself

for doing that

what will be the punishment

write more

cant

so how?

think before writing

thats impossible

i write with my own freewill

how can i do that

help

help

help

is that why

i am in HELP college??

LOL

speechless

total crap now

due to highly tension + stress

First Day

Exhasuted

thats the only word that i can able to find to express my feelings

hectic

totally disaster

tired

stressful

and what more

hardwork

travel

thinking

free time?

The beginning

Tommorow will be the new beginning

the new page of everything

and i am here anticipate it

feeling my heart beats as it also anxious about the coming of the new day

i hope i will never be disappointed again

lots and lots of things needed to be done

and needed to be done till the best with all my effort and sweats and tears

Sweetness of something does not really come from no where

and i understand that

the taste of sweats and tears

the taste of hapiness and sadness

the taste of frustration and excited-ness

the taste of emo and the moment of gratitude

i will taste them all again

in the new pages

i can say that it will be a new sub title

of the book named

"My Life"

Tommorow will be better than yesterday

I must have faith in myself

I can really made till the top of the world

the tip

and be the tip top

and scan through all the small small details that had happened

as part and parcel of life

as words or paragraph in the book

Boredom

Today will be the last day of boredom at home

i shall enjoy the boredom

and be prepared to face all the days without boredom

but with stress and high expectation

all together

and work hard

is the only key

and what to say

we cant succeed without that key

so everyone

stand up

and work hard

and

i shall work hard twice or trice than others

since my standard is still very de low

so how

work hard

i bet on it with my life

WHy?

SOmetimes

things past and people thinks about it

just like i do too

but now at the moment

i feel that there is no need to think about something

that is totally a past

and really do not hope that people

mention about it again

just everything from now on is different

i am different

everything is different

but the world is still the same