回顾

常常我都会回想
想着想着也会觉得自己真得很笨
明明有很多的教训
为什么还是那么笨
对每一个朋友都那么信任
对每一个朋友都那么全心全意
对每一个朋友都是付出一百分
可是到最后受伤的还是自己

眼泪真的好多
多得自己也有点讨厌了
可是它就是一滴一滴替自己的主人表现了它主人的心情
它的工作从来就没有间断过

短短的几个月
就让我觉得好像
看到了夏天的落叶带有春天的雪

为什么自己那么的放不开
为什么发生了那么多的事情自己还是那么的放不开
明明早就应该放开
可是。。。。
可能是因为自己心中觉得
朋友比什么都重要
自己怎么想也不会想到有这样的事情会发生
不能接受吧
为什么还要在乎？

我真的觉得这班朋友让我有了很多的第一次
第一次不会忘记一个人所说的一番话
第一次忍到瓶子满满了还在忍
第一次被这么多人误会
第一次听到一个人的声音会哭
第一次长这么大后悔自己的决定
第一次一个人为了一些人做了很多东西
第一次尝试笑着面对
第一次心中很伤心可是却笑了
第一次尝试到眼泪是那么苦涩与温热
第一吃尝试到想要消失的冲动
第一次不想面对每一个人
第一次不想说话
第一次怕为了让别人再次误会把一切都忍了下来
第一次想把手机丢向大海
第一次不想被人发现自己的所在处
第一次发现风吹乱了发丝却也可以把我的心吹乱
第一次发现自己可以听着自己的心跳哭
第一次发现自己迷路了
第一次发现自己的没用
第一次发现有时候世界是不公平的
第一次发现自己离快乐和开心好遥远
第一次发现自己竟然不会笑了

太多的第一次
让我觉得
好无奈

对啊
我是在逃避
可是除了逃避我还能做什么？
难道是面对吗？
难道真的是面对吗？
如果让我选择面对或逃避
我还是会选择逃避
我怕我自己控制不了自己
伤害了别人

好笨啊！
还在为别人想
那么自己呢？
理智的头脑一直不断地在提醒
可是为什么我还是为了这个原因放弃面对
你可是说这是借口吧

可是我自己很了解自己
我说的每一句话
我做的每一决定
我做的每一个举动
都有自己的理由
我现在真的不管你赞同或否
因为我不想再把自己变得那么伟大
为了别人不为自己想想
是很笨的举动

现在的我
真得很脆弱
好像真的需要时间慢慢的疗伤

我真的不会在原谅那些伤害我然后第二天摸摸我的头说对不起的人
因为那样自我不但不会觉得好过
而且我只会觉得更加难过罢了
那个举动只会把伤口插得更深而已

可能离开你们每一个人
会对大家都好一些吧
让我一个人离开
可能天空会比较蓝呢
可能海水会比较清澈

可能决定离开就没有必要再回来
可能离开后大家都好过那又何必回来呢？
曾经拥有的时间真的好短暂
可是曾经拥有比没有来得更好

是吧？
我就来尝试一下吧
虽然心里很矛盾
可是应该有了一定的决定了
就准备慢慢的放开吧
让大家都自由

可以的
没有我的存在会好一点吧？
我真的是那样希望的

为什么坏人不继续走下去呢
这应该是坏人做了最后的坏事

不要再说没有人对或错
因为大家都没有想到在自己把那句话讲出来的时候
心中已经有了谁对谁错
只是没有发现而已
这可是自然现象
也不能怪谁

算了吧
再多的泪
再多的血
再多的对不起
再多的谢谢
再多的问候
再多的劝解
再多的游说
也已经没有用了

当有些东西在那一刻做错了
就算以后再怎么补救也已经太迟了
就像感情在过了有效期限后
再多的挽回也是于事无补

人生如戏
戏如人生
反反复复
毫无意义
刻骨铭心
心力交瘁
呕心沥血
唉声叹气
值得回忆
只是过去

Saw

I saw something diff today
something i cant explain but
brings lots and lots of stuff to me
suddenly understand much about things
i made some decisions
and i keep some decisions
i learn something new today
with the alone group at mcd
i learn alot
and get alot
juz by looking at ppl there

Confuse

My mind is full of things and stuff
and i cant get rid of it
thanks people for giving me tat
i dun quite sure wat to even say to all of u
i juz mean to be alone for all the moment
i will or will not comeback
i think most probably no
wif tis protective self of mine
i think u all can function well juz without
the presence of me
and there will be people that r capable to
replace me
and care about the hapiness of u all
and solve problems for u guyz
treasure who the people is /are
he will stay longer than me
thats for sure
mayb he/she will stay forever

Shut Up

I dun wan to have to explain all of the things
i dun even quite care u understand or not
i do understand myself that i did something for some reasons
some VALID REASONS
that i dun care u think is valid or not

i dun wan to argue
i dun wan to explain
i am darn tired of doing all of these

get to know something
unbelievable that she can knows wat i try to say
with juz an flick of an eye

Sorry

Thats what i can say
at the moment
sorry for everything

雨

今天天空下了一场雨
冷冷的一天
吹起了好大好大的风
冷冷的风吹在身上却发现我竟然会觉得冷
多奇妙的一件事
我常常觉得风是很舒服的
常常在大热天为人们带来一阵凉意
可是我现在才了解原来风也可以犹如我的心那么的冷
让自己不仅一震
好不可思议的东西
让我想了又想
很多的东西真的非常不可思议

豆大的雨点
一滴一滴的打在地上
我才发现原来很多的东西是一点一滴慢慢形成的
就犹如湿了的地上
是需要很多的雨滴慢慢的把地上染湿的
一滴一滴
毫不起眼的雨滴
慢慢的将地上染湿了
事情也是一样的
暴风雨的到来以前
都是发生了很多事
可是却看起来风平浪静
让人安心的可怕
原来风雨的到来前夕都是安详的

风吹啊吹~~
可是再怎么吹也吹不走我心中的一切烦恼
心是怎样想的
自己竟然也不知道
可笑
非常的可笑
只知道心中有一个大石怎么搬也搬不走
心中的瓶子真的满了
还可以撑多久呢？
问号还是问号
撑多久重要吗？
忘记重要吗？
解决重要吗？
面对重要吗？
自己重要吗？
别人重要吗？
这一切好像都不重要了。

面对

某些时候让我回顾了这些日子发生的一切
发现很多的东西来得很快
去的也很快
人与人之间发生了微妙的改变
在这些事情发生后
我发现对每一个人都有了不同的看法
对着每一个人我的心就必须做出不同的调整来面对不同的人

好累
真的好累
心已经好累
我不想对着不同的人
我的心就要做出不同的调整

是啊
我是希望每一个人都能开心的笑
我从来就不在乎我开不开心
最重要的的就是他们可以开心
可是你又知不知道
在这些事情后的嘻嘻哈哈
都是多大的努力吗？

我真的不想再面对你们
每一个人
累了
让我消失一下好吗？
把那将来的两个星期假期让我消失好吗？
让我不用面对你们每一个人好吗？
每一天面对你们的心情都好重
可是还是要笑

我不想
真的不想
再面对你们

在把这些文字
一字一句的打完
我还是呆呆的望着荧幕
看来心早就已经下决定
冷冷的心
灰冷的心
原来早就在身边了

Today

juz feel like blogging tats all
juz feel like typing non-stop
but the feeling cant be get rid
oh god
so how
juz feel like typing and typing
and try my best to get rid the feeling
dun noe wat it is
but mayb i m in depression
how u know
i myself also dun noe
but i do think so lah
as today's symptoms
based on it lah
i think
i have
i have
not severe
but i have
god

People

is very hard
even my own self
i cant even understand well
something tat i did
something tat i really have done
something tat i cant really understand why
something unbelievable
i dun noe
but its true i did it
lol
so true

Happy.....Sad

I really feel so happy at tat moment
i really hope tat it doesn't stop there
and i really now feel so sad
so wtf
such emotional nowadays...
college is something i dun quite wanna face
i know its a must to go
but mayb there is lots and lots of things happen there
and i dun quite really enjoy walking there and
have everything replay again and again everyday
its such a nightmare
and now going college is juz a responsibility
and thats all
so its so hard for me to think
that its time to go college tmr
and yeah
i have to do so
and
relationships have changed
and i am so amazed by all these "natural phenomenon"
so hard to endure
but i will do it
and i really hope that there is nothing more
that going to happen
as i really cant take it anymore
my heart is overload now
feeling harder and harder to breathe
and i understand that everyday is everyday
and
every minute will be itself

Brainless

Having all these today
is totally so fun and so relax
thx theng for accompany me
and i really did have a nice time today
and everything is so comfortable
and everything is so nice
feel so enjoy for the 1st time in this whole month
totally without stress
and juz chit chat and laugh as freely as usual
as the old me again
do not feel any bad moment at all

Flow

Nowadays, i cant control myself
it feels like i have lost control on myself
so weird
so weird
so damn weird
i do not know wat had happened
but the feeling is so heavy
that i can juz release it out by crying
i love to do this nowadays
crying in front of the screen
when i saw something that can warm my heart
when i heard something that can touch my heart
when i read something that can tickles my heart
everything seems to be so touching nowadays
even small things can make me cry
maybe is just the hormones that made me feel these way
but i realise that i haven feel these way for a long time
mayb that really something i had hope in deep under my heart
and thats y i had named my blog link as
deep under the heart and even deeper
bcz heart is unreachable
and its same as the earth
u cant dig until the earth crust
so do the heart
the surface u cant even reach how can u reach the deep heart of mine
do not ever say u understand me well enough and make conclusion about it
think about it
i know i am weak inside
it doesn't mean that i am totally weak
at sometimes
i can be as tough as u never imagine

Heart is always my best friend here
at least
he tell me what he feel
without hide anything from me

Lifeless day

Totally
lifeless today.........
haiz......
thinking of something
and it is really something
really hope so that
he can be here with me
so its ok
everything will be fine
but he is too busy ad
he cant even have enough time for himself
where and how can he be by my side??
stop dreaming ad
stop
stop
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Confuse

I feel so confused today...
quite and very.....
confuse
and at last
i m still confuse

At LAst

Finally everything settled
with all the sweats, tears, and blood
everything is done
glad of that

Uncertain

I am so unsure
what had happened??
i can juz control my tears
it flows on its own
i juz dun feel good
thats all
and i cant stop crying in front of the screen
and the tears keep flowing and flowing
i know it seems to be so weak
that i cant even control my own tears
i m getting more and more emotional these days
juz dun know y
juz feel like crying
then cry

i also do not wan to do tat
but the feeling of heart keep getting heavier and heavier
i juz cant bear with that
everything is getting tougher and tougher
i cant even breathe properly now

i know tis is not a good situation
but everything i juz have to throw on my shoulder and keep going on
until the stuff is settled

people
i can do it
no
i must do it
yeah
its a must now

althought
do till blood coming out i will still do it

Breathe

Half of it can be let go but
there is still a lot to hold on to
and the whole week is full of challenges and
the ability to work with full tensed up environment and
totally not fun at all
and my heart mind and soul are
so tired
they keep complaining
but wat can i do??

Juz keep on breathing
thats all

Wat a nice day

Today after my class
while waiting for my Malaysian study class
then czelyn saw the
Maybeline New York
Simply Fabulous things
then she dragged me to play wif her
then ok loh
i nvm mah
juz make up then take pic
thats wat i do always de lah
biasa ad

Lets the pic do all the talking lah:

Yeah
Thats with the banner
will upload the better view taken by the professional photographer


Closer view
as usual
nothing diff
but most of them were so shock

Wif Nadiah
the funny and funky girl

Hui Lei
quite a nice girl to talk to...
very nice

me n czelyn
her dream accomplished

mission accomplished

on the way home
such emo faces

y do i look like an ostrich leh??

emo again??

haha laugh
because today is a nice day for me

i was so scared today when i knew that i m going to meet
some formal people at starbucks from big company
i really thought is one person only
then its ok lah
but it turned out to be 3
i was so darn shocked
but nvm nvm
its for our own good
i have to pretend to be confidence
i have a cup of Americano
but i was so afraid
i keep stirring it
but i can speak so fluently
but in hard
i tell myself
need to endure this
for real
really

and at last it was over
they are so friendly
and i am so proud of myself
that i can handle it so well

Miss

Missing all my frens here and there
miss the time to chat
miss the time to cry on their shoulder
miss the time to laugh on the floor
miss the time that argue together and laugh at each other later
miss the time we act as a team in the sketch
miss the time we finishes the biggest event in our life
miss the time we rush here and there
miss the time we discuss
miss the time we kay-poh
miss the time we hit each other
miss the time we buy stuff together
miss the time we celebrate each other's birthday with touching plans
miss the time we eat together
miss the time we had meetings together
miss the time we play together
miss the time we take pictures together
miss the time we tall to each other about our heart
miss the time we work as a team and do everything together
miss the time we had outings together
miss the time we study together
miss the time we had cold wars
miss the time we going back together
miss the time we had together in my house
miss the time we conduct everything together
miss the friendship that we had
miss everyone
miss the one can understand me
miss the one can make me laugh
miss the one can make me cry
miss the one can make me angry
miss the misunderstandings
miss the looks in the eyes
miss the fun together
miss everything
and miss anything

friends.....

miss yitheng
miss jen
miss yee teng
miss pui yan
miss audrey
miss yen yee
miss steph
miss xini
miss katrin
miss chenli
miss jia woon
miss pui kei
miss shu shyan
miss angeline
miss caryn
miss wai yen
miss vanessa
miss pei san
miss everyone

Stress

I really so stressed out
that i almost give up.....
i almost
i almost

when i saw them
i cried
i saw their hardwork
their passion for us
they did together
he can do it
he can really endure a life tougher than mine
then y should i give up
he is so tired
but he is still him
they are all tired
but they din show
they did it so well
to make all of us proud of them
i should also make them proud to have me
he is the one i love
he is my almost everything now
he works hard
i too work hard

i really love u
i really do

Nowadays

I am getting more and more stressed up
I really think that time is really a bad guy
he din even give me enough time to rest and think
now i need to even think during rest
thats such a stressful life for my brain cells
i really need to rest enough
but sadly
there isn't enough time for me to rest and to think
so i really have to spare my rest time to think
for God sake
i really wanna rest
please just let me sleep
and keep everything in place
please
dun get everything mixed up and create a whole lot problem for me

College Day

I was sitting there at the corridor alone
and face the mini laptop for dun noe how many hours
i started from 8 and ends at around 3.30
without stopping
haiz
i am still very blurr now...
very blurr.....
headache ad...
so damn tired...
thx for all the caring group members

Today

Nothing much
is just that everything almost made me knock my head on the wall
i just want everything to go smoothly only
why everything seems so hard
but i can
i will endure it
and pass my exam wif flying colours
i wanna to get wat i expected

No WAy

No Way
I am getting sick
No Way
God please
dun lah like that
a lot of things need to be done leh
pls lah
i will go through this de
haha
please lah
i can feel it ad
so please lah god

People

I know
I knew
but i dun even take all the lesson into account
how stupid am i
how idiot am i
lol
i dun wan to think that much
i know people change
i knew it long ago
but
this time
is it
me thats the one who is changing
or
not

so confuse

Still Laughing

I am here to get rid of my stupid idiot thoughts that
keep bothering me
that keep my mind super busy
and i cant even concentrate on my studies
I wanna just write it all down
and let my blog read it and it will certainly help me
do all the reading and it sure wont blame me on
anything
and it will take good care of me

i wanna knock my head on the wall ad
too many things to think off
and time is so limited
i cant control my mind properly and it will sure end up
failing to do everything

so
i must and i can
do it

Laugh

I wanna laugh
but when i found out that
laugh is kind of hard now
or is it just at the moment
or is it forever

why cant i just wake up
and be the one that was happy
and cheerful before
is it my own problem??
i dun know
part of myself say yeah
part of myself say i dun noe

its such a confusing situation here
probably yeah?
probably no?

not sure
that wat

theng
i wanna to jump back to fri
that we had all the screaming and laughing
and i was totally so happy that day
feel so lighten up
and i think we can do it later
we will
dont we??

Smile

I will smile my way through everything of it
and do not let anyone know
anything and everything

Run

Everything that had happen
for these few days
made me feel like going on
a roller coaster
and
i almost make me vomit

i really feel like running away
as i saw ppl's real heart
that is not wat they really are
i know that doing nothing at the moment is the best solution
but things are getting complicated by its own

do you even know what
to lit up a fire is easier
than to put out the fire

i do not think
i can even hold up till the end
and solve the whole thing
i am getting to the border now

i juz want to disappear for a few days
without anyone of them
alone all alone
to really figure out the whole thing

i hate it
when it comes to me
and
i love u God
for giving me this task

Yi Theng

I will never forget this picture
juz as u say......

To my friend,
Life is getting complicated and I know it really going to drive you crazy. I think understand how you feel if my assumption is correct. Guys are brainless, they never think about other feeling.
If you really couldn't stand it, just take action to stop the suffering. I will respect your final decision.
Hopefully when you view this picture, this post will remind you us, friends who always there, stand by you. Hope it will chase the blue out of you. *smile*
I'm there for you to phone me.



When i saw this,
my eyes waters
u r always the one who can understand me and touch my heart
I am really getting insane day by day
and i think ur assumption is right....
i am so aimless now do not know what action should be taken
maybe i think too much
and yeah some guys are brainless
You always be by my side and respect all my decisions
because u sure understand wat make me made that decision
and i will always view that pic and remember that
u really stand by me everytime and anything happen
i really feel better when u assure me more
and thx for picking up all the call
whether with tears or without

心痛？

我真的不再为了这一切的一切心痛
虽然心中还是有点重
可是泪水已经不会再流了
我会笑着去面对
可是在笑的背后可是付出了很大的努力
我不想再回到从前
我真的不想
我不想这一切的一切重来
让自己再一次的受伤
这一次我只觉得
保持现在的情况是最好的
现在不是很好吗？
可以重来我真的不会在选择认识
也就不会受伤
也不会有烦恼
原点看起来好遥远
不想在回去的路途中再次的回顾
人生就只可以向前走
没有得再回头
没有得再重新选择
让我学会了很多

坚强的我
会坚强的走下去
会笑着走下去
不会再去回顾
就因为
我真的累了
我真的伤了
全身伤痕累累
没有完好无缺的一体
但
我会回来的

一切的一切
现在的决定
我一辈子也不会后悔

............

Speechless
I think i am doing at my best ad
Although there is plenty of stuff to be worried and think of
I am here
still smiling and laughing
i dun noe wat really need to show
juz bcz i hav problem
ppl also have theirs
but we shouldn't show right
ok then good
i will do it on my own
have a laugh here and there

I am tired but still smiling
thats all i can do

Happy Belated Birthday

Happy birthday to U...........
Happy belated birthday
This is ur 1st anniversary
and thx for accompany me for
this 1 year time
I presented u 2 cakes for reasons with it


The 1st reason is that
thx for being at my side
listening to all the stories that i have to tell
whether it is fiction or the real stuff
or even my own stupid feelings....
thx very much
mayb without u i would never be the same again

The 2nd reason is that
this is ur 1st year-old

There is also a letter for u

Dear Blog:
I know that u have changed plenty of names
because it symbolize that i am also changing too
i do not even know u like the name or not?
but i really hope so lah.....
In this 1 year
lots and lots had happened
and you are the only one
with me everytime
i am happy or even sad
with tears or without
when u became 1 year-old
and u do made me realize that time really flies
u are getting older and even me too
i have plenty to say but i do not know how to express all of it
i think u know right what i wanna to say
then thx and still thx
and hope that there is plenty of 1 year that u can accompany me
and go through all the hardships together
see me happy see me smile
see me sad see me cry

THX BLOG
I LOVE U!

Difference

Falling
Failing
is just the matter of letters
and it make such difference

complications
complicated
is just the matter of tenses
and it make the meaning different

People
Pieces
is just the matter of words
and it sound so different

everything
everyone
almost the same
and it still not the same

breathing
restless
craziness
that overwhelmed me
stop and think
turn my head around
and i had walked a long journey
and leave lots of footprints
here and there
just to indicate
i was there
just there
to inform everyone
actually i exist in this world

then i look ahead
there is still a long journey to go either
the road is still quite clean and fresh
waiting me to step on it
and as the same as the past
leave footprints here and there

it really depends on how
where and why
i leave footprints

different pattern of footprints
different colours of footprints
different ways to leave footprints
different feelings when leaving footprints

All these make differences
and it also can be used to judge me
did i went backwards
did i changed
did i went bad
did i do something wrong
did i regret
did i ...............

differences is what we need in order to grow
get use to it
just because path of life is full of all these
to make us fall
to make us think
to make us grow
all of these are made purposely and specially for us
by God
to test us
to try us
to let us understand more about us
to let us know how idiot are us

Love

when love is here
you would not know

when love is gone
you would be there
hugging yourself
blaming yourself
crying to yourself

but time
is not going to
rewind for you
but
you have to start to learn
how to move on

sometimes
do hope that
someone is there

waiting for you
smiling at you
ready to hug you
ready to kiss you
ready to comfort you
ready to make you laugh
ready to scold you
ready to fight with you
ready to listen to you
ready to talk to you
ready to share memories with you
ready to go through tough times together
ready to hold you when you fall
ready to cry with you
ready to miss you
ready to be with you
ready to worries about you
ready to know more about you
ready to learn new things with you
ready to dream about you
ready to care about your health
ready to notice your changes
ready to stand by your side
ready to present you with roses
ready to change your life
ready to do everything together

ready to let you and the whole world know that

he/she loves you

love is blind

love is always blind

now i believe
this sayings

the
sweetness
sourness
bitterness
of love

i can assure you that
you cant forget it
forever and ever

its in your heart
carved it
there



This is what i think about love
or you can say
this is what i fantasize about love

but love is still miles away

Read it before anything

At this time.....this minute and this second
I do love him and I do hate him at the same time
This is because he is not mine......
I think he never will
He is in a relationship??
I dun know.......
I can notice that he is not that happy
juz because of that girl
but i did not lose my mind and went straight
to the girl and punch her in her face.

But
he is always there when i needed him the most
and he is always giving me all the false hope
I really wanted to give up

At last
I gather all my courage and harden my heart
and punch him
He is a total bastard
that keep playing with my feelings

I regret
just right after i slapped and punched him
I totally regret on the mess that i had done
I really think that our whole relationship are really done

In my head.....
I think that after this fight
we will be done ad
and will never see each other
why dont i try to kiss him and finish my last wish
and move on
i keep thinking that it will only be awhile
and he will push me away
and without me noticing
we have been kissing for around 5 minutes
and till the end
only i realise that he was kissing me back

Then
he told me that he love me
i am the one that he love all the while
I feel like slapping him again
as i was so furious that
he confessed so late to me
about his real feelings
but
i dun dare to even challenge myself to slap him
just for a simple reason
just because i love him

I cried
and thinking of whether is it the right thing to do
whether i should accept him
or should i just reject his love?
should i obey my heart or obey my mind?

Without me realising....
I took the step and step away from him
and my heart ache when i did this
i can feel my heart ache so painfully
just when i heard my heart beats

He never let me off
he wrapped his arm tight around me
and not letting me go
...............


We really have sweet times together
although it doesn't last very long........
















The story above is only friction and created by Cherry
and if there is any part that sounds similar to others
it is just coincident

Tagged by Esther

Rules and regulation of the tag:

All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog. Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your head. And then answer the questions. Say you're guessing if you don't know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your unlucky friends to do the same.


The unlucky 21 are:

1) Yi Theng

2) Audrey

3) Yen Yee

4) Pui Yan

5) Glady

6) Milo

7) Ryan

8) Yew Ken

9) Chris

10) Alvis

11) Adam

12) Ron

13) Elise

14) Jill

15) Cze Lyn

16) Pei Wen

17) MingHui

18) Jeffrey

19) Kah Hoong

20) Pui Ying

21) Jason



1.How did you meet number 7? (Ryan)
We were in the same college

2.What would you do if you and 15 have never met? (Cze Lyn)
Lol...Lots of things wont happen gua...

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Pui Ying & Yi Theng)
LOL....unlikely lah...20 has her bf ad...but date 1 i think her bf wont mind!

4. Have you seen 17 cry? (MingHui)
Yeah..during primary school when it was during the graduating ceremony i guess


5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Pui Yan & Pei Wen)
Lol....wont lah.....


6. Do you think 11 is attractive? (Adam)
Lol..i think yeah since everyone is attractive in their own ways


7. What's 2's favourite colour? (Audrey)
Black...i guess....


8. When was the last time you talked to 9? (Chris)
Lol..that should be 3 hours ago....


9. What language does 8 speak? (Yew Ken)
English, Malay, Chinese and some dialects I think that i know and dun know.


10. Who is 13 going out with? (Elise)
Her bf lah ...obviously


11. Would you ever date 17? (MingHui)
Obviously....we did not meet since dun noe when....


12.Where does 18 live? (Jeffrey)
Erm...i think....ah....somewhere in cheras...or mayb not....

13. What is the best thing about 4? (Pui Yan)
She ah....her lame-ness gua....


14. What would you like to tell 10 right now? (Alvis)
Dun call me dai ga jeh ad lah....


15. What's the best thing about 20? (Pui Ying)
Her out-going ~ness lah....


16. Have you ever kissed 2? (Audrey)
Lol...Hell no


17. What is the best memory you have had of 5? (Glady)
She is the one that is the most blurr and will cry when she saw my card


18. When is the next time you are going to see 4? (Pui Yan)
I don't know...Mayb cheer competition.....it certainly depends


19. How is 7 different from 6? (Ryan & Milo)
He is a male and she is a female.


20. Is 2 pretty? (Audrey)
LOL...she would be terasa leh...lol pluss perasa....i think ok lah.. not bad.......though.


21. What was your 1st impression of 15? (Cze Lyn)
Erm....i dun noe leh...refrshing gua....


22. How did you meet 3? (Yen Yee)
We were classmates lah...


23. Is 5 your best friend? (Glady)
Erm..not exactly best in my own dictionary....but she's my good friend.


24. Do you hate 12? (Ron)
Nope. He is quite a funny guy.


25. Have you seen 18 last month? (Jeffrey)
No....I din see him for a long time ad......


26. When was the last time you saw 16? (Pei Wen)
Before my mid-term exam


27. Have you been to 5's house? (Glady)
No but i would love to


28. When is the next time you will see 10? (Alvis)
Monday.....


29. Are you close to 11? (Adam)
Once upon a time...and now no and i dun think in the future will


30. Have you been to movies with 4? (Pui Yan)
Yea..i guess so.....

31. Have you gotten into trouble with 8? (Yew Ken)
No and never willl


32. Would you give 19 a hug? (Kah Hoong)
NO!!!!!!!!!!! i will be killed by then


33. When have you lied to 3? (Yen Yee)
I dun quite remember...but i think so lah.....


34. Is 11 good at socializing? (Adam)
Depends on his mood


35. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Chris)
We can talk about lots of things together


36. Has 21 met you parents? (Jason)
No lah...y would i??


37. How did you meet 11? (Adam)
We are in the same college


38. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (Yen yee)
No gua...


39. Do you live close to 7? (Ryan)
Hell no...we are so far apart......


40. What's 8's favourite food? (Yew Ken)
Erm... I don't know.


41. What kind of car does 1 have? (Yi Theng)
She doesn't own a car lah....lol


42. Have you traveled anywhere with 9? (Chris)
No..but i would like to do so


43. If you give 14 $100, What would he/she do with it? (Jill)
Erm...go watch lots and lots of movie gua....

Frustrated

I dun even know what i m doing now?
I dun even know what the hell am i going through now?
Thinking logically
i think i am juz under too much stress
and thats the result of psychologically
i think too many emotions kept inside and
i think it reached its limit ad now
i am so exhausted and do not even know how to take care of it

When a bottle
u fill it up with water
and it will fill and when it reached the limit
the water will flow out of the bottle
but
heart is always different
u can fill it depends on how much u want
juz bcz it is without limit
u can fill it
and fill it
and fill it
when it almost reached the top of the heart
u can always compressed it
and there is ample of space more for me
to fill
and i think now
all the emotions and stressed
everything overflow now
my brain cant even process stuff properly
and i knew it very clearly
i think my mind need a break
it almost snap

heart, mind and soul........
they are all tired
and i cant help them
so sorry.......